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oleaeuropaea ([personal profile] oleaeuropaea) wrote in [community profile] sticksandbones2024-03-23 02:24 pm

Back Up The Stairs Again

Who: The April Fool Himself, Vash the STampede
What: Vash returns to the Grove
When: Early, early morning, April 1st.
Where: Around the Grove
Warnings: Sibling death, Vash related Vashing, gradual mentions of corruption. Brief mentions of eye changes possibly verging on eye horror?

i. Running in Shoes that ShineOutside the Church, OTA

[When Vash emerges from the woods, it’s well past midnight. Most anyone in the grove would likely be asleep, and he wouldn’t blame them for it. In fact, he’s counting on it. The last thing he wants is to be disturbed like this. He has a task to complete, and the last thing he wants is to field questions.

Nai’s body is laid down beside the grave that holds Wolfwood. He doesn’t yet process that space has collapsed in on itself, too focused on making sure his brother is properly secured. His jacket is removed, and set to the side. The knife tendrils are laid out like wings behind him. It almost looks like he’s sleeping in the moonlight. Almost.

The conversation he has with Heimr is quick. Just a shovel, please don’t ask any questions. He’s sure the shopkeeper knows he’s been gone for weeks. He doesn’t want to hear any of it. He takes the shovel and trudges back to the church.

Digging the grave takes ages. It’s slowed by the wounds still clinging to Vash’s body. The newer ones, ones that cropped up when he strayed too far from the path in his exhaustion, tear themselves open anew. His already torn thermal becomes wet with blood and sweat. But still he digs.

By the time the sun rises, Nai has been placed into the dirt and covered up anew. Vash stares down at his work with an unreadable expression. He still wears Wolfwood’s glasses. He refuses to take them off. It means his vision is darkened to an almost crippling degree. If someone approached, he wouldn’t know it.]


ii. With Blood that isn't Mine Inside the Church, Closed to [personal profile] livlaughlove and [personal profile] lupusxylem

[At some point, Vash shakes off whoever has approached him. He enters the church, movements stiff, pained, and robotic. He kneels before the cross, his head bowed low. He’s never believed in this particular god. In a lot of ways, it feels wrong to kneel and pray to Him, when he’s already cast his faith behind a different divine. But Nick did believe, as far as Vash knew, and Nai had at least seemed interested in the teachings of this faith. And so to this God he prays.

Forgive them. Let them rest peacefully. Let them find comfort.

It’s short, all things considered. He doesn’t want to linger here overlong, not after everything that’s happened. Not when he still isn’t ready for questions. But when he tries to rise, he finds his legs locking up on him. All at once, his body feels weak. Instead of standing, he collapses against the cold ground. He stares up at the cross, wondering if this is spite somehow.

And then his vision darkens.]



iii. A Stinging Trophy Around the Grove

[A few days and reunions later, Vash at least seems capable of walking around the grove on his own. Wolfwood’s glasses have been replaced with his own. These aren’t quite as capable of hiding the changes that the darker lenses might have. His eyes have shifted, almost as if the sky blue hue of his iris had begun to bleed into the sclera. The faint, pastel blue hint might even be imperceptible at first glance.

If you’re caught staring, Vash will simply look away, waving anyone off with a half-smile.]


It’s nothing. Just picked up a little something while I was lost in the woods. It’ll fade, I’m sure.

iv. Of the Battles I've SurvivedWildcard

[Vash is going to be throwing himself back into the Grove like nothing happened. Feel free to encounter him anywhere around the town. Or, reach out to me and we can plot something out!]

v. SUPER SECRET BONUS PROMPT

[A few days after his arrival and subsequent chat on the Netbook, something new appears in the grove. Where once Beiwe's statue stood alone, now a second statue joins her. Which means over the next few days, Vash can be found trying to make sure she's well-cared for in her new home. He brings a cutting from his Geranium, still growing strong, and tries to get it to root within the dirt there. A few other flowers are gathered for her as well.

Anyone on the Netbooks will find a short note in their pages. "Ourania is home. Please come say hi!"

