[ He's silent for a moment, then shakes his head. ]

Perhaps, yet I find strength with my brother here. If something were to happen to him... yes, I would be [ destroyed inside once again, hellbent on revenge ] grief stricken, but even when physical distance separated us, we have always ever done things together. Having him here stops me from worrying about where he might be or doing.

[ Another mouthful of stew. ]

Plus I can make sure he takes his medicine.