[The hand on his shoulder is entirely warranted - as almost as soon as Kyojuro presses down, there will be the resistance from an attempt to get up. He's fine, surely. He's had more brushes with death than he can remember. He's alive now, so what's he doing on the ground when-
When Sanemi is already at the clinic.
When Kyojuro is hovering over him, all reassurances and gentle concern and gentler touch.
He finds himself leaning into that hand all too easily, not even bothering to second guess the stolen moments.]
Yeah, we fucked up...
[Handicap or no, they should have been able to handle it.]
You did all that you could, Tengen. I know that to be true.
[He knows the forest all too well, knows what it's capable of throwing at them. Kyojuro has no doubt that it was a hellish experience.]
In a moment, you are going to get up. Gently now, take it steady. [The whole point of keeping Tengen from sitting up in the first place was to keep him from becoming lightheaded. Hopefully, a slower process would help.] Unfortunately, you will have to walk to the clinic. Even with my blessings, I do not think I am strong enough to carry you!
M'sure he told you we were chained by our good hands...
[It's not an argument against the idea that he'd done all he could... and yet it is all the same. Neither of them had been able to act - or react - as they normally might have been. Which was probably intended, surely, but... it still stung.]
Hah... if I could walk home after battling an upper moon, I can walk this off...
[Bravado, lest he allow worry to crash into him. Bravado, to maybe get a bit of that smile back on Kyojuro's face.
...The world spins all the same when he begins to sit up. Maybe this did take more out of him than he'd like to admit.]
Maybe when I've recovered we test those blessings of yours.
[Kyojuro does not smile. Some part of him knows that Tengen is trying. Another part tells him to suck it up and smile through the pain. But it has been an exhausting night.
He still hears Sanemi, yowling and spitting in frustration. He feels the blade used to kill innocent in his hand. And he cannot shake the memory of Tengen, unbreathing.
It is all so much to bear. He will do it, but for once he does not try to grit our a smile.]
The clinic first.
[Kyojuro rises to his feet. His hand extends -- at the very least, he should be able to help Tengen up, and then he offers his shoulder to lean on.]
[It's not a quick process, but with Kyojuro's help, Tengen does rise to his feet, though he doesn't immediately take advantage of the offered shoulder. Maybe he should - the world is still spinning a bit, after all - but... the dark voice in the back of his mind telling him if he stays planted he'll be fine is easier to listen to than it ought to be.
After all, he's on his feet, he's fine, or will be.
But Kyojuro isn't.
So he puts his hand - his real hand - on that offered shoulder, before dragging it up to his cheek, mirroring the gentle touch he'd woken up to.]
Hey. Let it out.
[His frustration, his pain, his exhaustion all reads plain on his face, but as soon as they return to the settlement, there will be others around, more reason to bottle it up, ignore it.
[Kyojuro winces, the moment the attention is turned on him. He might have thought his mask a little tighter, his composure a little stronger.
He'll have to try harder.]
I am fine, Tengen. You are not. [He takes a step forward in an effort to coax the other man onward.] That tree left something beneath your skin that I cannot mend. The clinic will need to assist you, and perhaps reach out to someone else from there. The longer we wait, the worse I fear it will get.
[Duty must be carried out above all. Kyojuro reminds himself of this again and again as he forced his expression to smooth out. He could not crumble when there was more to be done.]
[Most others would have been fooled. Most others would have seen a man who was, rightly so, shaken by what he'd seen, but willing, able, to press onward for the sake of duty. Unflappable. Reliable.
Tengen wasn't most others, and he's risking his own mask by pressing the issue, surely, but... he's alive. He's out of the worst of the danger. His concern is, unfortunately, never himself first.
But he could relent, just a bit. Just this once.]
If I don't argue, will you stay with me in the clinic? You're less fine than you want to be, and I've still got one good shoulder to lean on.
[The relief doesn't show on Kyojuro's face, but it certainly washes over him. At the very least, he can kick this argument down the road. Not that he particularly wants to deal with at all.
But he can come up with excuses later. And in any case, he did want to check in on Sanemi, even if he's certain the other man will rankle at his presence.]
It will do well, to have someone to watch over you both.
