[Tea it is, then. Wolfwood will get that started, letting the teakettle boil on the stovetop first while he grabs one of their various tea blends from the upper cabinets.]
Yeah. I get it.
[If this were current-day Wolfwood, he would have said something along the lines of "finally found out your mom was runnin' a cult?", but this version knows that's pretty harsh...so he'll say something else instead.]
Haha... I kind of wish, but something like that would mess up my lungs, and then I couldn't sing anymore.
[Music is sort of the only thing he has right now; that's why he's here with his guitar and nothing else. There's sheet music crammed into the case underneath the instrument itself, and a single pen in his jacket. No money, no way to really leave the Grove. He's debating if he wants to attempt walking back to Roseroot or not.]
[Wolfwood is still moving around in the kitchen, and now that the water has boiled, he'll pour it into a mug with a teabag, plop some sugar in, and then bring it over to the livingroom for Ain, setting it on the table in front of him.
And as he does, he'll say bluntly:]
Ain't nothin' wrong with that. And I ain't just sayin' that cause I'm gay.
[He'll walk around the table, then, and take a heavy seat on the couch across from him.]
If you're worried 'bout what God thinks, the real God would love you no matter what. Don't matter if you're gay.
[Ain watches the steam rise from the mug for a quiet minute, listening to Nick — the guy who he's been a real dick to, scorning him in public and deriding him for marrying Asher, who's not only A Man but also covered in tattoos and piercings and has troubles with law enforcement — try to comfort him. And that, that right there, is what causes him to break down into quiet sobs with his head hidden behind his hands.
God, he wishes he could get it together. His mom has him so downright miserable that sometimes he wishes there was no holy power so that he could die and say "haha" in the end.]
S-sorry, I... I'm sorry. I-I don't know if that's t-true...
[Ain breaks down, and suddenly Nick doesn't really feel like delivering any kind of karma or justice to Ain anymore, who clearly is being served a healthy heaping of humble pie just through existing, right now. He's coming to terms with the fact that he was lashing out due to a combination of his mother's influence and internalized-homophobia, and it's not like Nick isn't intimately aware of what that's like. He's been in that position before, except he eventually solved that problem by just marrying the guy he was having beef with constantly.
He rests his hands on his knees, looking sidelong at Ain as he cries. Then, after a moment, he'll reach forward to grab a box of tissues from the table in front of them, placing them on the couch between them next to where Ain sits.]
I ain't askin' you to believe it. Whether or not you do is between you and God. But that's what I believe.
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I know you're havin' a hard time, and nobody should hafta feel like they don't deserve t'be here.
S'long as you'll behave, you can stay here as long as you need to.
[Ain is going to very politely dab his eyes with the tissue and then sob into it a second later. God, he is struggling. He's usually one to compartmentalize, but lately it's too much. Between his mom and brothers reminding him that he can't be one of the "others", between Ain leaving to spend time with people she doesn't approve of like Livio and Ezell, between the looks Aldric gives the woman and the way he's sympathetic to Ain...
Yeah, there's a breaking point in there, and he's finally met it.]
M'not gonna say anything, [sniffles,] I'm really not. I'm trying, I've been trying for years to apologise. It's fine if you don't wanna see that, I don't blame you. I'm not gonna stay for long.
[Nick frowns, bringing a hand up to rub the back of his neck. He figures that when he explains to Asher what's going on, he'll be fine with Ain staying, too. The kids, well...they're all as sweet as pie, so they're going to do everything they can to make him feel welcome for however long he stays. Maybe Ain will be able to get some much needed therapy with the garden and the chickens they're going to soon have.]
You really can only be blamed for so much when your family is shitty.
[And no he will not apologize for saying that, Ain's mother can go get fucked for all he cares.]
Here. Take the blanket on the back of the couch. [He mutters, moving to stand.] M'gonna grab some stuff to make a bed for you here.
[Truly Ain is going to find comfort in people like Alexi (terrible idea) and Livio (this is a good idea) and probably go be a creature on Percival's couch like "Peepaw I'm sad all the time" and swim in the river and die. That's what will happen he thinks. Or maybe he really will try to walk back to Roseroot with not a penny to his name.
Ugh.
The full mental breakdown is approaching rapidly. No, it was not already here, why do you ask? As soon as it begins, Ain folds it up into a box, crams all the stray cloth and worn strings of the tapestry into it with his fists until it's a wrinkled, unintelligible mess. Then, he closes the lid on it, and flops down on the sofa underneath the real blanket Nick told him to take.
He's too young to feel like his entire world is going to end, and yet here he is.]
Don't gotta, [he mutters weakly,] I don't wanna be a burden.
