[Luca hates every second of this. It's never been a secret that Kiera balked at the sight of fire. She might have gotten used to it, but it was never like this. Luca hadn't lost control in years. But he'd never had power like this, had he?
It makes his stomach twist, and for a long moment, he doesn't recognize the changes in Kiera's features. only once he's forced himself to take approximately five deep breaths does he turn his attention to her. He'd handled enough Castillans in his day to recognize the dusting of freckles, and the glow of those eyes.
Beasts, he should have known.]
Kiera. [He squeezes his eyes shut before his flames can burst out of control once more. It's a difficult thing, grappling both guilt and shame when they could so easily become tangible.] Please -
[He doesn't know if he's asking her to stay or go at this point.]
[knowing dawns on luca's face, and part of kiera currently buried deep down is relieved. she doesn't hate him, she isn't angry, she can't help it. it's just as he said in the perverted memory of the empress' throne room -- he is the personification of everything a vampire should fear.]
Luc. I can't. [the strain in their voice and their muscles is obvious. their eyes remain glued to his arms, wary, waiting for the flames to resurface.]
[He watches their gaze, stomach twisting painfully. Those hands draw back, tucking behind his back. It isn't as if hiding them would do any good for either of them. He was just as capable of manipulating flame without his hands, especially now.
But it still hurts. He hurts, and he wants so desperately to reach out to her.]
You should go. You - are not safe, right? Especially now.
[it's reassuring, somewhat, to know that somewhere inside of her, there's still affection for luca. her mind doesn't want to go, even if her body does. but she can only fight it for so long. her expression falters, even as she takes a careful step backward, then another.]
... Polaris? If she isn't -- afraid of me, we can talk. [she wouldn't blame the poor bird; most animals are naturally wary of vampires. kiera's deliberately avoided even pinto since the change.]
Writing notes again, hm? [A sad smile cracks its way over his lips.] I suppose I do not mind pretending that I am back in the barracks.
[That, of course, depends on how willing Polaris actually was to approach Kiera. It takes little more than a whistle for her to descend from a nearby tree, always watching. She lands on Luca's outstretched arm, then cocks her head toward Kiera. For a brief seconds, her feathers to flair outward, alarmed by whatever scent is in the air. A gentle coo from Luca, coupled with a few extra seconds to stare has her relaxing just as quick, however.
In just a few seconds, she leaps from Luca's arm and alights on Kiera's shoulder. She's going to start pulling at Kiera's hair, just to be sure it's her.]
[the old girl puffs up, as kiera fears. but with some time and luca's guidance... if their heart didn't feel ten times as frigid as usual, they feel they might cry. even if polaris' landing on her makes them flinch slightly, they, too, relax, and even smile as she tugs on a few strands of hair.]
Bless you, you wonderful bird. [their voice is soft, affectionate, as it would usually be for polaris. they take the opportunity to back away from luca further, while they're slightly distracted by the hawk.] Be a good girl, back to your master, now.
[Luca, to his credit, pretends not to notice. He simply holds his arm out for Polaris, waiting for her return. When she does alight on his arm, it's only long enough to pull at Luca's hair in kind, before flying off toward the bar. She knows what this is about.]
[as they step farther away, kiera keeps their eyes trained on the ground. perhaps if they don't allow themself to acknowledge him again, it'll make it easier to quiet their panic.]
South. The school, the training facility. [most of the people who frequent those places are too large at the moment to enter them, and she can move between them to avoid folks, should the need arise.]
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It makes his stomach twist, and for a long moment, he doesn't recognize the changes in Kiera's features. only once he's forced himself to take approximately five deep breaths does he turn his attention to her. He'd handled enough Castillans in his day to recognize the dusting of freckles, and the glow of those eyes.
Beasts, he should have known.]
Kiera. [He squeezes his eyes shut before his flames can burst out of control once more. It's a difficult thing, grappling both guilt and shame when they could so easily become tangible.] Please -
[He doesn't know if he's asking her to stay or go at this point.]
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Luc. I can't. [the strain in their voice and their muscles is obvious. their eyes remain glued to his arms, wary, waiting for the flames to resurface.]
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But it still hurts. He hurts, and he wants so desperately to reach out to her.]
You should go. You - are not safe, right? Especially now.
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[it's reassuring, somewhat, to know that somewhere inside of her, there's still affection for luca. her mind doesn't want to go, even if her body does. but she can only fight it for so long. her expression falters, even as she takes a careful step backward, then another.]
... Polaris? If she isn't -- afraid of me, we can talk. [she wouldn't blame the poor bird; most animals are naturally wary of vampires. kiera's deliberately avoided even pinto since the change.]
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[That, of course, depends on how willing Polaris actually was to approach Kiera. It takes little more than a whistle for her to descend from a nearby tree, always watching. She lands on Luca's outstretched arm, then cocks her head toward Kiera. For a brief seconds, her feathers to flair outward, alarmed by whatever scent is in the air. A gentle coo from Luca, coupled with a few extra seconds to stare has her relaxing just as quick, however.
In just a few seconds, she leaps from Luca's arm and alights on Kiera's shoulder. She's going to start pulling at Kiera's hair, just to be sure it's her.]
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Bless you, you wonderful bird. [their voice is soft, affectionate, as it would usually be for polaris. they take the opportunity to back away from luca further, while they're slightly distracted by the hawk.] Be a good girl, back to your master, now.
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Where will you be? Where should I send her?
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South. The school, the training facility. [most of the people who frequent those places are too large at the moment to enter them, and she can move between them to avoid folks, should the need arise.]
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Right. I should go then. Polaris... won't be long.