It is. Just as I have tasted alcohol on my tongue since the moment it crept in.
[That's the pattern they've established, right? Kyojuro shares something from his own life in an attempt to brook a deal with the other man. This is no exception. Akaza has bared his soul unwillingly, after all. The least Kyojuro can do is offer something in kind.
But there's something to be said about the question Akaza asks, and the tone with which he asks it. He glances from the man to the monster, wondering just who he had been before the fog had distorted his image. He looks too frail to have been Akaza's master, but who could say if that was an effect of the fog or something more.
Once more, that blazing gaze fixes on Akaza. He starts to respond As many times as I must, but stops short. That... doesn't feel right. If Akaza truly wanted something like this, who was Kyojuro to stop him? If his suffering was so great that it was worth facing the sun and dying in a painful blaze, then why was he so desperate to force Akaza to endure?
Moreover, wasn't it his duty to see a demon slain?
He pushes that final thought from his head just as quick as it comes on. Instead, he forces a command into the air between them:]
[for a time, akaza remains quiet. not out of stubbornness, or resentment, more... gathering his thoughts. broken down as his barriers are by finally coming face to face with this particular monster, he doesn't have any fight left in him.
that's something he would never have thought possible. even when hakuji neared the bridge he first took her to to see the fireworks, after he'd already lost everything but his own life, he still tried to fight muzan before taking it.]
My father's illness isn't what killed him. [his gaze travels across the monster's body with equal amounts of pity, affection, and regret. yes, the fog exaggerates his father, but it might as well not.] He didn't want me to be punished for trying to help him anymore.
[it wasn't his fault, not directly, but... wasn't it?]
He's waiting for me. My whole family is. [he shouldn't be here. he was never meant to be here.]
[It is... an unfathomable picture that Akaza paints. He had mentioned, in the past, dealing with poverty. They had even discussed his father's illness. But to know that Akaza was ever punished for trying to make ends meet, to do whatever he could to secure a life for the two of them? Privileged as his upbringing had been, Kyojuro can't imagine it.
The thought alone makes him feel ill.]
I see. [His voice sounds almost hoarse, doubtless as a result of the dryness in his mouth. He turns his gaze to the other man once more, then to the image he'd conjured up in his own head of Keizo.]
And do you think this is what your family wants? For you to join them in death, when you have been given a second chance? [His fingers, still threaded through Akaza's, squeeze just the slightest bit higher.] From the way you have described your master, I find it difficult to believe he would ever wish for you to end your own life.
[the increased pressure on his hand finally tears akaza's gaze away from the ghost. he stares at their intertwined fingers and thinks -- this is the same hand that murdered kyojuro, and the man is clinging to it out of a desire to keep akaza by his side.
none of this feels real.]
I don't know. When I was still trying to kill Tanjiro and Giyu -- [yes, she had begged him to join them. but here...] ... they reached out for me. [is he the same person he was, even then, that short time ago? he doesn't know.
[Since Akaza has at least reciprocated the gesture, Kyojuro decides to take it a step further. He draws even with Akaza at first, rather than standing slightly behind him. Then he shifts in front of the man entirely, ideally blocking out the view of the monster behind him.
It is a significant risk, leaving himself open to attack. But he trusts Akaza at his original word — these monsters would not seek to harm him.]
I cannot claim to know the kind souls that guided to in that moment, much as I might like to. But I believe there is a difference. In that moment, they wanted you to be free, I think. They wished for you to be the man you were meant to be, not the one you had become.
And if that were true, then given this chance, I do not think they would want for you to squander it. You have the chance to carve out something new. To protect the souls of the Grove. And you have done a fine job of it.
You saved me from my own monsters, remember?
[Kyojuro reaches out with his free hand, attempting to snag Akaza's remaining limb within its grasp.]
Truthfully, I do not think it is my place to tell you what to do — not over what your loved ones might wish for at least. But nonetheless, I do hope you will stay. You are a friend to me, and my heart would ache if it ever knew your loss.
[Tentatively, he offers a smile.]
Besides, I cannot help you keep Soryu alive if you are not here to teach me.