More importantly, he can be found sitting in front of her every evening, just as the moon reaches its highest point within the sky. He isn't sure if he's praying so much as he is just talking, but Vash can be heard speaking to her all the same. It's usually casual conversation, but there's plenty of praise being heaped on as well.

He's new to this! Don't judge him!]


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[personal profile] lupusxylem 2024-03-25 03:59 am (UTC)(link)
[As Livio exits the clinic to wait for Wolfwood...he'll spot him still halfway across the Grove proper. It's not that he lacks the strength to propel the damn chair, it's just more that this is a skill he did not previously possess, and it's not been enjoyable having to learn it on grass. But slowly and steadily he's coming, at least until he gets a few dozen yards off and has to stop to rest. That's when he'll look up and meet Livio's gaze for just long enough to let him know he needs his help.

He is thankful, up until now, he's never really needed to express it verbally.

As they make their way to the front, though, Wolfwood will sit back and murmur to Livio.]


Hey. Can I talk to you, before we go in there?
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[personal profile] livlaughlove 2024-03-25 04:13 am (UTC)(link)
[for better or worse, livio might as well be attached to wolfwood. though... truth be told, he isn't sure where he's going to stand once vash is back on his feet. the house is small, and livio was never really a resident. it'll probably be on vash to help nick out like this.

he can worry about that later, he supposes. right now, he should give all his attention to nicholas.]


Of course.
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[personal profile] lupusxylem 2024-03-25 04:18 am (UTC)(link)
[It isn't until they come to a stop that Wolfwood speaks up...but not without shifting a little in the chair so he can reach over and take Livio's hand.]

I know both you and I ain't much for big emotional speeches, so I'll make it short. I just...

You've been here for me this entire time. You've been bendin' over backwards just to make sure I got everything I need, and...you've been gettin' caught between me n'blondie's messes ever since you got here on top of that.

[His thumb brushes over his knuckles, not unlike how Livio held his hand when he woke up in the clinic.]

I wanna know how you're feelin' about it. And...I want you to know that you don't have to deal with this with me, but I want you there as much as I feel like you've got a right to be there.

But that's only if you wanna be here.

[Because he knows you, Livio. You're going to do whatever he tells you, whether it's what you actually want or not.]
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[personal profile] livlaughlove 2024-03-25 04:35 am (UTC)(link)
[it's comforting, the touch, especially as gentle and thoughtful as it is. as to whether it actually changes livio's mind, well... it takes him a moment to find words.]

It isn't that I don't wanna be there for you. It's just... I feel like it ain't my business, mostly. I mean, I'm mad. I'm mad he did the exact opposite of what you asked him, but not because it made things harder on me or anything. Just because it went against the one thing you asked. But then, it's your choice to forgive him or not, not mine.

[he sighs, shifting and letting his gaze drift away.]

... I also know he's beatin' himself up about it already, and I don't wanna make him feel cornered.

[and, predictably...] But I'll be there if you need me to be.
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[personal profile] lupusxylem 2024-03-25 04:42 am (UTC)(link)
Yeah...I know.

[He isn't sure what Vash is expecting they'll say to him, but he does know that Vash is likely in there self deprecating as they speak. None of the three of them are mentally well, is the takeaway.

After a moment of silence, Wolfwood will gesture for Livio to come a step closer. If and when he does, he'll reach out to rest his other hand briefly against his middle. If he could be standing, it would be his chest, but...you know.]


It's less that I need you to be there, and more that I don't want to leave you out. I mean...I need you just as much as I needed him. I love you, Liv.

[He closes his eyes, pulling Livio's hand close enough so that he can press his lips to his knuckles.]

I'll be okay, whatever you want to do. I just want it to be your choice, not mine. You feel me?
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[personal profile] livlaughlove 2024-03-25 04:50 am (UTC)(link)
["needed" sends livio into a panic, as well as he hides it. he may well be misinterpreting, but his brain is a professional at taking one tiny anxiety-inducing scrap and running away with it.

he doesn't want anything to do with this. he also doesn't want to be left in the dark. he doesn't want nick to singlehandedly fight against vash's self-flagellation. he also doesn't want vash to face nick alone.

the only hint at any of this mental spiral is the quickened pulse wolfwood may feel in the veins of livio's hand, pressed so sweetly to his lips.]


