[The feathers he's used to. The hair is a bit new. It makes him feel all the warmer, even as he allows his shoulders to relax. Since Till is probably really studying Luca, he won't miss the way his cheeks seem to flush all the darker.]
[Yep, he notices alright. But given that he's only sketching and doesn't have any proper tools for coloring, he'll just have to make the shading he does do the heavy lifting. Not an unfamiliar task, since the Aliens weren't really generous enough to give him crayons as a child.]
Yeah, just like that. Just sit there...you don't have to be a statue, but just don't like get up and leave.
[He says all of this while drawing by the way, the sound of his pencil's tip audible as it scratches the page.]
Ah, and whatever will I do about the stove I left on?
[It's a joke, deadpan as it comes out. But since Till has given him permission to move, he'll at least angle himself enough to focus on some art of his own. He reaches for some clay and picks at it, attempting to fashion it into something. Hard to say what it is, but at least it keeps his mind occupied, and the both of them safe from any stray sparks.]
[Good…it means the two of them will share an amicable silence for a time as they both work. Till probably would have been content just staying totally silent the whole time, but…maybe it’s this place rubbing off on him, but he feels compelled to say something after a while.]
You’re that guy who runs the bar, right? The place with the drinks and the food.
You guess? [A playful smile dances over his lips.] Do you have another name you use from time to time? One that changes here and there?
[His voice is light, at the very least. If he's teasing, it isn't to be mean. Maybe it'll help loosen himself up. He still feels more than a little awkward in their current situation.
It would be far worse if he did know who he's talking to, though. For the best, really.]
[How do you explain that the name you were given was given to you by your alien captors and is currently branded on your neck? The only reason Luca can't see it is because he's stuck wearing a collar again in this form, which covers it up. A double edged sword, really.]
It's not really that "normal" of a name, that's all.
[Luca tilts his head at Till, studying the young man for a quiet moment.]
If you don't like it, change it. I did, once. And I doubt anyone here will be bothered by it. If they are, they can kindly bring it up with me instead.
[That's said in that sort of tone of voice, like- "you can DO that?"
He's not sure he would, but...he's never heard of someone just deciding to change their name. Maybe because he never imagined it could be an option when it's branded onto you.]
Mmhm. I did so when I was quite young. Granted, I suspect the circumstances were different but...
[Luca gives a delicate little shrug.]
You deserve to feel comfortable with yourself. If that means changing your name, or changing your appearance, or anything about yourself, so be it. There's a turn of phrase I've always enjoyed. "Those who matter will not care, and those who care do not matter." I have found that be largely true, albeit hard to swallow at times.
[Leaning back in his seat, Luca brings a hand to his chin, using his index finger to tap at it thoughtfully. He hums to himself]
If you are interested in taking that step. Start small. Ask for someone you trust to call you by a different name, and go from there.
[The idea of having any agency at all is so...foreign to Till, yet Luca does speak of it like someone with a lot of experience. To that end, he doesn't immediately dismiss the idea, even if he isn't sure how it would apply to himself.
He's sketching Luca's eyes now as he talks.]
I'd have to think about it.
[He finally says, after the sound of his pencil on the paper stops for just a moment.]
[Those eyes narrow slightly. It's not out of anger, but in focus. Till's situation is very obviously different than Luca's own, and he can only surmise his upbringing. Certainly one unfamiliar with the idea of being able to change a name, which doesn't give Luca the highest of expectations. Nevertheless...]
No one is forcing you to do anything. That's the beauty of it all. You have time to explore and do whatever it is you wish.
[His eyes close as a broad smile takes hisface. It's probably the warmest (and most genuine) that Luca has managed to look since they first started speaking.]
And if you ever have any questions, you can ask me.
[Well you know what, just for that, Till is going to finish off his sketching with that smile that's on Luca's face right now. He could have just drawn him neutrally- he did ask him not to "pose", after all- but that's a natural expression. As natural as they come.
He's nodding along as Luca talks, and just a moment later he'll gather up the sketchbook carefully in his claws and turn it around for the other to look at.]
What do you think?
[Normally he doesn't, like. Care about other peoples' opinions on his art, but he's actually drawing someone else here, so....feels warranted.]
[It's a bit strange, to see his smile reflected back at him. Considering the trajectory of his life and everything that has happened of late, he would have expected something a touch more dour. Haunting. Not that he feels it's inaccurate. Given the warmth in his chest in this moment, the smile feels accurate. A sense of pride fills him. If ever there was a sign of his improvement, it was this.]
It's. It's really good. You're very -
[The moment, unfortunately, doesn't last long. With the outflow of emotion comes another press of power. A surge of warmth prompts him to take two steps away, fast as he can. Another rain of sparks rains down, thankfully controlled enough to avoid spilling over the already marred sketchbook.]
Sorry, sorry. [Luca lets out a flustered laugh.] It's... different to see myself like that, is all. Thank you.
