[The more he learns, the more he's simultaneously surprised by the fact Joshua seems relatively well-adjusted and unsurprised by the mindset he spoke to earlier. If one is positioned, seemingly, from birth to adhere to an anticipated role and practically divested of all semblance of choice, it makes sense that it would become as second nature. Or become so abhorrent as to make service utterly unpalatable.]
...Is it a terrible thing to say I'm a little glad you aren't there? I mean, it sounds like you and your brother were putting in the legwork to try and improve the state of affairs, but it couldn't have been easy.
[It's good, at least, to hear Joshua laugh semi-regularly. Lodi likes making people laugh!]
Oh, they're completely unrelated! I shouldn't have assumed. To be honest, it sounds like that might all be impressive enough that I'm a little glad you can't at the moment. I might seem like I'm taking it all in stride, but! [It's Lodi's turn to laugh, a hint helplessly.] It's a lot to absorb! I feel like it'd be the equivalent of - seeing an angel, or something. Y'know?
[ Joshua has had nearly two decades to come to terms with all that has happened to set the wheel of fate into motion. Maybe, with all he's seen and experienced, he is a little... not desensitized, exactly, but adjusted to the reality of it. Like a chocobo broken from being startled by loud noises and abrupt movements. It does not change how he feels about the matter, but he is able to face it all with a much cooler head. ]
Not easy at all, actually. Though, while my brother was here, he came from a little bit further ahead in time than I. To his knowledge, so long as his plan succeeded, magic has now been removed entirely from our world, thus stopping the Curse and the inhumane treatment of Bearers all in one. Even considering that, though, the Curse has still deigned to follow me here. But, so long as I am careful, I will be all right.
[ Having everything taken away right now is a blessing, actually. It keeps him from using too much of his magic. It's for the best, at least in that regard.
Still, Joshua knows what Lodi means. It earns a little laugh, and a shake of his head. Maybe it is all a bit much. ]
I understand. It is a lot to take in. Perhaps we could begin with my smaller form to ease you into exposure. That ability, thankfully, I do still have. It is a transformation attached to my bracelet, and I have confirmed that it still functions mostly as normal.
[In an absolutely poor show of his own emotional regulation, Lodi's face creases inward in distress. It tempers naturally over the next few seconds, though the furrow in his brow remains. Unbidden, his eyes flicker downward as if in search for some definite sign as to Joshua's physical state.
Though they had known one another an incredibly short amount of time, Lodi was an empathetic soul. The idea of an individual as kind as Joshua suffering such a wretched fate admittedly tugged at his heartstrings... and bit at the part of him that burned with a righteous fire even now.]
That doesn't seem... [Aware of how childish commenting on how unfair that seemed would sound, Lodi sighs through his nose.] I'm sorry. And there's truly nothing that can be done, even here?
[A smaller form... a smaller bird? He can't deny he's curious. Burningly so, in fact, no pun intended.]
...What does mostly as normal entail in this specific case? I wouldn't want you to do something like that for my... amusement and be, I don't know, stuck like that for the foreseeable future. Or anything like that.
Ah... no, please do not concern yourself on my account. I have obtained ways to avoid progressing it, in lieu of an actual cure. A friend of mine here was working on a cure using the abilities from his own world, and even managed to reverse the progression just a little, but he... departed from this place some months ago. Thus, I am being careful.
[ Will had made excellent progress. He still isn't sure how taxing it was on the man, and he supposes he'll never know, now. Not unless he makes a miraculous return. ]
"Mostly as normal" simply means that... well. I'd initially asked Ydalir for a means to use my magicks without taxing my body, and she enchanted the bracelet to allow it. Unfortunately, that enchantment also came with changing into the form of a small Phoenix. My spells are weaker in that form, but they do at least avoid progressing the Curse. However, with magicks and abilities currently nullified, only the bird form seems to remain. I do not think I will be stuck in such a form - I have successfully changed back, after all.
...Okay, well, that's a relief. If there's anything I can do, though, please let me know. I won't pretend to be able to meaningfully tackle more mystical problems, but I like to think I'm quick enough at understanding concepts that I could be a sounding board.
[Fascinating stuff, though, all this discussion of transformation and phoenixes and magic. It was a relief that Joshua would not necessarily be stuck in the form, but...]
Did you successfully change back before or after the nullification came into effect? Maybe I'm stressing out over nothing, but if I asked you to do something and it got you stuck as a bird – no offense meant by calling the Phoenix a bird, for the record – I'd feel pretty bad.
Of course. A good sounding board is priceless, particularly one that has some understanding of the situation. Should I need anything, I will not hesitate to call upon you.
[ And he does mean that. He can consider things all he wants, but at the end of the day, a like mind is an incredible treasure. The more he has, the better.
