[Confronting your emotions? That's bullshit, he doesn't want that! Throw the whole concept out! It's easier to dissociate than to face the world!
...Urbain curls up onto his side and faces the wall. He should get up and shower and get dressed for the day, but his legs feel too heavy and he doesn't want to move.]
I'll be fine, [he lies, stubborn as ever,] I'm just gonna lay here for a bit. You can have first dibs on the shower if you want.
Corbeau is still laying on his back, watching as Urbain turns away from him all curled up in a little ball, clearly avoidant. Clearly trying to just...bottle everything up, not talk about it, despite Corbeau's attempts to reach out. They're not good attempts, mind you, but they're the best he can do given the circumstances. All he knows, perhaps.
He sighs quietly, then happens to catch Roserade's gaze out of the corner of his eye, watching him over the edge of the bed. He's not entirely sure what she's thinking right now, but he can feel her gaze. Watching...expectant.
Mm.
After a long moment, he shifts, the mattress moving as he gets up. Before he actually leaves for the shower though, he reaches down to the bottom of the bed and lifts the edge of a spare blanket laying there, pulling it up over Urbain up to his shoulders. Clothing be damned.
[Warm and tucked in, Urbain will lay there for a few minutes silently, staring off at the wall, trying not to think. It must be frustrating for Corbeau, he thinks. He's not good at opening up, and who wants a roommate that doesn't fucking talk about anything? A friend, no less? But he's been a wreck for a long time now, probably longer than anyone could guess, so what's more "pretending to be fine", really? Another few months? Another few years?
If he's not a shoulder people can lean on, what good is he? Strong people don't break down, he thinks, at least not where people can see.
It'll be fine. He can manage. A little longer and they can be home, probably, and then he can leave all of this behind and go back to pretending he's okay because he'll be too busy helping people to help himself.
...
By the time Corbeau comes back, Urbain is curled up under the blankets sobbing to himself.]
[Corbeau takes a quick shower. He didn't even really need one, but it's nice to be refreshed. It's good for your mental health to stay clean, even in times like this. So when he gets redressed and returns, maybe Urbain is too bundled up in the blankets to notice that Corbeau can hear him softly crying. Or that he sees him curled up, sad, miserable, and wet on the bed.
It's hard enough to be in a place like this when you're older, and have more experience under your belt. Maybe you've seen more awful things in your life. You've dealt with more, or at least...life has forced you to. Not to say Urbain hasn't dealt with too much in his short life, but this is a different kind of ordeal. It's real and raw and inescapable, like too many other things.
Corbeau leaves Urbain alone, making his way quietly to the kitchenette as he glances briefly through the things they managed to bring back with them. It only takes him a moment to find what he's looking for, softly opening the fridge, making his presence known just enough with the sound of cutlery being shifted, but otherwise elsewhere giving Urbain his space.
Eventually he makes his way back over, the soft clatter of a mug being set down on the table beside Urbain's head the only sound he makes. It's a warm mug of hot chocolate, simply made on the stove. Not fancy, no whipped cream or cocoa sprinkled on top. It's just there, if he wants it.]
[Urbain only pokes his head out of the nest he's made when he hears the mug being set down. His eyes are all red, but somewhere between Corbeau shuffling around the kitchenette and now, he's managed to stop crying. He feels like fucking garbage, though, that's for sure.
Rubbing his eyes, he sits up, then sniffles a bit before grabbing for the mug.]
no subject
[Confronting your emotions? That's bullshit, he doesn't want that! Throw the whole concept out! It's easier to dissociate than to face the world!
...Urbain curls up onto his side and faces the wall. He should get up and shower and get dressed for the day, but his legs feel too heavy and he doesn't want to move.]
I'll be fine, [he lies, stubborn as ever,] I'm just gonna lay here for a bit. You can have first dibs on the shower if you want.
no subject
Corbeau is still laying on his back, watching as Urbain turns away from him all curled up in a little ball, clearly avoidant. Clearly trying to just...bottle everything up, not talk about it, despite Corbeau's attempts to reach out. They're not good attempts, mind you, but they're the best he can do given the circumstances. All he knows, perhaps.
He sighs quietly, then happens to catch Roserade's gaze out of the corner of his eye, watching him over the edge of the bed. He's not entirely sure what she's thinking right now, but he can feel her gaze. Watching...expectant.
Mm.
After a long moment, he shifts, the mattress moving as he gets up. Before he actually leaves for the shower though, he reaches down to the bottom of the bed and lifts the edge of a spare blanket laying there, pulling it up over Urbain up to his shoulders. Clothing be damned.
THEN he'll go shower.]
no subject
If he's not a shoulder people can lean on, what good is he? Strong people don't break down, he thinks, at least not where people can see.
It'll be fine. He can manage. A little longer and they can be home, probably, and then he can leave all of this behind and go back to pretending he's okay because he'll be too busy helping people to help himself.
...
By the time Corbeau comes back, Urbain is curled up under the blankets sobbing to himself.]
no subject
It's hard enough to be in a place like this when you're older, and have more experience under your belt. Maybe you've seen more awful things in your life. You've dealt with more, or at least...life has forced you to. Not to say Urbain hasn't dealt with too much in his short life, but this is a different kind of ordeal. It's real and raw and inescapable, like too many other things.
Corbeau leaves Urbain alone, making his way quietly to the kitchenette as he glances briefly through the things they managed to bring back with them. It only takes him a moment to find what he's looking for, softly opening the fridge, making his presence known just enough with the sound of cutlery being shifted, but otherwise elsewhere giving Urbain his space.
Eventually he makes his way back over, the soft clatter of a mug being set down on the table beside Urbain's head the only sound he makes. It's a warm mug of hot chocolate, simply made on the stove. Not fancy, no whipped cream or cocoa sprinkled on top. It's just there, if he wants it.]
no subject
Rubbing his eyes, he sits up, then sniffles a bit before grabbing for the mug.]
You didn't have to. I'm gonna be fine.
no subject
[He says this as he takes a seat on the edge of the bed, folding his hands in his lap.
Said in a very matter-of-fact tone as he pets the top of Roserade’s head before quietly returning her to her ball for the time being.]