[No, not even close. But it's light and fun, unlike the rest of this.]
I wish I knew? Like. I don't remember it. Min remembers it, and only he told me so no weird...Grove stuff would. He said he remembers being on a date with me and wanting to ask me? It sounded...nice.
[It sounds so nice but that's all it is. A nice story. He doesn't even know if Min-Gi actually asked him back then, only that he was planning to.]
I dunno how he felt then but he was...nervous? Kinda too nervous. The whole thing's been weird for him, like...going from totally scared of the whole gaaaaaaaaay thing to. To knowing he wanted to ask a guy to marry him...? Or that he even COULD?
[The "whole gay thing" is said with a very specific amount of sarcasm reserved for drunken bitching. Things have been complicated in a way that definitely calls for alcohol.]
And then! Then! I fucked everything up! Luca, I fucked everything up so much...
[He is pressing X to doubt so hard right now Ryan but fine! He'll shut up about it.]
I admit it's a bit hard to wrap my head around. Not what you are saying, but his continued resistance around the idea. But being that I did not share your upbringing, I suppose I am not meant to understand.
[Growing up in a place like Renova, where things like this were simply normal made it difficult for him to grasp a world like Earth. He could empathize with the struggle, but beyond that...]
How did you manage to fuck up, then? It seems like it was all but handed to you on a platter.
I kiiiiinda get it? Like. Imagine you're super allergic to bees okay? Like you can't be anywhere near bees and...and you don't want people to think you like bees because maybe they'll bring a bee near you and you might like die or something! But then you get some weeeeeird vision you used to be a bee keeper and you were with bees EVERY DAY. FOREVER. That...That would be weird! It'd be SOOOO weird and like okay maybe you aren't allergic to bees after all but what if you're wrong and you like, die from bees? Nobody wants to die from bees...
[This is a very serious metaphor he's painted here. About bees. Ryan sighs heavily though and looks into the rest of his drink.]
Anyway he...wanted to try anyway. Annnnnd...I. ....said no.
[And with that admission he drains the entire rest of his glass.]
[He pushes his glasses up to make space to fully drag his hands down his face. He doesn't want to be like this either! Now that Luca's had his reaction, it all tumbles out.]
He wanted to try and I was like "duuuude I don't think you're ready?" and like...he's kinda not but I didn't even give him a real chance? I could've just, just said yes and let things be good for once without screwing them up! Maybe he would've proved me wrong and figured himself out and I said no??? I said NO???? Ugh, I'm so...
[He trails off with his elbows on the counter, face in his hands, and fingers tangled in his hair. He pulls one away slowly though, so he can slide his empty glass to Luca.]
[Okay, okay, give him a second, let him parse this all together, alongside the bees.]
So... in your metaphor, he has found out he is perhaps not as allergic as he thought he was. But he's still wary, and you do not want to be the one to... [His brows furrow.] Kill him?
[Well, that doesn't sound quite right but...]
I will be honest with you, Ryan. That sounds perfectly reasonable to me. There is nothing wrong with wanting to protect your heart — never mind the feelings of your best friend. If there is more that he needs to work through on his own, then it was rather responsible of you to be the one to acknowledge it.
Even if it probably does hurt.
[With all that said though, Luca does indeed get up and go to mix that drink while Ryan processes... all of that.]
[...Is that what he was trying to say? That doesn't seem right, but he's also not sure how to actually explain it any better. Not that he WANTS to kill him, but it's also probably not where he was trying to go there.
He looks up when Luca says it sounds reasonable though, because that also doesn't sound right, but for different reasons. He can't remember anyone calling him reasonable before. Usually the default assumption is that he isn't. Literally no one's ever thought he was responsible without him bending over backwards to prove he could be, and even then he doesn't usually stick the landing.]
He got super scared and thought I was going to like...leave him over it after everything we've been through? And I DO wanna be with him, but...
[For some reason he's glancing down at his hand, lost in a thought while Luca finishes up. Then, he sighs.]
He's never dated a guy before thought and literally all of my relationships have been suuuuuuuper bad, so I...I dunno. You don't think I was being shitty about it?
[He feels like he was, but honestly deep down he always feels like he's kind of terrible. A garbage person who sucks at being with anyone, or something.]
[He can tell that Ryan is struggling, though. Being that Luca's come to consider the man a close friend, it makes Luca's heart ache. He can't help but slip a hand forward, offering it palm up. All the earlier exasperation has melted away into understanding and empathy.]
