[ And there it is. With these little journeys into someone's memory it's always hard to tell what the exact mechanics are. You could end up watching the memory unchanging, be forced to play a role in it, meddle with it freely, or meddle with it but get called out if things change too much.
Apparently this one is the last sort, and apparently Ford has found the boundaries of how far he can push things before it falls apart completely. ]
[In the flames, muddled voices rise up from his memory - Ford and Stan, both as young as Stan looks now, bickering about who ruined whose life. A scream of pain and a hurried apology. A whirr of machinery that surely haunts both of them, even now.
Given how Stan took other parts of this conversation, Ford might expect a lot of anger and hurt as he re-remembers it all over again. But...it doesn't come. Stan doesn't change in appearance, but something changes in the way he carries himself. Understanding settles in.
Some of those voices speaking through the flames are from much later, and much clearer than the rest. New, fresher memories overlapping the old. Quieter, confused questions. Sincere apologies. One brother trying to make amends to the other with any piece of visual evidence he can scrounge up, anything he can use to bring him brother back. The sound of ocean waves and laughter.
Stan was glancing toward the floor when this started, but now he's looking right at Ford, weighing it all.]
...But we're alright now.
[The weight is heavy, but it isn't one either of them carry alone anymore so Stan tentatively opens his arms as an invitation for a hug, if Ford's the one who needs it now.]
[ Ford is expecting the anger and the hurt—or at the very least, the sort of tired resignation he's feeling. Their relationship is better now, sure, but some things feel like they're impossible to ever really leave behind.
But the anger and hurt don't come. That tired resignation doesn't even come. Ford stares at Stan as the memories fade in and out round them, not quite daring to hope that he knows where this is going. But then Stan looks up and speaks, and Ford's expression melts into one of affection and relief. He doesn't bother with a verbal response to Stan's assertion. Instead he just steps forward, closing the gap between them and throwing his arms around Stan. ]
[Sure, they can't leave some things behind. Some stuff doesn't ever really go away, but that doesn't mean they can't move past it. They get stronger, strong enough to carry the weight together.
Stan squeezes Ford tight - a rare sincere sibling hug.]
Yeah. Missed you too, bro.
[It feels right to echo it when they're standing in a memory where Stan missed Ford so much that he dropped everything to come help him, just for a small chance to fix things. He didn't say it then, so he's saying it now and that will have to be enough.]
[ He takes a step back and gestures, like somehow indicating the memory of the motel room might somehow encompass the entirety of the their time apart in their home dimension. ]
When you and the kids left Trench I knew you would come back one day. But...
[ He shakes his head, sighing. ]
I wasn't sure if it would be days, weeks, or centuries before that happened.
Yeah. I get it. Hell, it could've been another thirty years!
[Thirty years feels so much longer than centuries, and they both know why. But it's proof that Stan knows this feeling better than anyone.]
I didn't wanna go, y'know. I never would've. I mean we got what, two years? After everything?!
[Just like thirty years is an eternity, two years is barely anything. He's so frustrated thinking about it, and on his younger face he looks the way he did right before he'd fly off the handle. ...but, he doesn't.]
You wound up by yourself again. ...Guess we're really outta practice with the whole "Wherever we go, we go together!" thing, huh?
You wouldn't have willingly passed up on the chance to drag us all out to sea with you.
[ Stan could never stand to sit still, even as a kid, but he stayed in Gravity Falls for thirty years trying to get Ford's stupid portal to work again. He could have just left—he probably should have just left—and he didn't. There was no way he was going to leave Trench without him.
And not dragging them along for adventures actually in the ocean, and not just on it? Forget it. No, obviously some other force compelled Stan to leave. But speaking of being by himself again... ]
I... wasn't by myself, actually. It wasn't the same without the three of you, of course, not even when Fiddleford showed up. But...
[ Oh, Ford has no idea what exactly he's trying to say here. He switches tactics, hoping maybe an example will make it clear. ]
After I told our friends you had left, do you know what the first thing Ruby did was?
She invited me down to the boardwalk to counter-scam the rigged festival games one last time in your honor.
[It helps to hear that Ford knew he didn't ditch on purpose. He's had this talk with Dipper before too, and after a lifetime of having people assume the worst of him, it's always a nice surprise when someone doesn't.]
Ha! Too bad I couldn't've come up as a Kraken and dragged you all under with me!
[He twiddles his fingers like this is some spooky thing, but he laughs too - they would have all been fine.
