[logically, senjuro knows that he, alone, would only be a burden to kyojuro in this situation. but he isn't alone, and he isn't quite the same pitiful weakling kyojuro left behind to embark on his final mission.
when his brother turns from him, senjuro remains where he is and issues another command to puck. the creature copies kyojuro's form, and it's as if a second cut of his nichirin blade bites into the monsters' flesh. upon being picked up, though, the mimikyu goes limp as a ragdoll -- only because senjuro is willing to flee now that kyojuro does as well. this town has become like a maze in the fog, but maybe that will help them lose the monsters quickly.]
We're not going to leave you! Puck can hold his own, brother!
[Kyojuro is almost startled by the sight of a second sword in his periphery. Almost. Thankfully, he has at least been schooled by enough "demonic nonsense" over the last handful of years that nothing truly can shake him. In any case, it's clear enough as he turns that it's nothing to be afraid of.
Truly, he can't help but smile as they race through the streets, Kyojuro easily matching whatever pace Senjuro sets.]
Not just Puck, it seems. [He glances sidelong at Senjuro, approval clear in his eyes.] You have grown even more than I expected, my dear brother!
[while senjuro is nowhere near kyojuro's level of fitness -- or any real slayer's, for that matter -- he still trained hard growing up, and spent half a year traveling overland in johto. all of that being said, his pace isn't superhuman, but it's still no joke, especially not in something life or death like this.
so... surely it isn't the exertion that has his face so red. just as much as kyojuro never set the bar so high that senjuro couldn't reach, neither did senjuro ever expect to receive such high praise from him, and feel that there is even a chance that he actually earned it.]
I -- I'll never be at your level, but...!
[in kyojuro's arms, puck gives a tinny cry that sounds distinctly like scolding. senjuro's face only flushes deeper.]
Should we shelter indoors, or -- find higher ground?
[Whether Senjuro knows it or not, at this point in time, it's actually the younger Rengoku that's in better shape. Kyojuro already feels his lungs burning with exertion, to say nothing of the still recovering wounds and muscles. He's grateful that Puck takes the chance to scold Senjuro, lest Kyojuro have to open his mouth and make it further known just how far he's fallen.
Never mind his relief when Kyojuro suggests sheltering. Rather than give any sort of verbal indication, he instead nods and veers off to the side, aiming for a nearby building. It's a small house, but it should prove to be easily defensible if needed. And much like many of the other doors, it's entirely unlocked.
He waits for Senjuro to be through before slamming the door behind them. He wastes no time in grabbing a couch and throwing it in front of the door.
Only then does he sink to the floor. His breath shakes, dangerously close to uneven and breaking Total Concentration. This is certainly not something Senjuro has likely ever seen.]
[while kyojuro barricades the door, puck skitters off to peek into the rest of the house and ensure they are well and truly alone. and as soon as the elder rengoku hits the ground, senjuro is knelt beside him, nothing but fear in his eyes for the first time today. without so much as asking, he searches all over kyojuro for any wounds he has yet to notice.]
[At first, all he can do is nod, knowing full well that it only implicates him further. He had thought he'd made a wise choice, not informing Senjuro of his injuries sooner. Sparing him the worry had been all well and good back in the Grove, but now that they're here... the boy deserved preparation.
When his ability to move no longer feels compromised, he pulls at the buttons of his shirt. He peels it down far enough to reveal the myriad bandages crisscrossing his torso. A few of them have begun to bleed through — not severely, but certainly enough to stain the bandages.]
I'll - be alright. [He manages, hoping to head off the concern. He knows it's an effort made in vain.]
[really, kyojuro should know better than to hope senjuro won't fret over him at every opportunity. horror dawns on the boy's face -- being well aware of the danger slayers are constantly in, and that kyojuro has already died in the line of duty, doesn't make it any easier for senjuro to accept it when it's right in front of him.
immediately, he scrambles up and begins to move deeper into the house.]
Maybe they've got -- medical supplies, or... or at least some sort of cloth and something to sanitize it...!
[Gods, he hates this. There's so much more Senjuro should be worried about in this moment. Not him. It should be the other way around. Fourteen isn't young, especially not where they're from, but he cannot help but feel fiercely protective of the boy nonetheless.
