[Stan nods along, feeling similarly. It isn't exactly the same, it never could be, but there's a weird amount of overlap.]
Yeah. And after a while you've been doing it so long that you just keep doing it, even if you're not getting anywhere and just making yourself freaking miserable, 'cause there's nothing else you can do, right?
[And the unspoken part - that to some degree you feel like you deserve to be miserable.
But, that's a little too honest for now. Instead Stan chuckles when Loop gives their moral of the story.]
Sometimes, sure. For me it was more like, I did everything alone and then screwed up and got myself arrested by the US government and everyone thought I was making some kinda "doomsday device" to end the world or whatever.
[He puts finger quotes around doomsday device - you know, like that's a normal thing to act like people were just exaggerating about. He softens after that though.]
I mean, it all worked out in the end, but not 'cause I told anyone on purpose. But...who knows, maybe that would have gone better than all the arresting. Just don't tell any of them I admitted that, alright?
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Yeah. And after a while you've been doing it so long that you just keep doing it, even if you're not getting anywhere and just making yourself freaking miserable, 'cause there's nothing else you can do, right?
[And the unspoken part - that to some degree you feel like you deserve to be miserable.
But, that's a little too honest for now. Instead Stan chuckles when Loop gives their moral of the story.]
Sometimes, sure. For me it was more like, I did everything alone and then screwed up and got myself arrested by the US government and everyone thought I was making some kinda "doomsday device" to end the world or whatever.
[He puts finger quotes around doomsday device - you know, like that's a normal thing to act like people were just exaggerating about. He softens after that though.]
I mean, it all worked out in the end, but not 'cause I told anyone on purpose. But...who knows, maybe that would have gone better than all the arresting. Just don't tell any of them I admitted that, alright?