Perhaps this is his bookwyrm hoard, then. A smile curls at the corner of his mouth at that. ]
Oh, not at all. The Phoenix is indeed a bird, albeit a very large one. But no, it was after. It was the first thing I tested after my own innate magicks, considering I do not wish to waste my other enchanted items.
Good! It's a deal, then. Twofold. You can come to me about anything, though, it doesn't only have to be about the state of your... affliction, so to speak. I really don't mind and, frankly, any opportunity to chat seems like a good one here.
[Okay, interest piqued. Seeing a real life Phoenix? Once in a lifetime opportunity? Even if it's only a little one, it's still... well, a Phoenix.]
Okay, that's a relief. Then, I mean, hey — if you're willing, who am I to turn down the opportunity? I can't lie, I'm pretty curious about it.
I would be glad to. Soon enough, I daresay you will be familiar enough to drop the formalities.
[ But with Lodi's curiosity piqued and his worries soothed, that opens Joshua to stretch his wings, so to speak. (Not literally, of course, though he could in this open space if he wanted to.) He stands from his seat, touching the bracelet around his wrist. ]
It may look a bit flashy, but worry not. The flames will not harm you. It is simply an effect.
[ Lodi will see soon enough that Joshua doesn't mean flames around him. The change happens in a shimmer of air around him, like light bending through an invisible barrier. One moment, it's Joshua standing there, and the next there is a firebird the size of a parakeet perched on the seat of the chair, flashes of flame flickering through its feathers like coals in a campfire.
And when he speaks, rather than it coming through his mouth, those thoughts are just telepathically blasted to Lodi's brain. because wolfie told me it was okay to keep the brainspeak ]
Listen, like I said! It's not because I'm trying to be unfriendly. In fact, the opposite. I have far too many memories of getting glared at when I was younger because I spoke too casually to someone I'd only just met. Sort of irons the impulse in.
[Thus warned, Lodi shifts in his seat to watch. It is a thankful thing that he is used to lightshows of a more destructive quality, because Joshua's particular display does not immediately come across as dangerous. When the space around them snaps to Joshua's newfound form, wonderment and disbelief arise in equal measure.
Lodi's first thought is: wow, that is actually smaller than anticipated. Unbidden, a lopsided smile splashes onto his face and remains utterly steadfast, even through the telepathy. He's used to being to that manner of communication given his stint with the Nine.]
Wow. That is... incredible. Truly. My brain is kind of struggling to wrap my head around the fact that you could normally turn into something far larger than this.
Considerably larger, actually. This building would not be able to contain me, were I to fully prime. This smaller form is a blessing in that regard.
[ Considering that Lodi seems to be fascinated, he spreads his wings, giving him a better look at everything. For all points and purposes, he seems like a flesh and blood bird, if not for the clear fire-flicker in his feathers and considerably longer tail feathers.]
It is quite comfortable, but the most important thing is that it does not put strain on my body.
Given that Joshua does not seem opposed to closer observation, Lodi carefully inclines himself the smallest bit in order to get a better look. While the form was surprisingly solid—although he does not know what he was expecting, given the fantastical nature of a Phoenix—the silhouette was alien enough to register as something other.
He has to wonder about the logistics behind the tail feathers. With a quizzical expression, Lodi thumbs at his chin. Did they help with flight, or was it more strictly cosmetic? Did a Phoenix follow the conventional laws of flight? Was it hollow-boned, like one would expect an Earthly bird to be, or was its ability so mystical as to allow for a difference in functional form entirely?
Nerd.]
Really, really fascinating stuff. Is the, uh, telepathy standard with your actual form? Or is that something that came with the bracelet?
[ Joshua has nothing if not patience, so being examined is at least tolerable. He shifts in little ways as Lodi looks him over, perfectly happy to be the specimen for a little while. The telepathy, unfortunately, only goes one way, so he can't tell what the other man is thinking, but that's easily fixed. ]
I believe it is functionally similar to my primed form. I can communicate with other Dominants, at the very least, though I do not exactly have lips to speak, so mental communication seems the most logical of the options.
[ He pauses for a moment, tilting his little bird head, then shivers to the point that all of his feathers fluff up into a big fluffy firebird orb before flattening back down. Ugh, he never could resist the bird urges in this form... ]
You are welcome to ask as many questions as you like. You can take a feather, as well, if you wish. I do not mind, and it will hurt neither of us.
[Unbidden, in the midst of marveling something that is likely as mundane as a shift of the weather for his companion, Lodi thinks on how remarkable this all would seem if he were still that man in Chicago. Conversing with an individual who could shapeshift into a mystical creature, telepathically! Incredible!