I think he was right to be scared. Whether you like it or not, you have now become a guide wire when it comes to exploring this part of himself. Without you, there is probably no point to trying in his mind. And difficult as it is for me to fathom, this was a huge leap for him. I have no doubt that he was probably hurt by the rejection.
[If Ryan has taken Luca's hand, he squeezes it here.]
But. You were protecting your own heart, too. This may be new for him, but it is not for you. And being that you know yourself best, you thought it wise to step back. No one can fault you for that.
I do not think either of you were being... shitty, from my perspective. But I do not know how Min-Gi might have seen it. [He sighs, a delicate little noise.] Maybe he is hurt. But I think you are hurt too. And thus, neither of you deserve the blame.
[Ryan does take his hand. He's always helped by reassuring touch, and with things being so weird, a hand hold means so much.]
A guide wire...
[He says this with a soft drunken awe, in a way suggesting he will mull it over later once he's nursing a hangover. It feels...big. Important? But his head is starting to swim a little bit too much to pull it apart. Asking for another drink was probably not smart, but smart decisions are for sober people who didn't just find out they were engaged to their closeted best friend in a past life.]
...I don't want it to hurt. [Him? Min? Both of them, probably. A deep, heavy sigh, and Ryan looks up at the ceiling.] Mmmaybe...you're onto something.
[Probably! Luca is very smart and good at these sorts of conversations. Even though he's a little drunk, Ryan's still starting to feel the odd discomfort that comes when he whines about any serious problems for too long, and that's a can of worms for another day. Instead, he takes a sip of his new drink and laughs - a thought's hit him belatedly.]
I know you don't, Ryan. No one does. [He gives that hand a tender little pat. That much, Luca can deeply empathize with. Perhaps he's never been so caught up on the same man, but he does know how it feels to fall endlessly and be hurt just as often.
(To say nothing of the aches and pains that still came up after his fight with -
With -
The thought flits from Luca's mind before he can truly grasp it).
In the end, forces himself to be satisfied with the answer Ryan gives. It's not a panacea, Luca can tell his friend is still hurting. But bashing him over the head with wisdom isn't going to help, especially when he's so far gone.
... Not that he wanted to change the subject like that. Luca gives an offended squawk.]
I - do know how to swear, you know. I am not morally opposed to it! I call my sister a whore plenty.
[Unfortunately for Luca, it's infinitely funnier when he's so offended and it just makes Ryan laugh even more into his drink.]
Duuuude, that doesn't count as swearing! She's your sister! My-- [He's still snickering, and has to try again.] --I called my sisters all sorts of shit! And they did it back, 'cause that's just...it's sibling stuff! Toooootally normal stuff.
[Very normal stuff, though what's less normal is Ryan actually mentioning his siblings in front of anyone other than Min-Gi.]
Cursing is still cursing, regardless of who it is directed toward!
[He cannot believe that he's being called a prude in his own bar! Well, not his bar. His proxy bar. Whatever!
Still, he does soften in the slightest when he realizes... he never knew this much about Ryan. There's actually... quite a lot he doesn't know about Ryan when he thinks about it, and isn't that such a shame? They're meant to be friends, after all.]
[He's still giggling about Luca cursing, but he's at least covering his mouth now and making a show of trying to stop. Once he manages to stop though, he looks mildly surprised at the question, as if he forgot he brought it up himself.
He has no problem answering though. He holds up an empty hand and twiddles all of his fingers, before he starts to count off of them with names.]
Nancy, Kimberly, Meeee, Zach, and Davey maaaakes five!
[So four. Four siblings. It made sense to say it this way in his head.]
[Luca does his best to scowl through it but... Ryan being in even a mildly better mood is a pleasant sight. He can't help the way the corner of his mouth lifts up into the tiniest of smiles. Don't ask him about it, Ryan. Don't do it.]
Planted firmly in the middle, then? What was that like? [And just to be sure Ryan doesn't feel like he's being interrogated:] It was just my sibling and I. And given the circumstances of their arrival, we were never entirely sure who was the oldest.
[Granted, Luca assumed the big brother role pretty quickly.]
[Luca is spared, but only because Ryan's focus has slipped to the sibling conversation entirely. He's still grinning, but his words don't really match his face.]
It suuuucked! Middle's the worst. There were like...waaaay too many've us. Kimbers and Nancy were close, and Zach'n'Davey were close--
[He's making weird little hand gestures to go with it, as if his siblings were little models on the bar he could physically group together.]
--and I was over heeeere in the middle.