Still, he knows when to fight his battles, and this is not one of those moments. Senjuro rushes to find bandages, and the least Kyojuro can do is make it a little easier for him to do so. He peels the rest of his upper layers off, baring the full patchwork of his wounds. He does have a small poultice that he pulls out, setting it aside for Senjuro's use. So to is the fabric carefully binding his traveling garden to his person. The aloe plant is kept even closer than the poultice itself.
He doubts it will work that fast, but he keeps it close nonetheless.]
[senjuro's search yields some traditional medical items and even more creative ones. after a few minutes, he and puck return to kyojuro with armfuls of supplies. the boy gives his brother a pitiful look out of the corner of his eye as he sets a few bottles of clear liquor on a low table. puck helpfully supplies a basin into which senjuro can empty the bottles, then sets to submerging slashed strips of cloth in it with his shadow-like claws.
while puck soaks the makeshift bandages, senjuro kneels beside kyojuro once more and sets to cleaning around his wounds with the mercifully little amount of gauze and first aid alcohol he could locate.]
I'm sorry. [his voice is low and quaking, his eyes downcast as he works. the scent of booze is strong in the air, even with puck's work being done across the room.] Half of their medicine cabinet was destroyed, and I thought -- this was better than binding your wounds with dirty cloth.
[Perhaps it's strange, how Kyojuro doesn't even bat an eyelash at the smell. For him, it's more of the same. He's suffered this stench for what feels like weeks now, regularly biting back the urge to gag. If anything, it tells him that things are evening out, if this is all that he has to suffer.
Until Senjuro out right approaches, bandages in hand, and that smell gets stronger. Only then does he put two and two together, his heart plummeting down through the surface of the very ground he sits on.
Before Senjuro can get too far in his work, he reaches to take one of those hands.]
It is I who should apologize to you, dear brother. This... cannot be easy. [He gives a careful squeeze.] You should not have to suffer any of this.
[the grip does give senjuro pause. he stares at their hands for a long moment, then forces a smile up at kyojuro.]
Please don't misunderstand me, ani-ue. I appreciate it, but... "should" and "should not" don't matter, do they? Not back home, and not here. Wishing things were different... won't actually make any difference. To me, you shouldn't be injured, but you are. So, rather than using our precious energy to lament what reality we'd prefer, let's work together to better the one we find ourselves in.
[Stunned silence fills the air. Senjuro would be forgiven for thinking that his brother might somehow be cross, at least if he did not dare to look the man in the eyes. What lies there, though, is not anger or frustration, but bafflement. The words the younger Rengoku speaks are not just wise, but exactly what he might have expected his own self to say to someone else.
Briefly, he feels the edges of his heart begin to ache. Already, he's missed so much. This growth, this confidence, it's the kind of thing he longed to see Senjuro blossom into back home, but never fully had the chance to cultivate it.
He should have known the boy would find it by himself.
Given the current state of Rengoku's chest, it's... not exactly feasible for him to pull Senjuro in for a hug. Nevertheless, he release his brother's hands in favor of resting his own upon those shoulders. He reels Senjuro in just far enough to press their foreheads together. It'll have to be a worthy substitute.]
You are right, Senjuro. Thank you for reminding me of that.
[the gesture is not only worthy, but touching. senjuro feels tears well in his eyes, but he manages to blink them away so that he can continue cleaning kyojuro's wounds. his work is careful, using no more pressure or time than is necessary. once the cuts have been sanitized, he takes the poultice in hand and begins applying it as well.]
I should be the one to thank you. I used to be so caught up in wishing that I could be more than I am. I won't lie and say I don't still wish that, but... If it weren't for your encouragement, I would never have let myself believe for even a moment that what I am is enough. I may not be able to fight like you, but I can still help you prepare beforehand and take care of you afterward.
[It's a good thing he does, because otherwise Kyojuro would have had to wipe them away, and Senjuro would have fussed, and it would have been a whole thing. As it stands, he can only sit back and watch those efforts. He's both efficient and gentle, seemingly in his element in a way that he never was with a blade in hand.]
You are more than enough, Senjuro. You always have been. [He lets out a careful sigh, breathing finally fully regulated.] ... I hope you can forgive me, for treating you as less than, and not trusting you with the depth of my injuries. I did not want you to worry, on top of everything else.
