[POST-MORTEM] not to blame

[theuniverseleads]

Who: Loop & others
What: Loop doing Loop things
When: October 5th ~ 14th (and probably onward to the end of the month)
Where: Locations™
Warnings: hello depression spiral my old friend.... talk of murder/dead kids, suicidal thoughts, ISAT and GF spoilers, will update if needed!


After everything that happened on the 4th, it's not long before Loop's cozy new camp is also left abandoned. The cozy pillows remain for awhile, perhaps, but Loop is nowhere to be found near it for the rest of the month.

... and they're not at their old tree, either, if anyone decides to check. There's slash marks in the ground, here, and deep in the tree's bark, swathes off willowy branches sheared from the curtain surrounding it. How long has it been like that?

Regardless, they don't plan on being an easy person to find.


((using this as a catch-all instead of attacking like a dozen inboxes maybe, so hit me up BlueFlewFedUQueen/discord/PMs/etc if you want to do something with Loop!!))

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[theuniverseleads]

[There's a moment where they visibly bristle, staring at the question—haha, yeah! Yeah there sure is a reason why they wanted to change so badly!! Their smile tightens, a little too quick to slip back into their typical cheeriness.]

Isn't it good to always strive to do better? There doesn't have to be a reason for it! I just felt like I could do more, that's all.

[the other topic is more important anyway, moving on moving on moving on—] The clones, yes. A friend of mine got replaced, and that copy ended up killing someone else. I figured him out, but he still got away. It was pretty frustrating!

[To put it very lightly. They're still smiling, but uh. Mizuki can probably tell it's not very sincere.]

[mooninthewater]

[ Mmmh… even if Mizuki can read the fake expression, that doesn’t mean he isn’t able to put together that answer doesn’t make a lot of sense. He starts typing again with a somewhat melancholy look. ]

Oh, I forgot to let you know, if I ask a question that makes you uncomfortable or you don’t want to answer, you’re more than free to tell me as such without answering. This isn’t an interrogation — I just want to help.

[ Which is the polite way of saying “I know that’s a lie, but I won’t press.” ]

I see… Do you think this is a factor contributing to your nightmares lately?

[theuniverseleads]

[... They feel a little bad again, seeing that reply and the look on Mizuki's face. But it's second nature to them, now, to force a smile when they're uncomfortable. They try to at least tone it down a little. They do want help, don't they?

They think about their stardust, eyes filled with hatred. Liar, he says, and everyone believes him. Their friends turning their backs.]

... I have a lot of nightmares, Therapist. I was hoping to tackle a specific one, if that's alright.

I have trouble sleeping indoors. I wake up, and I see the walls, and I think I'm somewhere else. I have to go outside to be sure of what's real. But it's gotten me into trouble before, and I'm lacking in options right now, so I'd like to find another solution.