[oh, even after all of this, he doubles down? infuriating. forget the brush, kiera will take off to yank at his hair with their beak themself.]
But you would still leave! You're so godsdamned selfish, Luca! [another lock of hair snapped up, another sharp yank as she flutters backward.] I'm already giving him a chance by tolerating his presence! What more do you want from me?
[The hair is uncalled for, and they both know it. He whirls on the bird, swatting at the air even as he does. There is no true power in his motions, largely out of fear of actually hurting them. It isn't like normal, where they would simply turn back after being injured. He ran the risk of actually hurting them like this.]
Selfish? For taking an opportunity to do potentially do some good? That is the only reason I am considering it. I am not who I was back then, when I was too blinded by my own grief to see what I would leave behind. Unlike you, Kiera, I have actually grown.
[Casting the brush aside, Luca storms from the bathroom and back to the door. He opens it enough for the little bird to leave.]
[as much as that bites, makes them want to snap back -- kiera knows that's exactly what luca is betting on. they hunker down on the towel rack, narrowing their beady little bird eyes.]
Oh, no. You're not getting rid of me so you can rid yourself of life.
[UGH, she CAN'T with this man. maybe it's taking the bait, but that gives her enough cause to take off and dive for him again. not to yank on him again, but to ensure she's close enough should he try to pull the stunt he threatens.]
Why are you being such a stubborn little shit? [they're aware that the same could be said of them, but they would insist that they come from a place of concern where luca is only being difficult for the sake of it. funny, that he likely feels the opposite.]
I am being stubborn? You are the one acting as if I have not grown or changed in the last year.
[With her hovering so close to his head, Luca makes a grab at her. It's a faltering one, considering how worried he is about hurting that fragile body of hers, but an attempt all the same.]
[luckily for luca, kiera is upset enough to allow themself to be distracted, and only because it's him. if he means to grab them, he'll succeed, and they will give an indignant squawk to rival his own.]
Even if you have, you're considering it again at the first opportunity!
[Rather than shoving Kiera out immediately, Luca finds himself hesitating. He looks down at their small form, and allows his thumb to lift and stroke over their head.]
Even if I went to fight him, why are you so convinced that I would lose? Do you think me that incapable?
[if his actions and words are a ploy to get her to lower her guard, well... consider her a fool. it's been this way since they were children; luca will always be her soft spot.]
I know you're capable, Luc. All the same, I know the Queen's agents are just as ruthless as the Empress'. [and with their mental connection as it is, she can't soften the blow of emotions for either of their sakes.] And I'm so tired of seeing you hurt.
[Indeed, the hurt reverberates through their bond. Unconsciously, he thinks of the fights he'd picked throughout Cataega, his own bloodied war. With it comes the memory of being caught by the emissaries, cornered by a fair few of their number.
She's right. He knows she is. And yet -]
He is without the leviathan. It is different. It is my chance to prove myself. [And with it comes a sense of longing, a bond that had been left dangling for over a year. It isn't just the combat he misses, but the closeness it brought out. A sense of camaraderie between two forms of monsters.]
It would be worth it to try. If it might help. If it might prove something.
[Maybe then, he cannot help but think — a thought she is perfectly privy to, considering — she would stop considering him so fragile.]
[knowing, at least, that alazon is not entirely bound to his beast at the moment is... some small relief. if nothing else, kiera will admit that they haven't bothered getting to know him beyond the aspect of his being a powerful blessed extensively trained in warfare and a direct threat to luca. their exposed feathers ruffle up nearly beyond a 90 degree angle before they shiver and lay them down once more.]
I don't care if you spar. I just don't want you intentionally flirting with death when we don't know without doubt the consequences.
[Clutching Kiera as he is, Luca is abruptly aware of just how deeply he misses their presence. They weren't always affectionate, but beasts he could use a hug from them right now.
He settles for bringing them up to his heart, resting them there for a moment in the closest semblance he has, before opening his palm once more.]
Okay, Kiera.
[He isn't entirely lying. He won't push his luck, not until he sees what happens. There is no doubt in his mind that someone will make an attempt before long. Once he spots the results, then he'll make a decision.]
I love you, you know. No matter how much of a pain you are
[the sensation of his heartbeat through his chest is an unpleasant reminder of how small and useless kiera is right now. they could bitch and moan and scream at him all they want, but ultimately... they can't actually do a damn thing to stop or to protect him. some quiet, strange, almost foreign part of them supplies that all they'll succeed in doing is pushing him away.
although he releases them, they don't move for a long moment, trying instead to make peace with luca, with their own complicated feelings on the issue. it isn't like them to just give up, yet they know continuing the way they are will only harm them both.]