Or - [He closes his eyes.] For you to blame anyone other than myself, either.
[senjuro hopes that one day, he will believe that with as much conviction as kyojuro does. it helps that his greatest role model already does.]
Thank you.
There's nothing to forgive. I know that you're only trying to look out for me, and you didn't teach me to blame others for misfortune.
[before he finishes applying the salve, he glances back toward puck, who remains dutifully sanitizing the bandages.]
Puck, if you would, please use Splash. [the creature lifts the bandages from the alcohol slurry and proceeds to shake the liquid off of them with surprising efficiency. congratulations to the most useless pokemon move known to man finally finding a purpose.]
[What Senjuro says is true, in a manner of speaking. The trouble is where the line of others is drawn. Other people were not the cause of their misfortune. Other demons, on the other hand, were undoubtedly the cause of many misfortunes. Not once had he ever hesitated to cast blame on the monsters of their home.
And yet... here they are.
Kyojuro waits for the the whipping of cloth to finish, fighting the ghost of a smile at Puck's efforts. What talent, truly! It's only once things have settled once more, when Senjuro is in the process of wrapping his wounds, that Kyojuro dares to speak.]
I told you that there was a demon in the Grove. The truth is that I deliberately did not tell you which demon lurked here. [Kyojuro is confident in his own logic. Trying to explain it, and therefore gauging the reactions of others, is a different story.] Shortly after my arrival, I came face to face with Upper Moon Three.
These wounds - were sustained in my attempts to defend him during the circus last month.
[puck is so helpful, truly. once he hands over the bandages to senjuro, he nestles up beside kyojuro and nuzzles his "head" under the man's hand. pats, please, he knows you give the best pats. also, he's very good at being an emotional support pokemon.
on senjuro's part, upon hearing that upper three is present... his hands jerk, pulling the bandages a bit too tight before he eases up.] Sorry! I'm sorry! [still, he gapes at kyojuro, unable to just push aside this shock.] Brother, why -- why would you protect this demon?
[Kyojuro lowers his hand, gently patting the top of this sweet little crature's head, then administering some scritches toward the base of its "hair." It really is precious, how he resembles the family.
Definitely a nice distraction from the more emotional reaction that comes from Senjuro. Though Kyojuro doesn't flinch at the tug of the bandages, the response itself is more than enough to make him cringe.
Normally, Kyojuro would not be so forthcoming with someone else's personal information. What happened in the woods that day, the moment that changed everything, was meant to stay between them. And really, the average person didn't need to know about it, because Akaza had proven plenty trustworthy to those within the Grove.
The difficult was those from their home, the ones who knew what happened between them back home.]
When I first confronted him, I felt joy. It was my belief that this world was an after life of sorts. If we were both here, then at least he had met his end as well. And I was not wrong about that. [It doesn't fill him with the same sense of elation as before, though.] But during our fight, he was... preoccupied. More interested in moving past me, in order to step into the sun.
I offered him a deal then. This place is dangerous, as we have both learned. My hope was that, by keeping him around, we would gain ourselves a powerful ally in the fight against the creature that haunts this place. And perhaps... I sought to give him purpose. It is a difficult thing, seeing someone brought so low.
And through all of that...
[He meets Senjuro's eyes, unflinching in confidence when it comes to this decision.]
The demon who killed me died by Kamado's hand, Senjuro. It is no more. Because the man that I spoke with that day confessed to regretting everything. He has apologized and punished himself for what befell me, and I have forgive him. [Gingerly he reaches out, laying a hand atop Senjuro's head.]
But that is only my belief. I will not ever ask you to trust him of your own volition. What conclusions you reach will come with your own time and thought. Until they do, I ask only that you trust me. That I know myself to be safe and have thought this through to the last.
[puck gives a satisfied trill upon being patted. unfortunately, kyojuro's hand is abandoned in favor of returning to senjuro's side. the creature nuzzles against him, but doesn't get in the way of the work that senjuro continues to force himself through.
it helps him, after all, to have something to do with himself rather than spiraling and panicking. as it is, senjuro's mind won't stop racing. it's like he doesn't even register what kyojuro is saying until five seconds after he's said it. but after his brother has finished, and senjuro unwittingly takes what very well may be minutes to process, he only has one question. like kyojuro, senjuro meets his eyes to show his sincerity.]
