[He's about to answer how Min-Gi hasn't dated a lot and try to over-explain it, but then Luca leans in and Ryan is floundering for words.]
Wha-- no! No way!
[He shakes his head, hair fluttering.]
Like...first of all, I didn't even think I was hiding my identity from him but Min-Gi didn't figure it out until we showed up here? I mean, look at me!
[He gestures at himself up and down with a wave of his hand. He's always felt like he was obvious, but this actually kind of nice to talk about with someone who gets it, who might actually think it's a little funny.]
We talked it out, and he's cool with me but...our world isn't really cool with queer people at all. There's a lot going on there that's kind of exhausting to get into but it's not nearly as chill as it is here. Sometimes it's kind of scary, actually? So he was nice but like, super uncomfortable talking about it. And I...
[He has to stop and take a deep breath. Just the thought unsettles him, and a good breath will help keep him from bursting into tears about it.]
...I can't. If I tell him and it goes badly, I'll lose everything. My life with him is everything. And if we have to be just friends for us to stay together as long as possible, then we have to be just friends.
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Wha-- no! No way!
[He shakes his head, hair fluttering.]
Like...first of all, I didn't even think I was hiding my identity from him but Min-Gi didn't figure it out until we showed up here? I mean, look at me!
[He gestures at himself up and down with a wave of his hand. He's always felt like he was obvious, but this actually kind of nice to talk about with someone who gets it, who might actually think it's a little funny.]
We talked it out, and he's cool with me but...our world isn't really cool with queer people at all. There's a lot going on there that's kind of exhausting to get into but it's not nearly as chill as it is here. Sometimes it's kind of scary, actually? So he was nice but like, super uncomfortable talking about it. And I...
[He has to stop and take a deep breath. Just the thought unsettles him, and a good breath will help keep him from bursting into tears about it.]
...I can't. If I tell him and it goes badly, I'll lose everything. My life with him is everything. And if we have to be just friends for us to stay together as long as possible, then we have to be just friends.