[Hearing Luca's side helps keep him on track though and away from the melancholy under the surface. He laughs a little, and probably doesn't ask enough questions.]
That's good though! Big siblings will tooootally hold it over your head forever. Like you can, you can call them names all you want and they can do it back but they'll always be like "Well IIII'M older so there!"
You sound like you loved them all the same, though.
[If his expression is anything to go off of, at least. But perhaps that's his own bias speaking. He'd been able to, in essence, choose his sibling, and their father had loved them both unconditionally, regardless of blood ties. While he does know that not every familial relationship is a happy one, it's not the sort of thing he's lived.]
Honestly, Kiera still holds things over my head. They are taller, after all. [He winks.] Truthfully, though, she let me get away with far too much for my own good.
[Ryan nods. It feels good to nod while his head's a little wobbly.]
Yeah. It's not...like, they're not the ones who had too many kids. Y'know? And sometimes it was fun!
[He can't help but laugh when Luca winks, but it fades a little as he tries to think. It seems this is the first time he's had to think about this in a long time.]
[That feels sad and pathetic though, especially now that he's said it out loud and let it out into the room. Clumsily, he spins it right back to Luca.]
Sooooooooooooo, what'd they let you get away with?
[He has a mischevious smile over the top of his drink. It sounds like there's a story there! Was he a trouble maker as a kid? Did he say even WORSE curse words?]
[It's... Still not something he fully understands. Families tended to be rather massive in Renova. The Aurelius family had only faltered as a result of the Phoenix's weakness and consolidation, after all. Still, he doesn't bring that much up, especially when he can see Ryan's mood beginning to falter.]
Suppose you can just assume it is you then, can't you?
[He shifts enough to nudge Ryan playfully. Stay with him, buddy.]
Beasts, we were both rather terrible. We quite enjoyed playing pranks on the council when they were busy in meetings. Our father even helped run distraction from time to time. Beyond that, though, there was quite a bit of me helping Kiera sneak out of homes after, ah... Staying too late?
[Big families are fine when there's lots of support, in places where "it takes a village" really means something. When there's only a mother and a father and the father is out of town more often than not, the mother is left alone with five mouths to feed and five kids screaming for attention, it's more of a problem. Being a good kid meant being a quiet one, one who could take care of themselves and didn't need very much. It meant gauging every problem and wondering if it was truly worth bringing up, and it meant no one really cared unless Ryan was doing something.
The nudge helps, tugging him back into the moment, and he snickers.]
I did a looooot of that...high school parties, man. My siblings were no help at all though so I'd crash with Min-Giii.
[Even if it meant "getting caught" by Min's parents, it...weirdly felt better than going home and either immediately being sold out by one of his little brothers, or worse, no one no realizing he was gone at all.]
That sounds so fun though...pranks, being little brats together. Sounds like your dad let you get away with some stuff too.
Maybe it helps that we were so close in age. And that it really was only us.
[Since there seemed to be a lot of pairing up with Ryan's siblings, Luca can imagine it was easy to begin feeling left out. It's far easier to be closer to someone, when there was no other option.
Luca's expression falters in the slightest. Talking about his father grows easier the more he does it, but that initial pang never seems to go away.]
He... He did. Despite my position in life, and all the expectations that came with it, he wanted me to have a normal life. And he did not want Kiera to feel as if they were somehow less than I was. They were an Aure lius, through and through.
[That would help. It isn't as though Ryan doesn't have any old memories he holds dear, but having to fight for attention and affection left its mark.
He likes listening to Luca though, even if the story is a little melancholy in parts. His elbow is propped on the bar, head resting in his hand.]
Mm. Sounds like it...sounds like Min-Gi's dad? Like, there's pressure, but...he jus'wants a good life for him. And...I dunno, I was there a lot. They're nice people.
[Min's mom and dad, he means. He's skipping from point to point a little, but one thing's clear - Min-Gi's dad is the example here and not his own. A thought bobs to the surface though, and Ryan frown trying to put it into words. There were a lot of was-es in that story...]
...Sorry.
[He clumsily reaches over and pat-pats Luca on the arm with incredible drunken sincerity. Here he is bitching about his own family and Luca's dad is probably dead? That sucks. That's terrible and sad and he wants to make better words for it but it's just not happening.]
That's good. Parents like that should be the norm.
[But even Luca, for all his blissful upbringing, knows that isn't the case. His best friend, after all, had been subject to an incredible amount of pressure from her father. Her and her siblings, for that matter.