[Something in the back of Kyojuro's mind reminds him that either man could succumb to their corruption. Thus, it was all the better that he remained close.
Still, he is quick to add, as another out:]
Not for too long. Senjuro will start to worry, given the current state of things.
[An excuse is an excuse and Kyojuro has just given him two - someone to watch over them, someone to look after Senjuro. He... can't exactly argue with the latter, he'd hate his own stubbornness to be the cause of Senjuro having to go through something horrifying, and yet his voice holds reproach.]
[There's a degree of forcefulness within his voice, anger that he hates bubbling beneath his skin. He hates feeling like this, hates when it gets so close to the surface that he begins to sound like his father. Images of the man dance behind his mind, and he flinches visibly.]
With two of our number now meant to recover, there are less of us to protect those of the Grove. We cannot afford to sit back.
[He cannot afford to sit back. Not when his brother, or any of the other children, could just as easily be swept up in this mess.]
Let us begin moving. We have already taken up enough time.
[He'll relent... to a point. He'll walk with him, will lean on his shoulder - pointedly with the side less marred by corruption - but will not drop the issue entirely. How could he, when its so incredibly obvious that something is eating him alive from the inside out.]
Will you tell me what's wrong while we walk at least? There's time...
[A huff of a sigh, another small allowance-]
I'll drop whatever it is when we get there if it means you just... talk to me, Kyojuro.
[He doesn't want to. His role is one of protection. Burdening others with his woes goes against everything he's been taught to stand for. But even he can see that he will not be getting out of this unscathed. Not without talking about himself.
In the end, he chooses something recent. Something that will surely distract Tengen, and leave him more concerned with someone aside from Kyojuro himself.]
Shinazugawa and I fought. He was most upset that I did not return immediately to find you, even after I insisted that you would be upset if I did not see him to the clinic first.
[The distraction is momentary, and his tone in response is affectionate. Tengen can picture how the fight had gone, neither one of the stubborn men he cares for so deeply willing to give an inch.
The reasons running deeper under the fight, though, were of more concern... and not something he had the ability to put to rest. He could help shoulder the pain, surely, but either one of them - or, ideally... laughably, both - would need to open up before he could.]
It's still bothering you? Or... is there something else?
[Considering the way their bodies have settled against one another, Tengen will undoubtedly feel the way Kyojuro stiffens. If he were a swearing man, an oath might have escaped his lips. He wants nothing more than to leave this conversation behind them, and focus instead on Tengen's recovery.
He says nothing for a long while, hoping that silence will be enough of an answer. When it only eats at the back of Kyojuro's mind, he instead shakes his head.]
I told you, I do not wish to speak of this right now. [In the distance, through the rain, Kyojuro makes out the clinic.] We are almost there, and I would not wish to upset Sanemi by hashing out the details in his presence.
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When Sanemi is already at the clinic.
When Kyojuro is hovering over him, all reassurances and gentle concern and gentler touch.
He finds himself leaning into that hand all too easily, not even bothering to second guess the stolen moments.]
Yeah, we fucked up...
[Handicap or no, they should have been able to handle it.]
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[He knows the forest all too well, knows what it's capable of throwing at them. Kyojuro has no doubt that it was a hellish experience.]
In a moment, you are going to get up. Gently now, take it steady. [The whole point of keeping Tengen from sitting up in the first place was to keep him from becoming lightheaded. Hopefully, a slower process would help.] Unfortunately, you will have to walk to the clinic. Even with my blessings, I do not think I am strong enough to carry you!
[He tries to smile, but it fades on his face.]
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[It's not an argument against the idea that he'd done all he could... and yet it is all the same. Neither of them had been able to act - or react - as they normally might have been. Which was probably intended, surely, but... it still stung.]
Hah... if I could walk home after battling an upper moon, I can walk this off...
[Bravado, lest he allow worry to crash into him. Bravado, to maybe get a bit of that smile back on Kyojuro's face.
...The world spins all the same when he begins to sit up. Maybe this did take more out of him than he'd like to admit.]
Maybe when I've recovered we test those blessings of yours.
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[Kyojuro does not smile. Some part of him knows that Tengen is trying. Another part tells him to suck it up and smile through the pain. But it has been an exhausting night.
