I'm... quite literally a field executor, Flamebringer. I've been in fights before.
[ Also, you know, he does appreciate Flamebringer being so sweet and protective, but... on the other hand, Ezell fears it stems from his unwillingness to do things, rather than because he actually, you know, cares about Ezell. Something they've established before, sure, but Ezell had been chalking it up less as "Ezell matters" and more as "life matters". ]
If you don't want to do that, though... I don't know. I don't know what to do, and... I feel so useless. Everyone is feeling so bad and I don't know how to handle it when it's something like this. [ Spiraling, spiraling... ] I'm not good at this stuff, either. I want to be. I want to be dependable and comforting. I want to be somebody that people can feel like they can come to when they're feeling down. Like I'm someone that can help them with their problems, but I can't. I'm just... some shitty Sankta that doesn't have anything going for him.
But I really want to try with you. You're important to me, and I- I'm sorry. I wish there was something, I wish I could...
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[ Also, you know, he does appreciate Flamebringer being so sweet and protective, but... on the other hand, Ezell fears it stems from his unwillingness to do things, rather than because he actually, you know, cares about Ezell. Something they've established before, sure, but Ezell had been chalking it up less as "Ezell matters" and more as "life matters". ]
If you don't want to do that, though... I don't know. I don't know what to do, and... I feel so useless. Everyone is feeling so bad and I don't know how to handle it when it's something like this. [ Spiraling, spiraling... ] I'm not good at this stuff, either. I want to be. I want to be dependable and comforting. I want to be somebody that people can feel like they can come to when they're feeling down. Like I'm someone that can help them with their problems, but I can't. I'm just... some shitty Sankta that doesn't have anything going for him.
But I really want to try with you. You're important to me, and I- I'm sorry. I wish there was something, I wish I could...
[ He's shaking. ]