[kyojuro's level of insight is baffling. him, as he was, she'd said. akaza, hakuji, it didn't matter who he was, he's never been a good enough person to connect the dots so easily.
even with the phantom out of sight, still docile, at least toward kyojuro, akaza can't forget him or the others. such good people surely would only ever want freedom, second chances, for their loved one. maybe he's just back to the thought that -- all of this is so much more complicated and difficult than anything he's ever done. even burning for eternity seems like it would be more restful than this.
for all of the despair he's feeling, akaza can't help but... laugh. quiet, at first, but it builds into something shrill and cracked.]
Kyojuro, you sound absurd. An Upper Moon having weaseled his way into the heart of a Hashira? [how? kyojuro has explained why he views akaza as an ally, even a friend, multiple times, but this...] I -- couldn't possibly mean that much to anyone ever again. [not like this. not like he is. even so, he clings to kyojuro's hands like lifelines.]
[That laugh, Kyojuro decides, is the sort of sound he never wanted to hear again. Akaza sounds so terribly broken, and it cracks at the slayer's heart in ways he never would have expected. It feels not unlike watching Tanjiro mourning him, before he'd even passed. The way he'd sobbed despite every ounce of hope that Kyojuro had tried to pour into him in those last few moments. Akaza had already suffered enough, both here and in the world at large, it seemed.
Where Akaza seemed almost bitter, Kyojuro can do nothing but radiate warmth. His smile, though small, is tender and gentle.]
Yet here we are. [He laughs, a gentle noise from deep within his chest.] And here you are, selling yourself far too short. Neither of us can know what the future holds. You certainly will not, if you end things now.
[The grip on Akaza's hands grows firmer. He draws those pallid, sickly, and ink-dipped things closer to his chest, coaxing the other man one step, then two, away from the monster haunting him. Closer to light and the life he had been given once more.]
Take the step, Akaza. If not for yourself, then for me. I very much wish to see the man you can be.
[it's so much easier, akaza finds, to do things for others than for himself. he follows kyojuro's gestures dutifully, his only hesitation being a melancholy glance over his shoulder at the monster. should they make it back outside of the house, it won't follow, the damage already having been done.
outside, akaza stares at their hands for a time. kyojuro's are slightly larger than his, something he finds oddly comforting. he was but a boy when his father died, and even when he was grown, keizo still dwarfed him. it's funny, almost; nearly every other kizuki was bigger, even though only douma dared to tease him about it, but when it's a human, it's reassuring.
his gaze doesn't lift, but he tries as best he can to put slightly more confidence in his voice.]
Hakuji. [he should elaborate, but speaking the name out loud proves to be as much as he can muster at once.]
[Kyojuro is a smart man. Akaza may give him precious little to go off of, but he can put the pieces together. The name suits him, its kanji a far better descriptor than the ones crudely etched upon his eyes.]
Hakuji. [He repeats it, almost like a vow. He'll commit this to memory.] Would you prefer I use it going forward?
[An admission between the two of them is one thing. Pivoting to using that name instead of the former on a broader scale would invite questions, and Kyojuro isn't certain that's what the man wants in this moment.]
[for a moment, he considers it. it might be easier, now that it's out there... but soon, he decides to remain as he did when he arrived.]
No. I've lost my right to it. [maybe one day, he'll be open to the idea of earning it back, but even so, he truly is a different person now. it's doubtful he could ever return to just being hakuji.] It just felt right to tell you.
[the same way that carefully holding one another's hands feels right, even though gentle human touch has felt so alien to akaza in this place.]
[Admittedly, Kyojuro does think to argue. He can't imagine that anyone could ever lose their right to the person they are, regardless of the changes that Akaza had gone through. But there is a time and a place for that. In the midst of this horrific town with its sinister monsters is not one of those such moments.]
I thank you for entrusting me with it, then.
[By this point, they have indeed reached outdoors. Kyojuro casts one last solemn look over Akaza's shoulder, studying the man that had become a monster. He closes his eyes, uttering a solemn prayer that the town might let the memory rest. Even this felt like too much.
For now, Kyojuro releases one of Akaza's hands. The other remains held tight, keeping Akaza close as he begins to march more firmly away from the past.]
