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Nicholas D. Wolfwood [Trigun Stampede] ([personal profile] lupusxylem) wrote in [community profile] sticksandbones2023-12-15 04:15 pm

Despite all my rage I'm something something rat

Who: Nicholas D. Wolfwood and YOU
What: Wolfwood had a fight with his boyfriend Vash and processing emotions is hard when you never learned how to
When: Backdated Dec 11th between weed log and that same evening
Where: Rage room in the Therapy Building
Warnings: cw: intentional physical self harm/blood, drug use, destruction of things, and also Wolfwood's potty mouth


[Do you ever just wake up one morning and say to yourself "What am I willing to put up with today?"

Yeah, well. That's been Wolfwood's entire day so far. He could make a fair argument for how he's felt since he's shown up in the Grove, but even he knows it wouldn't be fair to blame the other transplants for his misfortunes. They've all- largely- been his own fault. Whether it be through deliberate choice or accidental, it just comes with the territory of being the kind of person he is. And back when he and Vash clashed the last time, they didn't have space to cool off. Not when you're traveling together on an inhospitable planet, and breaking off simply isn't an option. The constant back-to-back disasters happening without a chance to breathe inbetween sort of got in the way too, and speedran any sort of actual meaningful conversations that could take place, much less closure.

Say you need therapy without saying you need therapy, etc.

Wolfwood, naturally, does not intend to partake in anything of the sort. If someone here asked him who he was and what he did for a living, he'd fall back on the usual: He is a Priest who travels a deserted planet spreading the good word to those who are left. An Undertaker, whose responsibility it is to do the work most are too squeamish to handle. None of this is entirely the truth, but it isn't exactly a total lie, either. Thus, the Therapy building is not someplace Wolfwood goes for any real help, but to just get away. The Inn is too crowded, the town a constant risk of running into someone he doesn't want to talk to. The woods...he can't go back in there, even if they'd be a perfect place to isolate.

Why not just stay in his room, then? He's self destructing, that's why-

The building, for a mercy, seems empty upon entry. He knows that probably isn't true, but if he can slip somewhere quiet unnoticed, all the better. The Punisher has been left behind in his room so it's just him as he pokes his head into the paint room, the library, the physical room...why does it feel like he's walked into a daycare.

But then he comes upon the "rage room". It isn't immediately clear what it's supposed to be at first, and because of that, he almost looks at it and then leaves like he did with the rest. It's weirdly pristine, yet makes no sense with the random assortment of furniture and breakable things laying about. He lingers in the doorway, trying to make sense of what he's seeing, until he spots a lone sledgehammer in the center of the room.

...and so he enters, closing the door behind him.

It doesn't take long for instinct and the desire to rip shit apart with his bare hands to take effect, as anyone entering the therapy building will soon find out. Someone is Very Much using that room right now, if the sound of shattering glass and things being beaten within an inch of their inanimate lives are anything to go by. Wolfwood has taken up that sledgehammer and is breaking apart everything in the room that isn't nailed down. But that isn't all he's doing. He will, at times, take up pieces of not-yet-broken ceramic, or even shards of glass that have already come off other things, and break them with his bare hands. Nothing is off limits, and nothing is too dangerous for him to handle.

It's why he's doing all of this with a strange vial clenched between his teeth, still sealed at the end. All of this has a purpose, so that if/when his injuries from what he's doing become actually severe, he hits the panic button and breaks the glass with his teeth. Otherwise, though? If all it amounts to are some surface level cuts and gashes...he probably won't actually use it at all.

Knowing him though, that's not going to be all it is.]
simplicitas: (020 @ne2_2ne)

cw suicidal ideation, rip

[personal profile] simplicitas 2023-12-16 07:30 am (UTC)(link)
[Luckily Elsword's head is in the game now, and he blocks that blow with his claymore. It clinks loudly off the blade, and maybe up close Wolfwood can spot how scratched and worn out the metal is. The sledgehammer doesn't dent the material, but it leaves behind an uneven scratch on the surface as the two metal objects separate.

Elsword raises a leg up and tries to kick Wolfwood away from him, aiming for the stomach.]


Maybe I want to die. Maybe I don't care if I do.