Even as he finds himself marveling at the fact a Phoenix retains bird-like instincts, the smile on his face tightens. It's amazing – all of this is, even the abundant horrors outside the inn. It also all feels that little bit bittersweet, like a pill he can't quite swallow due to the circumstances.
With a faint breath, Lodi sits back in his chair and interlaces his fingers in his lap.]
No, no, that's alright. I won't pester you with any of that. The fact I got to see it at all is more than enough for me. Thank you for the privilege.
[ The examination seems to be quick, if nothing else. Joshua makes a note to save a feather of his for later, though, as a token of friendship, perhaps. He knows that, were it him, he would be ridiculously curious, and he has no doubt that Lodi would appreciate it in some way. ]
If you are certain, then.
[ The transformation back is simple enough, and in a matter of seconds the bird is once again Joshua, who moves his hand to play with the bracelet on his opposite wrist. ]
One day, you might see the real Phoenix. Though, I hope you do not have occasion to. It is something I restrict only to emergency situations.
[He would love to have such a thing, certainly, but requesting it here and now feels like reducing his companion down to a simple curiosity. He wants to show appreciation for the individual, not solely his transformative and fascinating abilities.
Even if the transformation back is simple, he still finds himself taken aback by the weight of it all. Even if he is stranded here, he is grateful to have experienced this.]
Gosh, well. Between you and me, given what we've talked about... I hope I never have to see it, I agree. Even if the necessary circumstances weren't dire, I'd really rather you not have to tax yourself. Frankly, it almost sounds like it'd be better if you never needed to transform fully again.
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...Is it a terrible thing to say I'm a little glad you aren't there? I mean, it sounds like you and your brother were putting in the legwork to try and improve the state of affairs, but it couldn't have been easy.
[It's good, at least, to hear Joshua laugh semi-regularly. Lodi likes making people laugh!]
Oh, they're completely unrelated! I shouldn't have assumed. To be honest, it sounds like that might all be impressive enough that I'm a little glad you can't at the moment. I might seem like I'm taking it all in stride, but! [It's Lodi's turn to laugh, a hint helplessly.] It's a lot to absorb! I feel like it'd be the equivalent of - seeing an angel, or something. Y'know?
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Not easy at all, actually. Though, while my brother was here, he came from a little bit further ahead in time than I. To his knowledge, so long as his plan succeeded, magic has now been removed entirely from our world, thus stopping the Curse and the inhumane treatment of Bearers all in one. Even considering that, though, the Curse has still deigned to follow me here. But, so long as I am careful, I will be all right.
[ Having everything taken away right now is a blessing, actually. It keeps him from using too much of his magic. It's for the best, at least in that regard.
Still, Joshua knows what Lodi means. It earns a little laugh, and a shake of his head. Maybe it is all a bit much. ]
I understand. It is a lot to take in. Perhaps we could begin with my smaller form to ease you into exposure. That ability, thankfully, I do still have. It is a transformation attached to my bracelet, and I have confirmed that it still functions mostly as normal.
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Though they had known one another an incredibly short amount of time, Lodi was an empathetic soul. The idea of an individual as kind as Joshua suffering such a wretched fate admittedly tugged at his heartstrings... and bit at the part of him that burned with a righteous fire even now.]
That doesn't seem... [Aware of how childish commenting on how unfair that seemed would sound, Lodi sighs through his nose.] I'm sorry. And there's truly nothing that can be done, even here?
[A smaller form... a smaller bird? He can't deny he's curious. Burningly so, in fact, no pun intended.]
...What does mostly as normal entail in this specific case? I wouldn't want you to do something like that for my... amusement and be, I don't know, stuck like that for the foreseeable future. Or anything like that.
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[ Will had made excellent progress. He still isn't sure how taxing it was on the man, and he supposes he'll never know, now. Not unless he makes a miraculous return. ]
"Mostly as normal" simply means that... well. I'd initially asked Ydalir for a means to use my magicks without taxing my body, and she enchanted the bracelet to allow it. Unfortunately, that enchantment also came with changing into the form of a small Phoenix. My spells are weaker in that form, but they do at least avoid progressing the Curse. However, with magicks and abilities currently nullified, only the bird form seems to remain. I do not think I will be stuck in such a form - I have successfully changed back, after all.
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[Fascinating stuff, though, all this discussion of transformation and phoenixes and magic. It was a relief that Joshua would not necessarily be stuck in the form, but...]
Did you successfully change back before or after the nullification came into effect? Maybe I'm stressing out over nothing, but if I asked you to do something and it got you stuck as a bird – no offense meant by calling the Phoenix a bird, for the record – I'd feel pretty bad.
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[ And he does mean that. He can consider things all he wants, but at the end of the day, a like mind is an incredible treasure. The more he has, the better.