Do you believe that this... man... would do the same for you? [protect kyojuro, as kyojuro did for him.]
[Kyojuro's own gaze is unflinching. There is no anger at the question, no arrogance at his outlook being questioned. If anything, pride continues to swell within his chest. Senjuro may trust him, but he maintains his own ideals and thoughts. He does not blindly follow.
And what an easy question it is to answer, even if he hates that it's true.]
He already has. [He tucks his hand a little closer to himself, toying idly with the bandages there. This is one secret he will continue to keep. It was, after all, a one time only occurrence. Akaza had said as much.] Before I found you, I was targeted by another group of slayers. I could not bring myself to lift my blade, considering who they were to me. He prevented me from being killed by their blows, was impaled twice through in his effort to do so.
[Almost unconsciously, Kyojuro finds himself casting his senses outward, searching for Akaza once more. Nothing comes back, much to his dismay.]
His healing is much slower here. We almost were unsure if he would survive. [For... more reasons than one. And though Kyojuro has resolved to not bring up the more sordid details of what came after, he does add:] The shopkeeper of this place is able to source... food for him. He has not consumed living flesh since arriving here.
[senjuro assumes that the movement of kyojuro's hand is intentional, an angle to help him secure the final bandage; he thinks nothing more of it.
once he's satisfied with his work, he kneels back on his feet and takes to burying his fingers in puck's "hair." the mimikyu continues rubbing against his side and sneaks one "hand" out from under its disguise to lay it over his. a good little ghostie.
as hard as it is to swallow, the fact of the matter is that senjuro trusts kyojuro above all else. he understands the gravity of his brother's convictions and knows he would never tell senjuro a lie. if kyojuro says he can forgive his murderer, he means it.]
I trust you, brother. So long as you wish, I won't cause a fuss for either of you about it.
[Kyojuro doesn't think he'll ever be able to put into words, the he feels watching another creature dote upon Senjuro. It's never been a secret, that the boy is the single most important person in his world. He's always deserved far more than the world has given him.
Finally seeing something, anything give that back is such a relief.]
Thank you, Senjuro. I promise it is not misplaced.
[He leans forward to bump their foreheads together once again.]
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when his brother turns from him, senjuro remains where he is and issues another command to puck. the creature copies kyojuro's form, and it's as if a second cut of his nichirin blade bites into the monsters' flesh. upon being picked up, though, the mimikyu goes limp as a ragdoll -- only because senjuro is willing to flee now that kyojuro does as well. this town has become like a maze in the fog, but maybe that will help them lose the monsters quickly.]
We're not going to leave you! Puck can hold his own, brother!
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Truly, he can't help but smile as they race through the streets, Kyojuro easily matching whatever pace Senjuro sets.]
Not just Puck, it seems. [He glances sidelong at Senjuro, approval clear in his eyes.] You have grown even more than I expected, my dear brother!
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so... surely it isn't the exertion that has his face so red. just as much as kyojuro never set the bar so high that senjuro couldn't reach, neither did senjuro ever expect to receive such high praise from him, and feel that there is even a chance that he actually earned it.]
I -- I'll never be at your level, but...!
[in kyojuro's arms, puck gives a tinny cry that sounds distinctly like scolding. senjuro's face only flushes deeper.]
Should we shelter indoors, or -- find higher ground?
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Never mind his relief when Kyojuro suggests sheltering. Rather than give any sort of verbal indication, he instead nods and veers off to the side, aiming for a nearby building. It's a small house, but it should prove to be easily defensible if needed. And much like many of the other doors, it's entirely unlocked.
He waits for Senjuro to be through before slamming the door behind them. He wastes no time in grabbing a couch and throwing it in front of the door.
Only then does he sink to the floor. His breath shakes, dangerously close to uneven and breaking Total Concentration. This is certainly not something Senjuro has likely ever seen.]
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Brother, are you hurt? Your breathing...!