Ryan's apology is a bit surprising, though. Luca glances toward him and ultimately... just shakes his head.]
It has been a long time. If the forest did not bring it up so often, maybe I would even be over it by now. [Doubtful, but...] You have seen the spirit in the bar, right? It is... comforting to know that I can see my father from time to time now, even if he cannot respond.
[Ryan nods, but thankfully he doesn't seem to linger on that thought about good parents or bad parents. He just sips his drink and listens to Luca and nearly chokes on it when it turns into a ghost story.]
That'ssyour DAD?!
[His drunk mind is BLOWN.]
I didn't even know that was real, like...a real thing or if I jus' made it up in my head or...
[He squints at Luca a little, trying and failing to gauge this. Wait, wait a minute. He's drunk not GULL. I. BLE.]
...yooooou're not fucking with me, right? Riiiiight.....?
[Grim though the topic is, Ryan almost makes it... silly. Luca has to bite the inside of his cheek to keep from laughing at the man, knowing full well that busting up in this moment was liable to ruin any chance of convincing him. Nevertheless, the corners of Luca's mouth do turn upward in the slightest.]
I swear it. My sibling can confirm as much, if you want, but this is not the sort of thing I would lie about. [His tone is painfully earnest.] He tends to mostly hang around when Kiera and I are unavailable, but occasionally we are allowed glimpses of him.
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[No, not even close. But it's light and fun, unlike the rest of this.]
I wish I knew? Like. I don't remember it. Min remembers it, and only he told me so no weird...Grove stuff would. He said he remembers being on a date with me and wanting to ask me? It sounded...nice.
[It sounds so nice but that's all it is. A nice story. He doesn't even know if Min-Gi actually asked him back then, only that he was planning to.]
I dunno how he felt then but he was...nervous? Kinda too nervous. The whole thing's been weird for him, like...going from totally scared of the whole gaaaaaaaaay thing to. To knowing he wanted to ask a guy to marry him...? Or that he even COULD?
[The "whole gay thing" is said with a very specific amount of sarcasm reserved for drunken bitching. Things have been complicated in a way that definitely calls for alcohol.]
And then! Then! I fucked everything up! Luca, I fucked everything up so much...
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I admit it's a bit hard to wrap my head around. Not what you are saying, but his continued resistance around the idea. But being that I did not share your upbringing, I suppose I am not meant to understand.
[Growing up in a place like Renova, where things like this were simply normal made it difficult for him to grasp a world like Earth. He could empathize with the struggle, but beyond that...]
How did you manage to fuck up, then? It seems like it was all but handed to you on a platter.
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[This is a very serious metaphor he's painted here. About bees. Ryan sighs heavily though and looks into the rest of his drink.]
Anyway he...wanted to try anyway. Annnnnd...I. ....said no.
[And with that admission he drains the entire rest of his glass.]
1/2
2/2
Anyway, he has bigger fish to fry, and a drink to avoid spitting out.]
You said no?! Why would you - I -
[Luca's just going to do this.]
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[He pushes his glasses up to make space to fully drag his hands down his face. He doesn't want to be like this either! Now that Luca's had his reaction, it all tumbles out.]
He wanted to try and I was like "duuuude I don't think you're ready?" and like...he's kinda not but I didn't even give him a real chance? I could've just, just said yes and let things be good for once without screwing them up! Maybe he would've proved me wrong and figured himself out and I said no??? I said NO???? Ugh, I'm so...
[He trails off with his elbows on the counter, face in his hands, and fingers tangled in his hair. He pulls one away slowly though, so he can slide his empty glass to Luca.]
...Can I get a refill?
[Please? :(]
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So... in your metaphor, he has found out he is perhaps not as allergic as he thought he was. But he's still wary, and you do not want to be the one to... [His brows furrow.] Kill him?
[Well, that doesn't sound quite right but...]
I will be honest with you, Ryan. That sounds perfectly reasonable to me. There is nothing wrong with wanting to protect your heart — never mind the feelings of your best friend. If there is more that he needs to work through on his own, then it was rather responsible of you to be the one to acknowledge it.
Even if it probably does hurt.
[With all that said though, Luca does indeed get up and go to mix that drink while Ryan processes... all of that.]
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He looks up when Luca says it sounds reasonable though, because that also doesn't sound right, but for different reasons. He can't remember anyone calling him reasonable before. Usually the default assumption is that he isn't. Literally no one's ever thought he was responsible without him bending over backwards to prove he could be, and even then he doesn't usually stick the landing.]