That's a nice sentiment, but you're here and I ain't takin' no for an answer.
[Nick calls from wherever he is in the hallway, likely in a linen closet given how muffled he sounds. He'll return a moment later with an extra blanket and a pillow that he hands to Ain, clean and smelling like it was just freshly washed.]
Here. If you think you might wanna nap, I'll make sure the kids are quiet when they come in.
[Wolfwood heaves a deep sigh, watching as Ain burrows himself in the blankets in an attempt to disappear. Muttered or not, Wolfwood definitely is pretty sure he heard that.]
...listen. I know shit feels real bad, right now. I've been where you are, believe me. S'gonna suck for a while.
But it'll get easier. Surround yourself with people who understand you. Start from there. You'll see.
[Ain pokes his head out over the top of the blankets, eyes on Wolfwood. He's still speaking with his mouth under them, but at least he annunciates clearly.]
I know I'm... I've been really awful to you guys. Um... but you sound like you understand, so.
You don't have to be my friend or anything, especially since I'm way younger than you, but... if you could just be there, like you said, that would make me feel less alone.
[In a similar vein, Wolfwood is freed from the memory and rocketed back to reality, and it feels...bad. Bad, moreso for Ain than anything else. There's...plenty else for Wolfwood to unpack about that memory, but that will come when he and Flamebringer inevitably can no longer avoid each other about it anymore.
Ain, though. Wolfwood's going to have to find him.]
[Ain...well fortunately, Wolfwood is able to find him before any serious damage occurs thanks to the Brand, carefully stepping his way around it as much as he can before grabbing Ain beneath the arms so he can heft him from the stuff.]
[Yeaaaah...Wolfwood's expression is. A little hard to read as they help each other out of the Brand, and then once they're both properly standing Wolfwood will reach for Ain's hand, even as the apparitions of his friends approach.]
[Reluctantly... Ain will float off toward "inside", which is the inn due to Brand Reasons on the bakery. They're going right for his old room, where Ain will flop down on the bed and curl up into a little ball.]
Sorry... that you had to see me die, haha. And sorry for crying on your past-life couch. ...not sorry for riding you in the back of the car-thingy though.
[AIN]
You wanna know what's messed up? ...Mr. Flirtatious killed me in the past.
Ain flops down and curls up, which prompts Wolfwood to carefully shuffle his way over, his prosthetic leg dragging a bit as he sits down beside him. He'll wait a moment before he very gently lays a hand against Ain's back between his shoulders, rubbing in a slow, small circle.]
What are you apologizin' for...
[He mutters, his tail lifting up onto the bed so it, too, can fold itself over Ain in a way he hopes is comforting.
He comments that "Mr. Flirtatious" killed him and that was nice, and it immediately prompts a low hiss of a sound from Wolfwood.]
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No, um... tea... tea is fine. You don't have to, I'm really just...
[He swallows thickly, then exhales a breath he didn't know he was holding.]
...just avoiding home. That's all.
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Yeah. I get it.
[If this were current-day Wolfwood, he would have said something along the lines of "finally found out your mom was runnin' a cult?", but this version knows that's pretty harsh...so he'll say something else instead.]
Sudden decision, or...?
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[He wrings his hands together between his knees, picking at his nails, the edges of his coat sleeves, and eventually his jeans.]
...you know. She doesn't like people like you and your husband. Uh... people like us, I guess.
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Oh?
[It was quiet, but he did hear that. Mm...]
People like us, huh...
[Somehow, given the way Ain's been acting, he had a feeling.]
I'm guessin' you ain't become a smoker overnight, so that's not it.
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[Music is sort of the only thing he has right now; that's why he's here with his guitar and nothing else. There's sheet music crammed into the case underneath the instrument itself, and a single pen in his jacket. No money, no way to really leave the Grove. He's debating if he wants to attempt walking back to Roseroot or not.]
No, I'm... I like...I probably am gay...
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And as he does, he'll say bluntly:]
Ain't nothin' wrong with that. And I ain't just sayin' that cause I'm gay.
[He'll walk around the table, then, and take a heavy seat on the couch across from him.]
If you're worried 'bout what God thinks, the real God would love you no matter what. Don't matter if you're gay.
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God, he wishes he could get it together. His mom has him so downright miserable that sometimes he wishes there was no holy power so that he could die and say "haha" in the end.]
S-sorry, I... I'm sorry. I-I don't know if that's t-true...
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He rests his hands on his knees, looking sidelong at Ain as he cries. Then, after a moment, he'll reach forward to grab a box of tissues from the table in front of them, placing them on the couch between them next to where Ain sits.]
I ain't askin' you to believe it. Whether or not you do is between you and God. But that's what I believe.