[Okay buddy that's uh—]

But you're not gonna be the one to do it, because you're a good person. Even if you're mad, you're not evil enough to kill me.

[And if he did, maybe he'd be doing Elsword and the Grove as a whole a favour, considering the plant-parasite that has a hold on him.]
simplicitas: (059 @Niku_meat_Niku)

i'm not-

[personal profile] simplicitas 2023-12-16 08:05 am (UTC)(link)
[A good punch to the face is maybe all Elsword needs to snap out of it, this depressive state he's gotten himself so thoroughly entrenched in. He's not fucking okay, and maybe he's never been okay in his life. But that punch snaps his head to the side, and even though he doesn't fall over like others might with a punch that hard... there's blood on his lips when his gaze snaps back to Wolfwood.

He throws his own punch back with the opposite hand, not letting go of his sword for a second. This one, he aims more at Wolfwood's ribs.]


I don't. But if you wanted me dead, you would've killed me. You wouldn't have started off using the opposite end of that sledgehammer. You wouldn't have dropped it just now to throw a punch.

[His face is already bruising, but he doesn't do a thing about it. All he does is spit blood onto the ground and regard Wolfwood with a cold, sharp stare. Then, he casts aside his sword, shoving the tip of it into the ground with a low shhhnk sound.]

Are we doing this with our fists, or our weapons?

[Two people this self-destructive should not be doing this, but here they are. One wants to be the bad guy; one wants to feel like he's in control of everything he isn't. At this stage, they might both fill those roles.]
simplicitas: (081 @secondterra)

[personal profile] simplicitas 2023-12-16 07:43 pm (UTC)(link)
[Don't worry he'll go back into the depression spiral later. Wolfwood may not be able to kill Elsword for more than one reason. After all, he's a pawn of the Forest now. Either the El's Will stop him from dying, or the Forest will, and in either case Elsword is just someone else's plaything.

No more sad thoughts. Elsword takes that goading, noting the thing between Wolfwood's teeth and purposely not aiming there. It distantly reminds him of Add's Cure vials, so he probably shouldn't break it. Instead, he makes a show of cracking his knuckles, shakes out his hands...

Makes a fist. Slugs it right into Wolfwood's stomach, assuming the guy doesn't try to block in any way. He follows it up with a second punch from his right hand somewhere nebulously in the shoulder region, again trying not to go for the face.

They aren't nice, sparring punches. They're the punches of a boy who's got a lot wrong with him, too. A lot of pent-up anger he can't even feel thanks to the Illuminous Phenomenon, bubbling to the surface like oxygen under a pool of muck.]
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[personal profile] simplicitas 2023-12-16 08:16 pm (UTC)(link)
[Fun facts about Elsword: for all he goes on about honour and doing the right thing, he is not, by any stretch of the imagination, a clean fighter. He's the sort of kid who will kick people in the face standing up if it means they'll go down. He'll throw mud in your eyes if he has to. That's simply how Elrians are.

There's no mud here to throw, luckily for Wolfwood and his sunglasses, but there is something he can toss. Something, namely Wolfwood himself, as Elsword dodges that hit with a clean duck and tries grab the man around the stomach before attempting to use his weight to his advantage, to toss him at that table.

Yeah, they're fighting to humiliate all right.]
simplicitas: (031 @LuckyPunch_)

[personal profile] simplicitas 2023-12-16 08:41 pm (UTC)(link)
[Oh yeah he sure is coming with, he rolled a whole-ass 6. There's no saving that. Elsword is smaller and, while not exactly lightweight, gravity and raw strength is enough to throw him off his feet. They fall in a mix of limbs and flying wooden shards as that table snaps under their combined weight, the remaining objects on top of it clattering to the ground in a glorious display of chaos. There's a wooden shard embedded in his upper thigh that he's ignoring even as blood starts to soak into his pants, and he can feel stinging marks where Wolfwood's nails dug into the parts of his back which aren't covered by a shirt.

None of this deters him, as Elsword tries to wrestle for the high ground and, this time, attempts to slug Wolfwood directly in the jaw. So much for not aiming for the face, apparently he's given up on that.]
simplicitas: (022 @mush___room)

[personal profile] simplicitas 2023-12-16 09:21 pm (UTC)(link)
[—ah. The vial breaking and the noise of pain is enough to get Elsword distracted, and that kick nails him right in the ribs. Elsword makes a cut-off snarl as he's sent practically flying backwards, slamming up against the nearby wall. Having the wind knocked out of him doesn't necessarily deter him from continuing; it's that pained noise, that moment of "oh shit this went too far", that gets him to pause.