He got super scared and thought I was going to like...leave him over it after everything we've been through? And I DO wanna be with him, but...
[For some reason he's glancing down at his hand, lost in a thought while Luca finishes up. Then, he sighs.]
He's never dated a guy before thought and literally all of my relationships have been suuuuuuuper bad, so I...I dunno. You don't think I was being shitty about it?
[He feels like he was, but honestly deep down he always feels like he's kind of terrible. A garbage person who sucks at being with anyone, or something.]
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[He can tell that Ryan is struggling, though. Being that Luca's come to consider the man a close friend, it makes Luca's heart ache. He can't help but slip a hand forward, offering it palm up. All the earlier exasperation has melted away into understanding and empathy.]
I think he was right to be scared. Whether you like it or not, you have now become a guide wire when it comes to exploring this part of himself. Without you, there is probably no point to trying in his mind. And difficult as it is for me to fathom, this was a huge leap for him. I have no doubt that he was probably hurt by the rejection.
[If Ryan has taken Luca's hand, he squeezes it here.]
But. You were protecting your own heart, too. This may be new for him, but it is not for you. And being that you know yourself best, you thought it wise to step back. No one can fault you for that.
I do not think either of you were being... shitty, from my perspective. But I do not know how Min-Gi might have seen it. [He sighs, a delicate little noise.] Maybe he is hurt. But I think you are hurt too. And thus, neither of you deserve the blame.
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A guide wire...
[He says this with a soft drunken awe, in a way suggesting he will mull it over later once he's nursing a hangover. It feels...big. Important? But his head is starting to swim a little bit too much to pull it apart. Asking for another drink was probably not smart, but smart decisions are for sober people who didn't just find out they were engaged to their closeted best friend in a past life.]
...I don't want it to hurt. [Him? Min? Both of them, probably. A deep, heavy sigh, and Ryan looks up at the ceiling.] Mmmaybe...you're onto something.
[Probably! Luca is very smart and good at these sorts of conversations. Even though he's a little drunk, Ryan's still starting to feel the odd discomfort that comes when he whines about any serious problems for too long, and that's a can of worms for another day. Instead, he takes a sip of his new drink and laughs - a thought's hit him belatedly.]
It's sooo funny to hear you say shitty, man.
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(To say nothing of the aches and pains that still came up after his fight with -
With -
The thought flits from Luca's mind before he can truly grasp it).
In the end, forces himself to be satisfied with the answer Ryan gives. It's not a panacea, Luca can tell his friend is still hurting. But bashing him over the head with wisdom isn't going to help, especially when he's so far gone.
... Not that he wanted to change the subject like that. Luca gives an offended squawk.]
I - do know how to swear, you know. I am not morally opposed to it! I call my sister a whore plenty.
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Duuuude, that doesn't count as swearing! She's your sister! My-- [He's still snickering, and has to try again.] --I called my sisters all sorts of shit! And they did it back, 'cause that's just...it's sibling stuff! Toooootally normal stuff.
[Very normal stuff, though what's less normal is Ryan actually mentioning his siblings in front of anyone other than Min-Gi.]
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[He cannot believe that he's being called a prude in his own bar! Well, not his bar. His proxy bar. Whatever!
Still, he does soften in the slightest when he realizes... he never knew this much about Ryan. There's actually... quite a lot he doesn't know about Ryan when he thinks about it, and isn't that such a shame? They're meant to be friends, after all.]
How many do you have? Siblings, I mean.
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He has no problem answering though. He holds up an empty hand and twiddles all of his fingers, before he starts to count off of them with names.]
Nancy, Kimberly, Meeee, Zach, and Davey maaaakes five!
[So four. Four siblings. It made sense to say it this way in his head.]
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Planted firmly in the middle, then? What was that like? [And just to be sure Ryan doesn't feel like he's being interrogated:] It was just my sibling and I. And given the circumstances of their arrival, we were never entirely sure who was the oldest.
[Granted, Luca assumed the big brother role pretty quickly.]
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It suuuucked! Middle's the worst. There were like...waaaay too many've us. Kimbers and Nancy were close, and Zach'n'Davey were close--
[He's making weird little hand gestures to go with it, as if his siblings were little models on the bar he could physically group together.]
--and I was over heeeere in the middle.
[Hearing Luca's side helps keep him on track though and away from the melancholy under the surface. He laughs a little, and probably doesn't ask enough questions.]
That's good though! Big siblings will tooootally hold it over your head forever. Like you can, you can call them names all you want and they can do it back but they'll always be like "Well IIII'M older so there!"
