... yes. It helped for a time. I don't think either of them anticipated that I would ever need to use it in the field of battle, though.
[ Kanao pockets the coin, but not before the pad of her thumb digs into the surface for a moment. Sorrow threads in between a steady affection as she remembers Kanae. It had been distant, back when she had died. Like trying to hear through thick wads of cotton stuffed in her ears. ]
I don't know for sure, but... I think they both wanted me to grow up to be a normal girl. Certainly not a slayer.
Yeah, that. Seems a little dangerous. Not a lot of time to be able to make a decision.
[Not that Kanao hadn't managed well. She was was a tsuguko, her master's protege. She seemed to even put Tanjiro and his friends to shame, which was saying something. Clearly, she'd managed to figure the whole thing out.
Not that she was perfect, apparently. He winces sympathetically at her confession.]
... My brother is the same way, I guess. He tried to push me away, to make sure I never got involved with the slayers. It only made me want it more.
[ The fact that Genya seems comfortable enough to share something in kind overjoys her! He had always seemed so terribly tangled up inside. It was never something she had conceptualized trying to tackle herself – she would surely have worsened it with her own agonies – but she knew Tanjiro had reached out to him. Had witnessed some of those struggles with the elder Shinazugawa firsthand, in fact.
Their relationships with their older siblings had been incredibly different. Shinobu had never been unkind to her. Hard on her, yes – distant, assuredly. But she had never been forced to endure anything physically from her sister's hand. A part of Kanao wonders if... Genya even wholly questioned that violence.
But this was hardly the time to bring such a delicate topic up. She nudges forward on the toes of her boots, peeking her head round a corner. The distant rumbling was far closer, now, but... ]
It sharpened your resolve. You wanted to close that distance between you in any way you could. My decision to participate in the Final Selection was similar.
[Without a weapon, there isn't much that Genya thinks he can do. He might not have been enough to best a hashira, but at least he was adept at taking out a few demons here and there. He could survive with something in hand.
Or maybe if he took a bite of whatever was down there? But Genya pushes the thought far from his head. He'd given his word to never tap into that ability again. More than that, he doesn't want to. Not when the chance of losing control, of hurting someone else, was on the table.
Still, he hates feeling weak. Kanao tells him to feel proud, but he only feels small. His hands clench into fists and -
something faintly electric sparks from them.]
I wouldn't go that far, but - [He shakes his head.] Listen to me. I think I might be able to distract whatever's out there, if it comes toward us.
[ That frustration threads through their connection. Kanao can sense that she has said something that prodded at the wrong, open wounds. Before she can dwell on it overmuch, though, her eyes are drawn to the sparking in his hands. The magic borne from the Grove...? They could use it down here?
But then he suggests providing a distraction. For a split second, reflexive fear swarms their emotional link. She, for a moment, vividly recalls how Shinobu had waylaid Upper Moon Two. Surely he didn't mean to sacrifice himself? A bead of sweat wells on her forehead. ]
[Genya feels that fear, sharp and brief enough to overwhelm, but only for a moment. He draws in a reflexive gasp, squeezes his eyes shut, and tries to find himself through it. Mentally, he repeats his chant. Through it, he's able to trace at least some of where that fear might come from.]
I'm not going to get us hurt. [He's quick to shake his head.] If it shows up, I can use my magic from here. Make a tornado, cause some thunder. Draw its attention elsewhere so we can sneak past.
[He can't die down here. Not if he wants Kanao to live, and not if he wants to make it back to his brother. There's no other way but forward.]
[ She's affecting him. Her own fear is having an adverse effect on him. Kanao's fright twists into ugly, self-directed anger for all of a split second before she does the same as him, though they might not know it. She starts to repeat the chant in her head. ]
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[ Kanao pockets the coin, but not before the pad of her thumb digs into the surface for a moment. Sorrow threads in between a steady affection as she remembers Kanae. It had been distant, back when she had died. Like trying to hear through thick wads of cotton stuffed in her ears. ]
I don't know for sure, but... I think they both wanted me to grow up to be a normal girl. Certainly not a slayer.
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[Not that Kanao hadn't managed well. She was was a tsuguko, her master's protege. She seemed to even put Tanjiro and his friends to shame, which was saying something. Clearly, she'd managed to figure the whole thing out.
Not that she was perfect, apparently. He winces sympathetically at her confession.]
... My brother is the same way, I guess. He tried to push me away, to make sure I never got involved with the slayers. It only made me want it more.
[What an idiot. Both of them, really.]
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Their relationships with their older siblings had been incredibly different. Shinobu had never been unkind to her. Hard on her, yes – distant, assuredly. But she had never been forced to endure anything physically from her sister's hand. A part of Kanao wonders if... Genya even wholly questioned that violence.
But this was hardly the time to bring such a delicate topic up. She nudges forward on the toes of her boots, peeking her head round a corner. The distant rumbling was far closer, now, but... ]
It sharpened your resolve. You wanted to close that distance between you in any way you could. My decision to participate in the Final Selection was similar.
[ She smiles at him. ]
You should be proud.
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Or maybe if he took a bite of whatever was down there? But Genya pushes the thought far from his head. He'd given his word to never tap into that ability again. More than that, he doesn't want to. Not when the chance of losing control, of hurting someone else, was on the table.
Still, he hates feeling weak. Kanao tells him to feel proud, but he only feels small. His hands clench into fists and -
something faintly electric sparks from them.]
I wouldn't go that far, but - [He shakes his head.] Listen to me. I think I might be able to distract whatever's out there, if it comes toward us.
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But then he suggests providing a distraction. For a split second, reflexive fear swarms their emotional link. She, for a moment, vividly recalls how Shinobu had waylaid Upper Moon Two. Surely he didn't mean to sacrifice himself? A bead of sweat wells on her forehead. ]
... how?
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I'm not going to get us hurt. [He's quick to shake his head.] If it shows up, I can use my magic from here. Make a tornado, cause some thunder. Draw its attention elsewhere so we can sneak past.
[He can't die down here. Not if he wants Kanao to live, and not if he wants to make it back to his brother. There's no other way but forward.]
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I'm – not worried about that. I –.
[ She fidgets in place. ]
Didn't want you to sacrifice yourself.