Maybe "went too far" is how this started, though. Elsword has a wooden shard embedded in his leg, a heavily bruised jaw, and he's hacking up small amounts of blood from earlier injuries plus getting tossed like that. Wolfwood's got glass in his face, blood in his mouth, and who knows how many other injuries hidden from view.

He smears the blood from his face and slouches against the wall. If there was any ire at all, it's faded away, leaving behind a hollow feeling of nothingness that he always carries with him.]


Did that get it out of your system, [he pants, running his fingers along the swollen line of his jaw,] or do you need another round?
simplicitas: (027 @mELangpuding)

[personal profile] simplicitas 2023-12-16 09:56 pm (UTC)(link)
[Wolfwood he only has one eye left c'mon man let him have that much.

Elsword nods. Sure, they can continue beating each other up. Somehow they both need it, even if it's possibly the most destructive thing that they can do to each other. Elsword is fine being a punching bag if it helps Wolfwood feel better, and maybe Wolfwood's fine being a punching bag because he probably hates himself. He gets that impression about the man. Too much rage, no outlet, now we're beating each other up in the therapy office.

You know, as therapists intend (no).]


Okay. Give me a second.

["But for why", one may wonder, but the answer is quite obvious: Elsword has to pull this wooden chunk out of his leg first, because it's hindering his movements. He fell right onto one of the larger pieces left behind after they wrecked the table, but he's completely unafraid to just yank this thing out. It gushes blood in response, but he hardly makes a noise of pain, instead using his healing magic to slowly close the wound.

While they have a minute...]


I can heal you, too. If you want.
simplicitas: (042 @Agatsuma_Rochan)

[personal profile] simplicitas 2023-12-16 10:26 pm (UTC)(link)
I don't get why you want me to be mean to you.

[He counters that point easily. He came in here to see what was wrong, and to smash things himself before trying to talk. Elsword has never been good with words, but his original intention hadn't been to fight. Things spiralled, yeah, but that's how things seem to go with him. Just because he lost his emotions doesn't mean he entirely lost that haughty, fiery side of his.]

If you want someone to hate you, I'm not that guy. Not unless you do something I can't forgive you for.

[Like if he came after Add, or Mizuki, for example. Then it would be over for whatever semblance of friendship they could cobble together.]

I've had worse than someone punching me in the jaw and telling me to shut up.
simplicitas: (053 @rmke_cho)

[personal profile] simplicitas 2023-12-16 11:17 pm (UTC)(link)
[Elsword cocks his head like a confused dog. "Him"? But he doesn't ask, because he gets the impression Wolfwood doesn't want to tell him.]

...I like fighting. Not in a bad way, just in a... "it makes me feel like I'm alive" way. I don't have much left other than little things like that.

Besides, I had some stuff I needed to work out, too, heh. Fights are good for that.
simplicitas: (071 @Niku_meat_Niku)

[personal profile] simplicitas 2023-12-17 12:24 am (UTC)(link)
I'll spar with you any time you want, heh. Maybe we can do it outside next time. Me and my friends back home used to do it all the time, and it's been a while since I got to have a good match.

[Chinhands. We are Friends now.]
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[personal profile] simplicitas 2023-12-17 02:33 am (UTC)(link)
[👁👁]

You aren't either. Like I said, I've been doing this since I was really small.

[Child soldiers are normal on Elrios. So is human experimentation. These are the same canons but with less sand.]
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[personal profile] simplicitas 2023-12-17 07:22 am (UTC)(link)
Maybe. I can't remember if it ever bothered me or not. I feel like it wouldn't. That's how things are on Elrios.

[Elsword has long since finished healing, but they're just talking now. It's probably for the best that they do. A real, genuine face-to-face conversation is needed after they beat the shit out of each other.]

It might also be the way I talk. I know I don't... [He gestures to his head, vaguely, fingers splayed,] emote well. I actually... can't. You didn't come here to hear it, though. It's just a "me" thing.

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