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When his ability to move no longer feels compromised, he pulls at the buttons of his shirt. He peels it down far enough to reveal the myriad bandages crisscrossing his torso. A few of them have begun to bleed through — not severely, but certainly enough to stain the bandages.]
I'll - be alright. [He manages, hoping to head off the concern. He knows it's an effort made in vain.]
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immediately, he scrambles up and begins to move deeper into the house.]
Maybe they've got -- medical supplies, or... or at least some sort of cloth and something to sanitize it...!
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Still, he knows when to fight his battles, and this is not one of those moments. Senjuro rushes to find bandages, and the least Kyojuro can do is make it a little easier for him to do so. He peels the rest of his upper layers off, baring the full patchwork of his wounds. He does have a small poultice that he pulls out, setting it aside for Senjuro's use. So to is the fabric carefully binding his traveling garden to his person. The aloe plant is kept even closer than the poultice itself.
He doubts it will work that fast, but he keeps it close nonetheless.]
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while puck soaks the makeshift bandages, senjuro kneels beside kyojuro once more and sets to cleaning around his wounds with the mercifully little amount of gauze and first aid alcohol he could locate.]
I'm sorry. [his voice is low and quaking, his eyes downcast as he works. the scent of booze is strong in the air, even with puck's work being done across the room.] Half of their medicine cabinet was destroyed, and I thought -- this was better than binding your wounds with dirty cloth.
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Until Senjuro out right approaches, bandages in hand, and that smell gets stronger. Only then does he put two and two together, his heart plummeting down through the surface of the very ground he sits on.
Before Senjuro can get too far in his work, he reaches to take one of those hands.]
It is I who should apologize to you, dear brother. This... cannot be easy. [He gives a careful squeeze.] You should not have to suffer any of this.
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Please don't misunderstand me, ani-ue. I appreciate it, but... "should" and "should not" don't matter, do they? Not back home, and not here. Wishing things were different... won't actually make any difference. To me, you shouldn't be injured, but you are. So, rather than using our precious energy to lament what reality we'd prefer, let's work together to better the one we find ourselves in.
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Briefly, he feels the edges of his heart begin to ache. Already, he's missed so much. This growth, this confidence, it's the kind of thing he longed to see Senjuro blossom into back home, but never fully had the chance to cultivate it.
He should have known the boy would find it by himself.
Given the current state of Rengoku's chest, it's... not exactly feasible for him to pull Senjuro in for a hug. Nevertheless, he release his brother's hands in favor of resting his own upon those shoulders. He reels Senjuro in just far enough to press their foreheads together. It'll have to be a worthy substitute.]
You are right, Senjuro. Thank you for reminding me of that.
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I should be the one to thank you. I used to be so caught up in wishing that I could be more than I am. I won't lie and say I don't still wish that, but... If it weren't for your encouragement, I would never have let myself believe for even a moment that what I am is enough. I may not be able to fight like you, but I can still help you prepare beforehand and take care of you afterward.
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You are more than enough, Senjuro. You always have been. [He lets out a careful sigh, breathing finally fully regulated.] ... I hope you can forgive me, for treating you as less than, and not trusting you with the depth of my injuries. I did not want you to worry, on top of everything else.
Or - [He closes his eyes.] For you to blame anyone other than myself, either.
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Thank you.
There's nothing to forgive. I know that you're only trying to look out for me, and you didn't teach me to blame others for misfortune.
[before he finishes applying the salve, he glances back toward puck, who remains dutifully sanitizing the bandages.]
Puck, if you would, please use Splash. [the creature lifts the bandages from the alcohol slurry and proceeds to shake the liquid off of them with surprising efficiency. congratulations to the most useless pokemon move known to man finally finding a purpose.]
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And yet... here they are.
Kyojuro waits for the the whipping of cloth to finish, fighting the ghost of a smile at Puck's efforts. What talent, truly! It's only once things have settled once more, when Senjuro is in the process of wrapping his wounds, that Kyojuro dares to speak.]
I told you that there was a demon in the Grove. The truth is that I deliberately did not tell you which demon lurked here. [Kyojuro is confident in his own logic. Trying to explain it, and therefore gauging the reactions of others, is a different story.] Shortly after my arrival, I came face to face with Upper Moon Three.
