[With permission granted, Wolfwood will make his way over and sink carefully into a sit next to Ain on the bed. He's manspreading a little, just because that's what how he does when he sits. Do not mistake him, he is. Anxious, currently. But he's trying really hard to put into practice the things Mizuki has taught him during therapy. Breathing exercises, mentally counting things in the room to ground himself, that sort of thing.
He is! Historically also shit when it comes to talking about his feelings! But he likes to think he's gotten better...he thinks he's managed to mediate things in the past with those he's been up in arms with for whatever reason. His relationships...
A heavy sigh escapes him as he tries to think of where to start.]
M'sorry I didn't say anything when it first came up. If it helps at all, I didn't tell anybody. Not just you.
[Not Ain, not Vash, not Livio. Nobody knows. Well, except Ain and Zahliya, now.]
I... [...] I don't...really know why I didn't offer. I didn't think of it at the time. Not...it ain't because I didn't want you to live with me, or nothin' like that. It definitely ain't that.
[He doesn't know exactly how to put it into words. It feels shitty of him no matter how he tries to speak around it, prompting him to life a hand to rub the back of his neck, averting his gaze to the wall.]
I'm certain Vash and Liv woulda' welcomed you with open arms. I know they think the world of you, too. I'm really...I wish I had. I didn't mean t'make you feel...excluded. Or like I didn't care about you as much.
[...]
That's a real shitty answer. But I'm still tryin' to figure out just...how I am, I guess. Like...it ain't like I got much time left even if I do leave this place.
[His expression falls, just a little.]
I wanna spend as much of that time with you all as I can. Us fuckin' when we're together wasn't supposed to come off as "oh, I just wanna fuck this guy and dip". I sleep with you because I love you so much that I wanna give you everything... [He brings that hand from his neck to rub down the side of his face.] ...is there any way I can fix this?
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He is! Historically also shit when it comes to talking about his feelings! But he likes to think he's gotten better...he thinks he's managed to mediate things in the past with those he's been up in arms with for whatever reason. His relationships...
A heavy sigh escapes him as he tries to think of where to start.]
M'sorry I didn't say anything when it first came up. If it helps at all, I didn't tell anybody. Not just you.
[Not Ain, not Vash, not Livio. Nobody knows. Well, except Ain and Zahliya, now.]
I... [...] I don't...really know why I didn't offer. I didn't think of it at the time. Not...it ain't because I didn't want you to live with me, or nothin' like that. It definitely ain't that.
[He doesn't know exactly how to put it into words. It feels shitty of him no matter how he tries to speak around it, prompting him to life a hand to rub the back of his neck, averting his gaze to the wall.]
I'm certain Vash and Liv woulda' welcomed you with open arms. I know they think the world of you, too. I'm really...I wish I had. I didn't mean t'make you feel...excluded. Or like I didn't care about you as much.
[...]
That's a real shitty answer. But I'm still tryin' to figure out just...how I am, I guess. Like...it ain't like I got much time left even if I do leave this place.
[His expression falls, just a little.]
I wanna spend as much of that time with you all as I can. Us fuckin' when we're together wasn't supposed to come off as "oh, I just wanna fuck this guy and dip". I sleep with you because I love you so much that I wanna give you everything... [He brings that hand from his neck to rub down the side of his face.] ...is there any way I can fix this?