We should seek shelter for the evening. My understanding is that White Lily has set up a barrier somewhere. We can seek that out, if you are able to tolerate the company of another this evening. [He glances over his shoulder.] Otherwise, I can find us a suitable safe haven elsewhere.
[loathe as he is to walk away from what he's well aware is not really his father, akaza allows kyojuro to lead. doing as he's instructed has always been easy for him, at least from those he cared to follow. though, when he becomes aware that it's white lily they'd be seeking, it makes his steps more resolute.]
That'll be fine. [somewhere safe for the humans, that he can guard and protect, and forget about all of this for a while? it's perfect.]
[Since Akaza hasn't once indicated an interest in letting go of Kyojuro's hand, that grip is maintained. It's no longer the vice from earlier, but still firm enough to ideally keep his companion grounded. It's all about walking delicate lines with Akaza, but Kyojuro finds that he does not mind the dance by any means.
Under normal circumstances, Kyojuro might have been content to let them lapse into silence. However, he doubts Akaza's thoughts are particularly pleasant in this particular moment. Thus, he finds himself idly speaking:]
I found Senjuro in the mess of everything. Aira as well. Both were kept safe.
[it is exceedingly difficult to stray from the path around kyojuro. the brightness of him is a beacon, overpowering and impossible to lose. their continued embrace paired with him speaking in that warm, bold voice do the job well.]
You did. Good. [his brows furrow.] I'm sorry, I should have asked the moment I saw you. [like hell is he going to give himself any grace, lol.]
[The laugh that chases Akaza's words is a gentle and quiet one. Not quite the booming noise from back in the Grove, but that's only to be expected considering how careful they have to be in this place.]
You were preoccupied, Akaza. [A silent squeeze to his hand.] I merely wanted to tell you, to put your mind at ease.
[Much as Kyojuro doubts that the man had thought particularly hard about Senjuro, he's equally as certain that some worry had lurked within his heart when it came to Aira. The good news was meant to be a balm more than anything.]
[truthfully, akaza has been trying to memorize the names of everyone kyojuro appears to get along with; it's a good place to start for the new list of people he should protect. those two are the ones he'd most be concerned about, both considered family on some level. knowing they're safe is reassuring.
getting the opportunity to speak and think about the living, those they can still look after, almost makes akaza feel like he can forget the horror they just walked away from. but just as the slightest sensation of relief settles in his mind, they turn a corner only to stand within meters of a new monster.
this one would be an exact mirror to kyojuro, if not for the same funeral cloth over the face, and the fact that as soon as they lay eyes on this creature, it radiates a bright, warm light like that of the sun. the beast stands tall and proud, magnificent... then in the next instant, it is keeled over, its light has dimmed significantly, and instead, blindingly bright red blood pours from two endless waterfalls out of its left eye and the very center of its torso. the monster stumbles toward them, reaches for its waist, and extends an offering toward akaza just as the previous one had: a nichirin blade as red as the blood the creature is losing, with a familiar flame-shaped guard.
for his part, akaza is shocked rather than accepting of its presence, his lips ajar and his eyes wide. he isn't even sure how to begin to process this, especially not with kyojuro standing right beside him --
unless kyojuro moves to get a tighter grip, akaza's hand will slip from his, toward this offering as well.]
[It is a strange sight, looking at what is essentially a mirror. In many ways, it's jarring to see just how truly ruined he had appeared in those final moments. He feels the sharpest pang of empathy not just toward Akaza, but to Tanjiro, who also would have witnessed a familiar sort of sight.
Startled as he is, he doesn't realize that Akaza's slipped through his grasp until the man is several steps ahead of him. A rather irritable sigh leaves him, not toward his companion, but the wretched facsimile that has saw fit to manifest before them.]
[Thus far, he has made a point to not swing at Akaza's manifestations, not since he was first scolded back in the circus that is. But this is an affront not just to Akaza, but to Kyojuro himself. He will not stand for it.
First form is easy enough, even at his weakest. And it has been weeks since his last injury, after all. Yes, he's pushed himself to some degree, but never to the point of hindering his progress. And right now, this is a worthy sacrifice. Akaza will make it only a few feet before Kyojuro has shot past him, leaving smoke and heat crackling in his wake. His blade sinks into the neck of his doppelganger, then clean through, leaving it to crumble into ash and mist. He twists as his feet hit the ground once more, turning to look at the rapidly disintegrating form.