I love you, Luca. And I hate that I can't keep you safe.
[He thumbs over their head once more. It's hard not to notice how small they are. One wrong move would shatter them in an instant. If someone did want to make good on the Forest's promise out of malice, it would be so easy to do so with them.]
[even though they're self-indulgent enough to rub their head feathers against his fingers a few times, kiera doesn't linger too long. and actually, they reach for another strand of his hair to pluck at, this time only gentle and playful about it.]
I'll be fine. My mark may be as obvious as anyone's, but anyone who wants to take advantage will have to catch me first.
[they no sooner think it than dart away from him and out of his reach, through the door he's left open. they end up perched on a doorframe a few rooms down, cocking their head at him in impish defiance.]
[Naturally, Luca gives a huff at that tug, but... Without it being enough to cause damage, he takes it for what it is — playful.
The same goes for the way they flit away. He stumbles after them for a few feet, then shakes his head.] Very well then. Go have your fun, Kiera. Just make it back to me before long.
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But you would still leave! You're so godsdamned selfish, Luca! [another lock of hair snapped up, another sharp yank as she flutters backward.] I'm already giving him a chance by tolerating his presence! What more do you want from me?
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Selfish? For taking an opportunity to do potentially do some good? That is the only reason I am considering it. I am not who I was back then, when I was too blinded by my own grief to see what I would leave behind. Unlike you, Kiera, I have actually grown.
[Casting the brush aside, Luca storms from the bathroom and back to the door. He opens it enough for the little bird to leave.]
Get out.
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Oh, no. You're not getting rid of me so you can rid yourself of life.
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Then I shall lock you in here, and leave you to your thoughts while I, apparently, go off to die. Take your pick, dear sister.
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Why are you being such a stubborn little shit? [they're aware that the same could be said of them, but they would insist that they come from a place of concern where luca is only being difficult for the sake of it. funny, that he likely feels the opposite.]
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[With her hovering so close to his head, Luca makes a grab at her. It's a faltering one, considering how worried he is about hurting that fragile body of hers, but an attempt all the same.]
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Even if you have, you're considering it again at the first opportunity!
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Even if I went to fight him, why are you so convinced that I would lose? Do you think me that incapable?
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I know you're capable, Luc. All the same, I know the Queen's agents are just as ruthless as the Empress'. [and with their mental connection as it is, she can't soften the blow of emotions for either of their sakes.] And I'm so tired of seeing you hurt.
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She's right. He knows she is. And yet -]
He is without the leviathan. It is different. It is my chance to prove myself. [And with it comes a sense of longing, a bond that had been left dangling for over a year. It isn't just the combat he misses, but the closeness it brought out. A sense of camaraderie between two forms of monsters.]
It would be worth it to try. If it might help. If it might prove something.
[Maybe then, he cannot help but think — a thought she is perfectly privy to, considering — she would stop considering him so fragile.]
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I don't care if you spar. I just don't want you intentionally flirting with death when we don't know without doubt the consequences.
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He settles for bringing them up to his heart, resting them there for a moment in the closest semblance he has, before opening his palm once more.]
Okay, Kiera.
[He isn't entirely lying. He won't push his luck, not until he sees what happens. There is no doubt in his mind that someone will make an attempt before long. Once he spots the results, then he'll make a decision.]
I love you, you know. No matter how much of a pain you are
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although he releases them, they don't move for a long moment, trying instead to make peace with luca, with their own complicated feelings on the issue. it isn't like them to just give up, yet they know continuing the way they are will only harm them both.]
I love you, Luca. And I hate that I can't keep you safe.
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[He thumbs over their head once more. It's hard not to notice how small they are. One wrong move would shatter them in an instant. If someone did want to make good on the Forest's promise out of malice, it would be so easy to do so with them.]
Please, be careful out there.
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I'll be fine. My mark may be as obvious as anyone's, but anyone who wants to take advantage will have to catch me first.
[they no sooner think it than dart away from him and out of his reach, through the door he's left open. they end up perched on a doorframe a few rooms down, cocking their head at him in impish defiance.]
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The same goes for the way they flit away. He stumbles after them for a few feet, then shakes his head.] Very well then. Go have your fun, Kiera. Just make it back to me before long.