He still hears Sanemi, yowling and spitting in frustration. He feels the blade used to kill innocent in his hand. And he cannot shake the memory of Tengen, unbreathing.
It is all so much to bear. He will do it, but for once he does not try to grit our a smile.]
The clinic first.
[Kyojuro rises to his feet. His hand extends -- at the very least, he should be able to help Tengen up, and then he offers his shoulder to lean on.]
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After all, he's on his feet, he's fine, or will be.
But Kyojuro isn't.
So he puts his hand - his real hand - on that offered shoulder, before dragging it up to his cheek, mirroring the gentle touch he'd woken up to.]
Hey. Let it out.
[His frustration, his pain, his exhaustion all reads plain on his face, but as soon as they return to the settlement, there will be others around, more reason to bottle it up, ignore it.
Right now, it's just them and the trees.]
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He'll have to try harder.]
I am fine, Tengen. You are not. [He takes a step forward in an effort to coax the other man onward.] That tree left something beneath your skin that I cannot mend. The clinic will need to assist you, and perhaps reach out to someone else from there. The longer we wait, the worse I fear it will get.
[Duty must be carried out above all. Kyojuro reminds himself of this again and again as he forced his expression to smooth out. He could not crumble when there was more to be done.]
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Tengen wasn't most others, and he's risking his own mask by pressing the issue, surely, but... he's alive. He's out of the worst of the danger. His concern is, unfortunately, never himself first.
But he could relent, just a bit. Just this once.]
If I don't argue, will you stay with me in the clinic? You're less fine than you want to be, and I've still got one good shoulder to lean on.
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But he can come up with excuses later. And in any case, he did want to check in on Sanemi, even if he's certain the other man will rankle at his presence.]
It will do well, to have someone to watch over you both.
[Something in the back of Kyojuro's mind reminds him that either man could succumb to their corruption. Thus, it was all the better that he remained close.
Still, he is quick to add, as another out:]
Not for too long. Senjuro will start to worry, given the current state of things.
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[An excuse is an excuse and Kyojuro has just given him two - someone to watch over them, someone to look after Senjuro. He... can't exactly argue with the latter, he'd hate his own stubbornness to be the cause of Senjuro having to go through something horrifying, and yet his voice holds reproach.]
You're running away.
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[There's a degree of forcefulness within his voice, anger that he hates bubbling beneath his skin. He hates feeling like this, hates when it gets so close to the surface that he begins to sound like his father. Images of the man dance behind his mind, and he flinches visibly.]
With two of our number now meant to recover, there are less of us to protect those of the Grove. We cannot afford to sit back.
[He cannot afford to sit back. Not when his brother, or any of the other children, could just as easily be swept up in this mess.]
Let us begin moving. We have already taken up enough time.
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[He'll relent... to a point. He'll walk with him, will lean on his shoulder - pointedly with the side less marred by corruption - but will not drop the issue entirely. How could he, when its so incredibly obvious that something is eating him alive from the inside out.]
Will you tell me what's wrong while we walk at least? There's time...
[A huff of a sigh, another small allowance-]
I'll drop whatever it is when we get there if it means you just... talk to me, Kyojuro.
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In the end, he chooses something recent. Something that will surely distract Tengen, and leave him more concerned with someone aside from Kyojuro himself.]
Shinazugawa and I fought. He was most upset that I did not return immediately to find you, even after I insisted that you would be upset if I did not see him to the clinic first.
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[The distraction is momentary, and his tone in response is affectionate. Tengen can picture how the fight had gone, neither one of the stubborn men he cares for so deeply willing to give an inch.
The reasons running deeper under the fight, though, were of more concern... and not something he had the ability to put to rest. He could help shoulder the pain, surely, but either one of them - or, ideally... laughably, both - would need to open up before he could.]
It's still bothering you? Or... is there something else?
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He says nothing for a long while, hoping that silence will be enough of an answer. When it only eats at the back of Kyojuro's mind, he instead shakes his head.]
I told you, I do not wish to speak of this right now. [In the distance, through the rain, Kyojuro makes out the clinic.] We are almost there, and I would not wish to upset Sanemi by hashing out the details in his presence.