[...]
I know you're havin' a hard time, and nobody should hafta feel like they don't deserve t'be here.
S'long as you'll behave, you can stay here as long as you need to.
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Yeah, there's a breaking point in there, and he's finally met it.]
M'not gonna say anything, [sniffles,] I'm really not. I'm trying, I've been trying for years to apologise. It's fine if you don't wanna see that, I don't blame you. I'm not gonna stay for long.
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[Nick frowns, bringing a hand up to rub the back of his neck. He figures that when he explains to Asher what's going on, he'll be fine with Ain staying, too. The kids, well...they're all as sweet as pie, so they're going to do everything they can to make him feel welcome for however long he stays. Maybe Ain will be able to get some much needed therapy with the garden and the chickens they're going to soon have.]
You really can only be blamed for so much when your family is shitty.
[And no he will not apologize for saying that, Ain's mother can go get fucked for all he cares.]
Here. Take the blanket on the back of the couch. [He mutters, moving to stand.] M'gonna grab some stuff to make a bed for you here.
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Ugh.
The full mental breakdown is approaching rapidly. No, it was not already here, why do you ask? As soon as it begins, Ain folds it up into a box, crams all the stray cloth and worn strings of the tapestry into it with his fists until it's a wrinkled, unintelligible mess. Then, he closes the lid on it, and flops down on the sofa underneath the real blanket Nick told him to take.
He's too young to feel like his entire world is going to end, and yet here he is.]
Don't gotta, [he mutters weakly,] I don't wanna be a burden.
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[Nick calls from wherever he is in the hallway, likely in a linen closet given how muffled he sounds. He'll return a moment later with an extra blanket and a pillow that he hands to Ain, clean and smelling like it was just freshly washed.]
Here. If you think you might wanna nap, I'll make sure the kids are quiet when they come in.
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He mutters under his breath:]
Kinda wanna be dead, actually...
[And then he huffs and pulls the blankets up over his head. Don't look at him.]
I don't mind if the kids are loud, [he adds, not muttering this time,] if I fall asleep, I'll sleep through it. It's not my house, so.
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...listen. I know shit feels real bad, right now. I've been where you are, believe me. S'gonna suck for a while.
But it'll get easier. Surround yourself with people who understand you. Start from there. You'll see.
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[Ain pokes his head out over the top of the blankets, eyes on Wolfwood. He's still speaking with his mouth under them, but at least he annunciates clearly.]
I know I'm... I've been really awful to you guys. Um... but you sound like you understand, so.
You don't have to be my friend or anything, especially since I'm way younger than you, but... if you could just be there, like you said, that would make me feel less alone.
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[Wolfwood WILL kick ass for this baby gay.]
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[Ain sniffles and re-buries himself, letting the blankets steal him away and abandoning the tea. He'll drink it in a bit when he stops crying.
...
Outside in the Grove, the memory ends, and Ain snaps to consciousness with his mind feeling blurry as he tries to pull himself from the Brand.]
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Ain, though. Wolfwood's going to have to find him.]
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Ain, fuck- you alright?
i figure we are. good Enough to go on now-
[When he's hoisted, he will shake himself off and float into the air above it, then scoop Wolfwood so that he doesn't go down again.
The apparitions of his friends are still out there, walking closer, following after them. Ain bites the inside of his cheek.]
YAA
...we should get inside.
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Okay.
[Reluctantly... Ain will float off toward "inside", which is the inn due to Brand Reasons on the bakery. They're going right for his old room, where Ain will flop down on the bed and curl up into a little ball.]
Sorry... that you had to see me die, haha. And sorry for crying on your past-life couch. ...not sorry for riding you in the back of the car-thingy though.
[AIN]
You wanna know what's messed up? ...Mr. Flirtatious killed me in the past.
...
That was nice, I guess. [lying lying lying]
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Ain flops down and curls up, which prompts Wolfwood to carefully shuffle his way over, his prosthetic leg dragging a bit as he sits down beside him. He'll wait a moment before he very gently lays a hand against Ain's back between his shoulders, rubbing in a slow, small circle.]
What are you apologizin' for...
[He mutters, his tail lifting up onto the bed so it, too, can fold itself over Ain in a way he hopes is comforting.
He comments that "Mr. Flirtatious" killed him and that was nice, and it immediately prompts a low hiss of a sound from Wolfwood.]
That is messed up. Not nice.
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It was sarcasm. I'm sad. [Yeah...] Oh, but I kissed Livio in the past! That was nice...
[He is flattening himself into Wolfwood's lap as they speak.]
...my mom and Mr. Flirtatious teamed up to sacrifice me to the monsters in the forest, though. I dunno.
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