As Ford goes on he listens though, giving him the time to spit out what's on his mind. The example's perfect though, and Stan looks touched. Ruby's a good kid - he thinks of her every time he wields his Red Herring.]
She did? Really?
[His eyes aren't watering! It's all the fire in here! He rubs at them anyway though and grins.]
Heh. Hope you two conned those carnie crooks out of every prize they had!
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Apparently this one is the last sort, and apparently Ford has found the boundaries of how far he can push things before it falls apart completely. ]
No, it didn't.
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Given how Stan took other parts of this conversation, Ford might expect a lot of anger and hurt as he re-remembers it all over again. But...it doesn't come. Stan doesn't change in appearance, but something changes in the way he carries himself. Understanding settles in.
Some of those voices speaking through the flames are from much later, and much clearer than the rest. New, fresher memories overlapping the old. Quieter, confused questions. Sincere apologies. One brother trying to make amends to the other with any piece of visual evidence he can scrounge up, anything he can use to bring him brother back. The sound of ocean waves and laughter.
Stan was glancing toward the floor when this started, but now he's looking right at Ford, weighing it all.]
...But we're alright now.
[The weight is heavy, but it isn't one either of them carry alone anymore so Stan tentatively opens his arms as an invitation for a hug, if Ford's the one who needs it now.]
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But the anger and hurt don't come. That tired resignation doesn't even come. Ford stares at Stan as the memories fade in and out round them, not quite daring to hope that he knows where this is going. But then Stan looks up and speaks, and Ford's expression melts into one of affection and relief. He doesn't bother with a verbal response to Stan's assertion. Instead he just steps forward, closing the gap between them and throwing his arms around Stan. ]
I missed you, Stanley.
[ Yeah, Ford really needed that hug. ]
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Stan squeezes Ford tight - a rare sincere sibling hug.]
Yeah. Missed you too, bro.
[It feels right to echo it when they're standing in a memory where Stan missed Ford so much that he dropped everything to come help him, just for a small chance to fix things. He didn't say it then, so he's saying it now and that will have to be enough.]
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[ He takes a step back and gestures, like somehow indicating the memory of the motel room might somehow encompass the entirety of the their time apart in their home dimension. ]
When you and the kids left Trench I knew you would come back one day. But...
[ He shakes his head, sighing. ]
I wasn't sure if it would be days, weeks, or centuries before that happened.
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Yeah. I get it. Hell, it could've been another thirty years!
[Thirty years feels so much longer than centuries, and they both know why. But it's proof that Stan knows this feeling better than anyone.]
I didn't wanna go, y'know. I never would've. I mean we got what, two years? After everything?!
[Just like thirty years is an eternity, two years is barely anything. He's so frustrated thinking about it, and on his younger face he looks the way he did right before he'd fly off the handle. ...but, he doesn't.]
You wound up by yourself again. ...Guess we're really outta practice with the whole "Wherever we go, we go together!" thing, huh?
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[ And then, in a more amused tone: ]
You wouldn't have willingly passed up on the chance to drag us all out to sea with you.
[ Stan could never stand to sit still, even as a kid, but he stayed in Gravity Falls for thirty years trying to get Ford's stupid portal to work again. He could have just left—he probably should have just left—and he didn't. There was no way he was going to leave Trench without him.
And not dragging them along for adventures actually in the ocean, and not just on it? Forget it. No, obviously some other force compelled Stan to leave. But speaking of being by himself again... ]
I... wasn't by myself, actually. It wasn't the same without the three of you, of course, not even when Fiddleford showed up. But...
[ Oh, Ford has no idea what exactly he's trying to say here. He switches tactics, hoping maybe an example will make it clear. ]
After I told our friends you had left, do you know what the first thing Ruby did was?
She invited me down to the boardwalk to counter-scam the rigged festival games one last time in your honor.
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Ha! Too bad I couldn't've come up as a Kraken and dragged you all under with me!
[He twiddles his fingers like this is some spooky thing, but he laughs too - they would have all been fine.
As Ford goes on he listens though, giving him the time to spit out what's on his mind. The example's perfect though, and Stan looks touched. Ruby's a good kid - he thinks of her every time he wields his Red Herring.]
She did? Really?
[His eyes aren't watering! It's all the fire in here! He rubs at them anyway though and grins.]
Heh. Hope you two conned those carnie crooks out of every prize they had!