These wounds - were sustained in my attempts to defend him during the circus last month.
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on senjuro's part, upon hearing that upper three is present... his hands jerk, pulling the bandages a bit too tight before he eases up.] Sorry! I'm sorry! [still, he gapes at kyojuro, unable to just push aside this shock.] Brother, why -- why would you protect this demon?
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Definitely a nice distraction from the more emotional reaction that comes from Senjuro. Though Kyojuro doesn't flinch at the tug of the bandages, the response itself is more than enough to make him cringe.
Normally, Kyojuro would not be so forthcoming with someone else's personal information. What happened in the woods that day, the moment that changed everything, was meant to stay between them. And really, the average person didn't need to know about it, because Akaza had proven plenty trustworthy to those within the Grove.
The difficult was those from their home, the ones who knew what happened between them back home.]
When I first confronted him, I felt joy. It was my belief that this world was an after life of sorts. If we were both here, then at least he had met his end as well. And I was not wrong about that. [It doesn't fill him with the same sense of elation as before, though.] But during our fight, he was... preoccupied. More interested in moving past me, in order to step into the sun.
I offered him a deal then. This place is dangerous, as we have both learned. My hope was that, by keeping him around, we would gain ourselves a powerful ally in the fight against the creature that haunts this place. And perhaps... I sought to give him purpose. It is a difficult thing, seeing someone brought so low.
And through all of that...
[He meets Senjuro's eyes, unflinching in confidence when it comes to this decision.]
The demon who killed me died by Kamado's hand, Senjuro. It is no more. Because the man that I spoke with that day confessed to regretting everything. He has apologized and punished himself for what befell me, and I have forgive him. [Gingerly he reaches out, laying a hand atop Senjuro's head.]
But that is only my belief. I will not ever ask you to trust him of your own volition. What conclusions you reach will come with your own time and thought. Until they do, I ask only that you trust me. That I know myself to be safe and have thought this through to the last.
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it helps him, after all, to have something to do with himself rather than spiraling and panicking. as it is, senjuro's mind won't stop racing. it's like he doesn't even register what kyojuro is saying until five seconds after he's said it. but after his brother has finished, and senjuro unwittingly takes what very well may be minutes to process, he only has one question. like kyojuro, senjuro meets his eyes to show his sincerity.]
Do you believe that this... man... would do the same for you? [protect kyojuro, as kyojuro did for him.]
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And what an easy question it is to answer, even if he hates that it's true.]
He already has. [He tucks his hand a little closer to himself, toying idly with the bandages there. This is one secret he will continue to keep. It was, after all, a one time only occurrence. Akaza had said as much.] Before I found you, I was targeted by another group of slayers. I could not bring myself to lift my blade, considering who they were to me. He prevented me from being killed by their blows, was impaled twice through in his effort to do so.
[Almost unconsciously, Kyojuro finds himself casting his senses outward, searching for Akaza once more. Nothing comes back, much to his dismay.]
His healing is much slower here. We almost were unsure if he would survive. [For... more reasons than one. And though Kyojuro has resolved to not bring up the more sordid details of what came after, he does add:] The shopkeeper of this place is able to source... food for him. He has not consumed living flesh since arriving here.
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once he's satisfied with his work, he kneels back on his feet and takes to burying his fingers in puck's "hair." the mimikyu continues rubbing against his side and sneaks one "hand" out from under its disguise to lay it over his. a good little ghostie.
as hard as it is to swallow, the fact of the matter is that senjuro trusts kyojuro above all else. he understands the gravity of his brother's convictions and knows he would never tell senjuro a lie. if kyojuro says he can forgive his murderer, he means it.]
I trust you, brother. So long as you wish, I won't cause a fuss for either of you about it.
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Finally seeing something, anything give that back is such a relief.]
Thank you, Senjuro. I promise it is not misplaced.
[He leans forward to bump their foreheads together once again.]
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How are your wounds? We can stay sheltered for as long as you need, but will they hold if we need to flee?
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I should be fine. [A small smile is flashed to the boy.] You did excellent work. I suspect even Lady Kocho would be impressed.
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Ah, I'm just glad if it's adequate. You and father taught me, after all, so I hope I'm competent...
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cw: emetophobia, alcoholism