Rage burbles up within his voice, gaze rapidly shifting toward the sky beyond those impenetrable whorls of fog.]
You will not use me to harm others. Do you hear that, you wretched creature? Throw what feeble monsters you wish at us, twist our minds as you like, but do not dare use me as your weapon.
[even after the monster disintegrates, its shed blood still lays in a stream of puddles along the ground. in the chill of the fog, it steams, hot as the moment as it was spilled. to akaza, it even smells identical to kyojuro's blood. he shakes from this half trance-like state as well, meeting kyojuro before the last traces of the beast.
regardless of kyojuro's defiance toward the forest, or of his blade in hand, akaza reaches for the bandaged hand he'd fed from. kyojuro had said he'd safely be able to wield his sword, but not use breathing techniques for a while. for the first time tonight, akaza appears almost as fierce as usual, canines slightly bared as he turns kyojuro's hand over to inspect his palm.]
Why the hell'd you do that? [yes, despite his speech two seconds ago.] I told you... [well. he'd told kyojuro that hakuji's family wouldn't hurt him. he actually... doesn't know if that thing would have.]
[The silent command is obeyed without protest. He splays his fingers out, open for Akaza to take in. The wound, while still a touch raw, has patched itself up nicely. Perhaps it is a testament to just how much time has passed since that day, even if their minds can't seem to process it properly.
The irritability in the voice of his companion is not lost on Kyojuro, but he breathes out with a faint sense of amusement all the same. He just gave a whole speech about this, didn't he? But if Akaza wants him to elaborate, he will. It's only fair.]
That creature wanted to extinguish your flame. [He shakes his head.] That is an unacceptable aberration, when all I want is to see you set your heart ablaze.
[After a few moments, though, he does bow his head, expression shifting to something almost apologetic.]
I know you said your monsters would not harm me, just as I know that I assured you I would not raise my blade against them. But this my friend, was personal.
[the blue tips of his fingers ghost over the wound, examining without any pressure. it does seem much better off than he would have expected, but still, he scrunches his nose ever so slightly at kyojuro.]
Relax. I'm not going to hold it against you. [he's far more worried about the possibility that kyojuro will yet again be injured because of him. this time, akaza is the one who takes his wrist and pulls him forward. he deliberately makes as wide a path around the blood as he can. the sooner they get to the safe area, the better.]
[At first, Kyojuro stumbles. It isn't from the motion itself. No, as Akaza's cooler fingers wrapped around his wrist, something both warm and electric seemed to crackle up the span of his arm. Though his legs quickly managed to right themselves and catch up, he found that his gaze could not be torn away from that point of connection.
Had Akaza felt it too? Was it yet another trick of this strange place? His gaze drifted away finally, in favor of searching for any signs of a threat. Difficult as it was to parse out anything through the fog, nothing felt particularly sinister.
... Weren't they talking about something? Shame on him for getting distracted.]
How kind of you! [A current of delight took shape within his voice. Whatever had come over him, it didn't seem keen to linger.] I would have expected a thorough scolding for my efforts.
[when he misses a step, akaza's head snaps back to make sure he's okay. nothing seems to be wrong, except that kyojuro is just staring at their hands. but akaza just did that, too, didn't he? is the human just surprised that he's finally reciprocating touch? surely it can't be deeper than that, right?
he looks forward again at the same time kyojuro goes back to assessing their surroundings. akaza takes some time to consider his response, and finally makes a grumbling noise.]
I admit, I am still a bit surprised that it ranked so highly within your mind.
[It being his death. When he was with Aira, they had pieced together that this place seemed to be feeding on their resentments, their shadows, their fear — or at least some amalgamation of all of that. While he knew Akaza regretted what had happened in the end, it's a bit jarring to know that Kyojuro's own death lingered so heavily.
But still, it feels a little personal to press about. It's the only reason Kyojuro adds a playful little jab at the end, for fear of making things too heavy between them when they were already shouldering so much.]