Perhaps this is his bookwyrm hoard, then. A smile curls at the corner of his mouth at that. ]
Oh, not at all. The Phoenix is indeed a bird, albeit a very large one. But no, it was after. It was the first thing I tested after my own innate magicks, considering I do not wish to waste my other enchanted items.
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[Okay, interest piqued. Seeing a real life Phoenix? Once in a lifetime opportunity? Even if it's only a little one, it's still... well, a Phoenix.]
Okay, that's a relief. Then, I mean, hey — if you're willing, who am I to turn down the opportunity? I can't lie, I'm pretty curious about it.
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I would be glad to. Soon enough, I daresay you will be familiar enough to drop the formalities.
[ But with Lodi's curiosity piqued and his worries soothed, that opens Joshua to stretch his wings, so to speak. (Not literally, of course, though he could in this open space if he wanted to.) He stands from his seat, touching the bracelet around his wrist. ]
It may look a bit flashy, but worry not. The flames will not harm you. It is simply an effect.
[ Lodi will see soon enough that Joshua doesn't mean flames around him. The change happens in a shimmer of air around him, like light bending through an invisible barrier. One moment, it's Joshua standing there, and the next there is a firebird the size of a parakeet perched on the seat of the chair, flashes of flame flickering through its feathers like coals in a campfire.
And when he speaks, rather than it coming through his mouth, those thoughts are just telepathically blasted to Lodi's brain.
because wolfie told me it was okay to keep the brainspeak]There we are.
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[Thus warned, Lodi shifts in his seat to watch. It is a thankful thing that he is used to lightshows of a more destructive quality, because Joshua's particular display does not immediately come across as dangerous. When the space around them snaps to Joshua's newfound form, wonderment and disbelief arise in equal measure.
Lodi's first thought is: wow, that is actually smaller than anticipated. Unbidden, a lopsided smile splashes onto his face and remains utterly steadfast, even through the telepathy. He's used to being to that manner of communication given his stint with the Nine.]
Wow. That is... incredible. Truly. My brain is kind of struggling to wrap my head around the fact that you could normally turn into something far larger than this.
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[ Considering that Lodi seems to be fascinated, he spreads his wings, giving him a better look at everything. For all points and purposes, he seems like a flesh and blood bird, if not for the clear fire-flicker in his feathers and considerably longer tail feathers.]
It is quite comfortable, but the most important thing is that it does not put strain on my body.
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[Understatement of the century, man.
Given that Joshua does not seem opposed to closer observation, Lodi carefully inclines himself the smallest bit in order to get a better look. While the form was surprisingly solid—although he does not know what he was expecting, given the fantastical nature of a Phoenix—the silhouette was alien enough to register as something other.
He has to wonder about the logistics behind the tail feathers. With a quizzical expression, Lodi thumbs at his chin. Did they help with flight, or was it more strictly cosmetic? Did a Phoenix follow the conventional laws of flight? Was it hollow-boned, like one would expect an Earthly bird to be, or was its ability so mystical as to allow for a difference in functional form entirely?
Nerd.]
Really, really fascinating stuff. Is the, uh, telepathy standard with your actual form? Or is that something that came with the bracelet?
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I believe it is functionally similar to my primed form. I can communicate with other Dominants, at the very least, though I do not exactly have lips to speak, so mental communication seems the most logical of the options.
[ He pauses for a moment, tilting his little bird head, then shivers to the point that all of his feathers fluff up into a big fluffy firebird orb before flattening back down. Ugh, he never could resist the bird urges in this form... ]
You are welcome to ask as many questions as you like. You can take a feather, as well, if you wish. I do not mind, and it will hurt neither of us.
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Even as he finds himself marveling at the fact a Phoenix retains bird-like instincts, the smile on his face tightens. It's amazing – all of this is, even the abundant horrors outside the inn. It also all feels that little bit bittersweet, like a pill he can't quite swallow due to the circumstances.
With a faint breath, Lodi sits back in his chair and interlaces his fingers in his lap.]
No, no, that's alright. I won't pester you with any of that. The fact I got to see it at all is more than enough for me. Thank you for the privilege.
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If you are certain, then.
[ The transformation back is simple enough, and in a matter of seconds the bird is once again Joshua, who moves his hand to play with the bracelet on his opposite wrist. ]
One day, you might see the real Phoenix. Though, I hope you do not have occasion to. It is something I restrict only to emergency situations.
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Even if the transformation back is simple, he still finds himself taken aback by the weight of it all. Even if he is stranded here, he is grateful to have experienced this.]
Gosh, well. Between you and me, given what we've talked about... I hope I never have to see it, I agree. Even if the necessary circumstances weren't dire, I'd really rather you not have to tax yourself. Frankly, it almost sounds like it'd be better if you never needed to transform fully again.