I'm sorry, if I've put too much on you. I didn't think of it like that.
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[personal profile] lupusxylem 2024-03-25 04:59 am (UTC)(link)
[Fortunately, Livio’s anxiety is causing him to misinterpret things. The situation is not so dire as he fears, no matter how Wolfwood has been feeling about it. It’s just a matter of getting over this hurdle, which…Wolfwood couldn’t even be sure would be one they could cross. There’s no guarantee you come back, and Vash had been gone for weeks.

Just as he had.

He takes note of his quickening pulse, shaking his head a little as he draws back a fraction.]


Nah. Everything has been a bit much, but it hasn’t been you. I can’t really thank you enough for stickin’ by me until now.

Which is why I’m tellin’ you that you can go, or you can stay. I’m leavin’ that up to you.

[Which he realizes is it’s own stress considering how Livio operates.]

I won’t be mad either way.
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[personal profile] livlaughlove 2024-03-25 05:09 am (UTC)(link)
[he should be there for nick. he knows he should.

and yet... he wants so badly to walk away.

ugh. he can always stand in the corner and let himself drift out of the conversation, right? he hardly needs to try, these days.]


I'll... always be here for you. [ultimately, he means that. so he takes control of his hand back to caress at nick's cheek.] Whenever you're ready.
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[personal profile] lupusxylem 2024-03-25 06:45 pm (UTC)(link)
[There's a pause before Wolfwood's expression softens, and for just a moment, he leans into the touch of Livio's hand like a contented cat.]

I know you will be.

Let's get in there. Add's probably got him settled somewhere by now.
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[personal profile] livlaughlove 2024-03-25 11:22 pm (UTC)(link)
[liv nods, and after he's gotten wolfwood and his chair up the steps and through the door all situated properly, he pushes him over toward where vash was last.]

Vash? It's us.
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[personal profile] lupusxylem 2024-03-26 12:29 am (UTC)(link)
[It's silent. It's awkward. It's everything Wolfwood was dreading, yet knew needed to happen sooner rather than later. He just wishes he knew exactly what he wanted to say to Vash, here.

Ruminating and being angry about how things had gone for a solid week should have given him an exact script of things to say, but now that he's here? Now that he's seeing Vash again- eye to fucked up eye? The words aren't coming to him so easily. He'd waited for Livio to push his chair into the room, near Vash's bed but not so close as to be beside it just yet, and now...the silence reigns.

It is stifling. The emotions he's grabbling with are threatening to drag him under, and he hates it more than anything. He wants to be angry, enraged, but just as much as he's upset...he also just wants to hold him. He wants to fall asleep in his arms and pretend none of this ever happened.

But he can't. He has to break the silence.]


...why did you leave.
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[personal profile] lupusxylem 2024-03-26 12:59 am (UTC)(link)
[Wolfwood has to bite his tongue, nearly in half, to stop himself from saying something mean and unhelpful. It speaks to how what he's gone through has affected him, maybe, that he's actually able to hold it back. The self depreciation is as expected as it is hard to listen to, because he knew that's what Vash was going to pepper his explanation with. He wants to tell him that, if he knew it was a stupid, fool idea, then why the fuck did he go through with it?

It's because he's always acted with his heart, not his head.

He looks down for just a moment, eyeing wherever Vash's hands might have ended up. On either side of him on the bed, or maybe in his lap.]


"The road to hell's paved with good intentions". You've prolly heard that one.

[Wolfwood sighs heavily, his nails digging into the arms of his chair.]

...when I woke up, Liv told me you took off into the woods, and that he hadn't seen you again. That it'd been weeks since.