[at first, he isn't sure how to respond to that. his face feels hot despite the cool air, and his heart heavy in a much more unpleasant way. time to deflect.]
What else am I going to think about? The giant lizard in the river?
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[That's the pattern they've established, right? Kyojuro shares something from his own life in an attempt to brook a deal with the other man. This is no exception. Akaza has bared his soul unwillingly, after all. The least Kyojuro can do is offer something in kind.
But there's something to be said about the question Akaza asks, and the tone with which he asks it. He glances from the man to the monster, wondering just who he had been before the fog had distorted his image. He looks too frail to have been Akaza's master, but who could say if that was an effect of the fog or something more.
Once more, that blazing gaze fixes on Akaza. He starts to respond As many times as I must, but stops short. That... doesn't feel right. If Akaza truly wanted something like this, who was Kyojuro to stop him? If his suffering was so great that it was worth facing the sun and dying in a painful blaze, then why was he so desperate to force Akaza to endure?
Moreover, wasn't it his duty to see a demon slain?
He pushes that final thought from his head just as quick as it comes on. Instead, he forces a command into the air between them:]
Tell me why this is what you want.
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that's something he would never have thought possible. even when hakuji neared the bridge he first took her to to see the fireworks, after he'd already lost everything but his own life, he still tried to fight muzan before taking it.]
My father's illness isn't what killed him. [his gaze travels across the monster's body with equal amounts of pity, affection, and regret. yes, the fog exaggerates his father, but it might as well not.] He didn't want me to be punished for trying to help him anymore.
[it wasn't his fault, not directly, but... wasn't it?]
He's waiting for me. My whole family is. [he shouldn't be here. he was never meant to be here.]
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The thought alone makes him feel ill.]
I see. [His voice sounds almost hoarse, doubtless as a result of the dryness in his mouth. He turns his gaze to the other man once more, then to the image he'd conjured up in his own head of Keizo.]
And do you think this is what your family wants? For you to join them in death, when you have been given a second chance? [His fingers, still threaded through Akaza's, squeeze just the slightest bit higher.] From the way you have described your master, I find it difficult to believe he would ever wish for you to end your own life.
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none of this feels real.]
I don't know. When I was still trying to kill Tanjiro and Giyu -- [yes, she had begged him to join them. but here...] ... they reached out for me. [is he the same person he was, even then, that short time ago? he doesn't know.
his fingers squeeze kyojuro's in return.]
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[Since Akaza has at least reciprocated the gesture, Kyojuro decides to take it a step further. He draws even with Akaza at first, rather than standing slightly behind him. Then he shifts in front of the man entirely, ideally blocking out the view of the monster behind him.
It is a significant risk, leaving himself open to attack. But he trusts Akaza at his original word — these monsters would not seek to harm him.]
I cannot claim to know the kind souls that guided to in that moment, much as I might like to. But I believe there is a difference. In that moment, they wanted you to be free, I think. They wished for you to be the man you were meant to be, not the one you had become.
And if that were true, then given this chance, I do not think they would want for you to squander it. You have the chance to carve out something new. To protect the souls of the Grove. And you have done a fine job of it.
You saved me from my own monsters, remember?
[Kyojuro reaches out with his free hand, attempting to snag Akaza's remaining limb within its grasp.]
Truthfully, I do not think it is my place to tell you what to do — not over what your loved ones might wish for at least. But nonetheless, I do hope you will stay. You are a friend to me, and my heart would ache if it ever knew your loss.
[Tentatively, he offers a smile.]
Besides, I cannot help you keep Soryu alive if you are not here to teach me.
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even with the phantom out of sight, still docile, at least toward kyojuro, akaza can't forget him or the others. such good people surely would only ever want freedom, second chances, for their loved one. maybe he's just back to the thought that -- all of this is so much more complicated and difficult than anything he's ever done. even burning for eternity seems like it would be more restful than this.
for all of the despair he's feeling, akaza can't help but... laugh. quiet, at first, but it builds into something shrill and cracked.]
Kyojuro, you sound absurd. An Upper Moon having weaseled his way into the heart of a Hashira? [how? kyojuro has explained why he views akaza as an ally, even a friend, multiple times, but this...] I -- couldn't possibly mean that much to anyone ever again. [not like this. not like he is. even so, he clings to kyojuro's hands like lifelines.]