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[If his expression is anything to go off of, at least. But perhaps that's his own bias speaking. He'd been able to, in essence, choose his sibling, and their father had loved them both unconditionally, regardless of blood ties. While he does know that not every familial relationship is a happy one, it's not the sort of thing he's lived.]
Honestly, Kiera still holds things over my head. They are taller, after all. [He winks.] Truthfully, though, she let me get away with far too much for my own good.
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Yeah. It's not...like, they're not the ones who had too many kids. Y'know? And sometimes it was fun!
[He can't help but laugh when Luca winks, but it fades a little as he tries to think. It seems this is the first time he's had to think about this in a long time.]
Huh. I...don't know who's tallest anymore, actually.
[That feels sad and pathetic though, especially now that he's said it out loud and let it out into the room. Clumsily, he spins it right back to Luca.]
Sooooooooooooo, what'd they let you get away with?
[He has a mischevious smile over the top of his drink. It sounds like there's a story there! Was he a trouble maker as a kid? Did he say even WORSE curse words?]
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[It's... Still not something he fully understands. Families tended to be rather massive in Renova. The Aurelius family had only faltered as a result of the Phoenix's weakness and consolidation, after all. Still, he doesn't bring that much up, especially when he can see Ryan's mood beginning to falter.]
Suppose you can just assume it is you then, can't you?
[He shifts enough to nudge Ryan playfully. Stay with him, buddy.]
Beasts, we were both rather terrible. We quite enjoyed playing pranks on the council when they were busy in meetings. Our father even helped run distraction from time to time. Beyond that, though, there was quite a bit of me helping Kiera sneak out of homes after, ah... Staying too late?
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The nudge helps, tugging him back into the moment, and he snickers.]
I did a looooot of that...high school parties, man. My siblings were no help at all though so I'd crash with Min-Giii.
[Even if it meant "getting caught" by Min's parents, it...weirdly felt better than going home and either immediately being sold out by one of his little brothers, or worse, no one no realizing he was gone at all.]
That sounds so fun though...pranks, being little brats together. Sounds like your dad let you get away with some stuff too.
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[Since there seemed to be a lot of pairing up with Ryan's siblings, Luca can imagine it was easy to begin feeling left out. It's far easier to be closer to someone, when there was no other option.
Luca's expression falters in the slightest. Talking about his father grows easier the more he does it, but that initial pang never seems to go away.]
He... He did. Despite my position in life, and all the expectations that came with it, he wanted me to have a normal life. And he did not want Kiera to feel as if they were somehow less than I was. They were an Aure lius, through and through.
He was a good man.
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He likes listening to Luca though, even if the story is a little melancholy in parts. His elbow is propped on the bar, head resting in his hand.]
Mm. Sounds like it...sounds like Min-Gi's dad? Like, there's pressure, but...he jus'wants a good life for him. And...I dunno, I was there a lot. They're nice people.
[Min's mom and dad, he means. He's skipping from point to point a little, but one thing's clear - Min-Gi's dad is the example here and not his own. A thought bobs to the surface though, and Ryan frown trying to put it into words. There were a lot of was-es in that story...]
...Sorry.
[He clumsily reaches over and pat-pats Luca on the arm with incredible drunken sincerity. Here he is bitching about his own family and Luca's dad is probably dead? That sucks. That's terrible and sad and he wants to make better words for it but it's just not happening.]
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[But even Luca, for all his blissful upbringing, knows that isn't the case. His best friend, after all, had been subject to an incredible amount of pressure from her father. Her and her siblings, for that matter.
Ryan's apology is a bit surprising, though. Luca glances toward him and ultimately... just shakes his head.]
It has been a long time. If the forest did not bring it up so often, maybe I would even be over it by now. [Doubtful, but...] You have seen the spirit in the bar, right? It is... comforting to know that I can see my father from time to time now, even if he cannot respond.
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That'ssyour DAD?!
[His drunk mind is BLOWN.]
I didn't even know that was real, like...a real thing or if I jus' made it up in my head or...
[He squints at Luca a little, trying and failing to gauge this. Wait, wait a minute. He's drunk not GULL. I. BLE.]
...yooooou're not fucking with me, right? Riiiiight.....?
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I swear it. My sibling can confirm as much, if you want, but this is not the sort of thing I would lie about. [His tone is painfully earnest.] He tends to mostly hang around when Kiera and I are unavailable, but occasionally we are allowed glimpses of him.
He seems to enjoy when people cause trouble.
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