You didn't plan on ever makin' it back. Did you?
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[personal profile] livlaughlove 2024-03-26 01:11 am (UTC)(link)
[this is every bit as awkward as he imagined. and just as he imagined, livio doesn't think he should be here for this conversation. he doesn't have anything to contribute, doesn't even have any commentary, and he sure as shit doesn't have any business hearing either of them guess at what's going on in the other's brain.

granted, he's been wondering the same thing -- why vash thought abandoning nicholas' last wishes was worth it. a suicide mission to take out the creature sounds... about right, actually.

livio doesn't blame vash for leaving him behind. hell -- if nick hadn't deliberately asked him to hang tight, if he hadn't thought of poor angelina, livio might have done damn near the same thing.

he keeps to himself. waits for their conversation to reach its conclusion. tries to act like he isn't there, as much as he physically can.]
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[personal profile] lupusxylem 2024-03-26 01:57 am (UTC)(link)
[Some part of Wolfwood knows he's being unreasonable. He's not pulling any punches here, going straight for the questions Vash won't want to answer, and accusations that- while not made entirely in bad faith- aren't putting a lot of faith in Vash's intentions either. But, underneath it all, it's coming from a place that cares. A place that's been hurt.

A place that had trusted Vash to be there when he couldn't.]


...yer lucky to be alive, yaknow.

[He growls, and the chair suddenly shifts. For a moment, it almost looks like he's going to wheel it away.

Instead, though, he moves closer to Vash's bedside. He pushes himself all the way over until he's close enough to touch, if he wanted.

He pulls off his shades, folding and tucking them into the collar of his shirt. It makes it harder for him to hide behind their dark lenses, but it also means that Vash can't avoid his gaze anymore. Nor is Wolfwood having to watch the way those criss-crossing glowing lines frame his new scars.]


I'm...glad you're alive. Cause I laid here thinkin' we'd never see you again.

[His expression falls a fraction, his gaze sliding over to where Livio stands across the room. He doesn't want to speak for Livio. He doesn't want to put him in a position where he has to involve himself.

He places his hand on the bed, just an inch or so away from Vash.]


...Fuck, Vash. I...hate it when you do shit like this. I hate it when you make me feel like this.

[...]

....and. None'a this woulda' happened if I'd just listened.
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[personal profile] lupusxylem 2024-03-26 03:14 am (UTC)(link)
[Wolfwood waits. He waits to see what Vash might say...what he might do. If he might choose to meet his gaze, or continue to look away, resolute. In the end, blue meets brown, and he feels his heart skip a beat where it's lodged itself in his throat at the way Vash looks at him, forlorn. Very much like a kicked puppy, very...Vash.

Despite everything.

When he sinks forward and lays his forehead against his shoulder, Wolfwood doesn't move. He stays very still, his eyes drifting half closed. He was going to interject if that apology didn't go to Livio as well, so it isn't until Vash thinks to address the other man that Wolfwood's raising hackles lower again.]


...yeah. You shouldn't've. And I think you owe Liv more of an apology than me.

[He says that quietly, just as Vash reaches for his hand to take.

He was almost beginning to worry he wouldn't. He chooses to not address the last thing Vash says, at least not yet. None of them can deny it: Wolfwood's actions set this domino affect into action. That's all there is to it.]
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[personal profile] livlaughlove 2024-03-26 12:51 pm (UTC)(link)
[seeing them both allow one another contact, and at least somewhat calmer words, is cathartic for livio. it no longer feels like the world is teetering on the verge of falling apart all over again. maybe things are still awkward, but hell, liv is more than used to awkward.]

I'm not angry with you. [and that's true enough. he's now heard a direct apology to nick, a genuine one not seeped in self-deprecation. and just to address what wolfwood tacks on...] I forgive you, for my part.

[somehow, though... this doesn't feel like enough. they're both clearly still stuck in their own heads, blaming themselves. the last thing livio wants is to place blame for the bonfire on either of their shoulders when they're already so weighed down, but...]

... Any one of us could have stopped it, and we didn't. [it doesn't feel fair that he's the only one who came out of this unscathed, though. (which isn't true, given the new scars visible on his forearms, but he's bled less recently than either of them, so that's how he sees it.)] I'm not saying either of you... had something coming to you because of it. I just mean... maybe it'll be an easier burden if we all agree to carry it.
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[personal profile] lupusxylem 2024-03-26 07:17 pm (UTC)(link)
...Blondie.