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Where Akaza seemed almost bitter, Kyojuro can do nothing but radiate warmth. His smile, though small, is tender and gentle.]
Yet here we are. [He laughs, a gentle noise from deep within his chest.] And here you are, selling yourself far too short. Neither of us can know what the future holds. You certainly will not, if you end things now.
[The grip on Akaza's hands grows firmer. He draws those pallid, sickly, and ink-dipped things closer to his chest, coaxing the other man one step, then two, away from the monster haunting him. Closer to light and the life he had been given once more.]
Take the step, Akaza. If not for yourself, then for me. I very much wish to see the man you can be.
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outside, akaza stares at their hands for a time. kyojuro's are slightly larger than his, something he finds oddly comforting. he was but a boy when his father died, and even when he was grown, keizo still dwarfed him. it's funny, almost; nearly every other kizuki was bigger, even though only douma dared to tease him about it, but when it's a human, it's reassuring.
his gaze doesn't lift, but he tries as best he can to put slightly more confidence in his voice.]
Hakuji. [he should elaborate, but speaking the name out loud proves to be as much as he can muster at once.]
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Hakuji. [He repeats it, almost like a vow. He'll commit this to memory.] Would you prefer I use it going forward?
[An admission between the two of them is one thing. Pivoting to using that name instead of the former on a broader scale would invite questions, and Kyojuro isn't certain that's what the man wants in this moment.]
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No. I've lost my right to it. [maybe one day, he'll be open to the idea of earning it back, but even so, he truly is a different person now. it's doubtful he could ever return to just being hakuji.] It just felt right to tell you.
[the same way that carefully holding one another's hands feels right, even though gentle human touch has felt so alien to akaza in this place.]
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I thank you for entrusting me with it, then.
[By this point, they have indeed reached outdoors. Kyojuro casts one last solemn look over Akaza's shoulder, studying the man that had become a monster. He closes his eyes, uttering a solemn prayer that the town might let the memory rest. Even this felt like too much.
For now, Kyojuro releases one of Akaza's hands. The other remains held tight, keeping Akaza close as he begins to march more firmly away from the past.]
We should seek shelter for the evening. My understanding is that White Lily has set up a barrier somewhere. We can seek that out, if you are able to tolerate the company of another this evening. [He glances over his shoulder.] Otherwise, I can find us a suitable safe haven elsewhere.
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That'll be fine. [somewhere safe for the humans, that he can guard and protect, and forget about all of this for a while? it's perfect.]
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[Since Akaza hasn't once indicated an interest in letting go of Kyojuro's hand, that grip is maintained. It's no longer the vice from earlier, but still firm enough to ideally keep his companion grounded. It's all about walking delicate lines with Akaza, but Kyojuro finds that he does not mind the dance by any means.
Under normal circumstances, Kyojuro might have been content to let them lapse into silence. However, he doubts Akaza's thoughts are particularly pleasant in this particular moment. Thus, he finds himself idly speaking:]
I found Senjuro in the mess of everything. Aira as well. Both were kept safe.
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You did. Good. [his brows furrow.] I'm sorry, I should have asked the moment I saw you. [like hell is he going to give himself any grace, lol.]
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You were preoccupied, Akaza. [A silent squeeze to his hand.] I merely wanted to tell you, to put your mind at ease.
[Much as Kyojuro doubts that the man had thought particularly hard about Senjuro, he's equally as certain that some worry had lurked within his heart when it came to Aira. The good news was meant to be a balm more than anything.]
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[truthfully, akaza has been trying to memorize the names of everyone kyojuro appears to get along with; it's a good place to start for the new list of people he should protect. those two are the ones he'd most be concerned about, both considered family on some level. knowing they're safe is reassuring.
getting the opportunity to speak and think about the living, those they can still look after, almost makes akaza feel like he can forget the horror they just walked away from. but just as the slightest sensation of relief settles in his mind, they turn a corner only to stand within meters of a new monster.
this one would be an exact mirror to kyojuro, if not for the same funeral cloth over the face, and the fact that as soon as they lay eyes on this creature, it radiates a bright, warm light like that of the sun. the beast stands tall and proud, magnificent... then in the next instant, it is keeled over, its light has dimmed significantly, and instead, blindingly bright red blood pours from two endless waterfalls out of its left eye and the very center of its torso. the monster stumbles toward them, reaches for its waist, and extends an offering toward akaza just as the previous one had: a nichirin blade as red as the blood the creature is losing, with a familiar flame-shaped guard.
for his part, akaza is shocked rather than accepting of its presence, his lips ajar and his eyes wide. he isn't even sure how to begin to process this, especially not with kyojuro standing right beside him --
unless kyojuro moves to get a tighter grip, akaza's hand will slip from his, toward this offering as well.]
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Startled as he is, he doesn't realize that Akaza's slipped through his grasp until the man is several steps ahead of him. A rather irritable sigh leaves him, not toward his companion, but the wretched facsimile that has saw fit to manifest before them.]
Oh, dear.
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First form is easy enough, even at his weakest. And it has been weeks since his last injury, after all. Yes, he's pushed himself to some degree, but never to the point of hindering his progress. And right now, this is a worthy sacrifice. Akaza will make it only a few feet before Kyojuro has shot past him, leaving smoke and heat crackling in his wake. His blade sinks into the neck of his doppelganger, then clean through, leaving it to crumble into ash and mist. He twists as his feet hit the ground once more, turning to look at the rapidly disintegrating form.
Rage burbles up within his voice, gaze rapidly shifting toward the sky beyond those impenetrable whorls of fog.]
You will not use me to harm others. Do you hear that, you wretched creature? Throw what feeble monsters you wish at us, twist our minds as you like, but do not dare use me as your weapon.
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regardless of kyojuro's defiance toward the forest, or of his blade in hand, akaza reaches for the bandaged hand he'd fed from. kyojuro had said he'd safely be able to wield his sword, but not use breathing techniques for a while. for the first time tonight, akaza appears almost as fierce as usual, canines slightly bared as he turns kyojuro's hand over to inspect his palm.]
Why the hell'd you do that? [yes, despite his speech two seconds ago.] I told you... [well. he'd told kyojuro that hakuji's family wouldn't hurt him. he actually... doesn't know if that thing would have.]
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The irritability in the voice of his companion is not lost on Kyojuro, but he breathes out with a faint sense of amusement all the same. He just gave a whole speech about this, didn't he? But if Akaza wants him to elaborate, he will. It's only fair.]
That creature wanted to extinguish your flame. [He shakes his head.] That is an unacceptable aberration, when all I want is to see you set your heart ablaze.
[After a few moments, though, he does bow his head, expression shifting to something almost apologetic.]
I know you said your monsters would not harm me, just as I know that I assured you I would not raise my blade against them. But this my friend, was personal.
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Relax. I'm not going to hold it against you. [he's far more worried about the possibility that kyojuro will yet again be injured because of him. this time, akaza is the one who takes his wrist and pulls him forward. he deliberately makes as wide a path around the blood as he can. the sooner they get to the safe area, the better.]
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Had Akaza felt it too? Was it yet another trick of this strange place? His gaze drifted away finally, in favor of searching for any signs of a threat. Difficult as it was to parse out anything through the fog, nothing felt particularly sinister.
... Weren't they talking about something? Shame on him for getting distracted.]
How kind of you! [A current of delight took shape within his voice. Whatever had come over him, it didn't seem keen to linger.] I would have expected a thorough scolding for my efforts.
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he looks forward again at the same time kyojuro goes back to assessing their surroundings. akaza takes some time to consider his response, and finally makes a grumbling noise.]
That thing surprised me as much as it did you.
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[It being his death. When he was with Aira, they had pieced together that this place seemed to be feeding on their resentments, their shadows, their fear — or at least some amalgamation of all of that. While he knew Akaza regretted what had happened in the end, it's a bit jarring to know that Kyojuro's own death lingered so heavily.
But still, it feels a little personal to press about. It's the only reason Kyojuro adds a playful little jab at the end, for fear of making things too heavy between them when they were already shouldering so much.]
Do you think of me that often?
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What else am I going to think about? The giant lizard in the river?
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