[Wolfwood interjects, his gaze still focused on Vash. There's a reason he's been so still, simply accepting the gestures and watching without reciprocating, and it isn't out of coldness, no matter how it may seem. He needed to give Vash the time to speak his piece. Livio time to, as well. He cannot claim to know exactly the status of Livio and Vash's relationship, but as far as Wolfwood himself is concerned, they're a trio in his heart. And to hear that Livio harbors no ill will speaks volumes.

Not that he ever assumed such, of course. It's clear that Livio, for all of his time in the Grove, has been a lot better at managing his anger than Wolfwood has. It...says a lot, considering.

He exhales heavily, having seen the way Vash let go of his hand to draw back into himself. So, instead of reaching for it again, Wolfwood will push his chair a fraction closer until the arms touch the mattress, close enough that he can reach out and rest his palm- rough and calloused- against the side of Vash's face. Fingertips ghosting over patched up cuts and scrapes, both old and new. Looking at his eyes more than anything, clocking the way they aren't right.

Wolfwood brushes his thumb over Vash's cheek, as if contemplating.]


You're an idiot. And I'm still mad at you. [...] But you're an even bigger idiot if you think I'm gonna leave when we just got you back.

[Then, his hand moves, shifting around to more along the back of Vash's head, the edge of his thumb skating over his sideburns.]

...I missed you. Alright?
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[personal profile] lupusxylem 2024-03-27 02:39 am (UTC)(link)
[Honestly? Seeing Vash finally, finally allow himself to show just an iota of emotion takes a huge weight off Wolfwood's shoulders, because he was expecting full well for Vash to just internalize this and beat himself up about it for the rest of time like he does with everything else. Like, he gets it, it isn't like he isn't guilty of his own share of this, but...at this point, Livio is right. There's blame to be shouldered on all parties (though he'd argue least of all with Livio, but he would never say that aloud), and there won't be any real solution reaching or catharsis to be found in continuing to take responsibility where it's not warranted. Even if it feels justified.

So, as Vash sinks forward again and buries his face into Wolfwood's shoulder, not only does he keep his hand cradling what is now the back of Vash's head, he'll reach his other arm around and actually embrace Vash fully, for the first time since either of them have been back. It's a lighter hold at first, almost tentative...but then he redoubles his efforts, his fingers digging into the back of his thermal as he grips Vash to his chest like a lifeline as the Independent starts to cry even harder.]


Hey....hey. I know. [He murmurs against Vash's ear, his fingers pushing through those blonde locks.] I'm...I'm just glad you made it back to us.

[He didn't miss those injuries. There's a reason he refused to speak to Vash until he was certain he'd get himself looked at.

And now he has...and now he's here. And as he sits there holding Vash, he sort of turns his head a bit against his shoulder, angling himself so he can look back across the room at Livio. It's a silent invitation, given how much Vash has been peppering in those "both of you"s.]


We're gonna be alright now. Shhh.
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[personal profile] livlaughlove 2024-03-27 09:57 pm (UTC)(link)
["we." "either of you." "both." "us." all of these words confuse the fuck out of livio in context. it has never once occurred to him that he matters to vash at all beyond being nicholas' friend. if anything, he feels like he may be a thorn in the other man's side. or at least he did, before vash gave them his blessing. but to liv, even that is still... nebulous.

to hear that vash thought of him when he was out there getting beaten to hell and back...

he's never seen vash cry. and nick is looking at him for... help? or just... inviting him to allow himself to be included, when they've both basically been saying it the entire time?

well. he's nothing if not practiced in shoving things down, so his mixed emotions can wait. vash and nick's distress are far more important right now. liv moves to the bedside and sits at the edge of the mattress, enough to wrap an arm carefully around vash as well. his free hand finds wolfwood's head, stroking over his hair in a motion meant to soothe both of them.]

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