[In this case, Till is just drawing what he sees. It's natural that Luca might be caught off guard by it though, even if he isn't quite expecting the sudden sparks to appear. Just as Luca steps away, Till is also leaning back out of reflex, his fur fluffing up a bit with alarm until he realizes it's just a brief blip more than anything. He calms down relatively quickly after that.]
It's fine. This is like...one of the few things I'm really good at, so.
[Luca's look swims with at least a thousand unspoken apologies. Thankfully, Till doesn't appear to be nearly as worked up as before. Luca's more grateful for that than he can put into words.]
I'm sure you are good at more than you think. [But he won't press that point. He doesn't know the man, not really. If he wants to make an argument, he'll need more evidence later.]
Just remember to keep at it. Don't lose your passion, or anything like that.
[The words of encouragement, coming from someone he doesn't know...it's strange. It makes him scoff before he can stop himself, his fingers running along the spine of his sketchbook.]
If I haven't lost my passion yet, it's not going anywhere any time soon.
[His tail shifts behind him, a little awkward...but he ends up continuing anyway, looking off to the side.]
[Luca, at least, doesn't balk at the scoff. He knows a thing or two about how compliments feel when you're trying to be prickly.]
That's good, then. It means I can look forward to more of your work. I doubt it will be long before I am purchasing something to frame and hang within my bar.
[But he won't press that particular line of thought. He lifts his hand to give a slight wave.]
I... probably should excuse myself, lest I ruin someone else's hard work.
[Purchase? Frame?? Okay THAT'S too much. Till feels his face burn with embarrassment, to the point where he can't even look at Luca now to properly see him off.]
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[The feathers he's used to. The hair is a bit new. It makes him feel all the warmer, even as he allows his shoulders to relax. Since Till is probably really studying Luca, he won't miss the way his cheeks seem to flush all the darker.]
This, then?
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Yeah, just like that. Just sit there...you don't have to be a statue, but just don't like get up and leave.
[He says all of this while drawing by the way, the sound of his pencil's tip audible as it scratches the page.]
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[It's a joke, deadpan as it comes out. But since Till has given him permission to move, he'll at least angle himself enough to focus on some art of his own. He reaches for some clay and picks at it, attempting to fashion it into something. Hard to say what it is, but at least it keeps his mind occupied, and the both of them safe from any stray sparks.]
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You’re that guy who runs the bar, right? The place with the drinks and the food.
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You could say that, yes. [Luca turns a bright smile on him.] Most people just call me Luca, though.
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[He glances up, just briefly, as Luca laughs before he looks back down at his sketchbook, his ears flicking.]
I'm Till, I guess.
[It's HUGELY ironic they never exchanged names on the network because if only Luca knew this was the homophobic guy-]
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[His voice is light, at the very least. If he's teasing, it isn't to be mean. Maybe it'll help loosen himself up. He still feels more than a little awkward in their current situation.
It would be far worse if he did know who he's talking to, though. For the best, really.]
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[How do you explain that the name you were given was given to you by your alien captors and is currently branded on your neck? The only reason Luca can't see it is because he's stuck wearing a collar again in this form, which covers it up. A double edged sword, really.]
It's not really that "normal" of a name, that's all.
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[Luca tilts his head at Till, studying the young man for a quiet moment.]
If you don't like it, change it. I did, once. And I doubt anyone here will be bothered by it. If they are, they can kindly bring it up with me instead.
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[That's said in that sort of tone of voice, like- "you can DO that?"
He's not sure he would, but...he's never heard of someone just deciding to change their name. Maybe because he never imagined it could be an option when it's branded onto you.]
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[Luca gives a delicate little shrug.]
You deserve to feel comfortable with yourself. If that means changing your name, or changing your appearance, or anything about yourself, so be it. There's a turn of phrase I've always enjoyed. "Those who matter will not care, and those who care do not matter." I have found that be largely true, albeit hard to swallow at times.
[Leaning back in his seat, Luca brings a hand to his chin, using his index finger to tap at it thoughtfully. He hums to himself]
If you are interested in taking that step. Start small. Ask for someone you trust to call you by a different name, and go from there.
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He's sketching Luca's eyes now as he talks.]
I'd have to think about it.
[He finally says, after the sound of his pencil on the paper stops for just a moment.]
I've never known anything else.
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No one is forcing you to do anything. That's the beauty of it all. You have time to explore and do whatever it is you wish.
[His eyes close as a broad smile takes hisface. It's probably the warmest (and most genuine) that Luca has managed to look since they first started speaking.]
And if you ever have any questions, you can ask me.
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He's nodding along as Luca talks, and just a moment later he'll gather up the sketchbook carefully in his claws and turn it around for the other to look at.]
What do you think?
[Normally he doesn't, like. Care about other peoples' opinions on his art, but he's actually drawing someone else here, so....feels warranted.]
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It's. It's really good. You're very -
[The moment, unfortunately, doesn't last long. With the outflow of emotion comes another press of power. A surge of warmth prompts him to take two steps away, fast as he can. Another rain of sparks rains down, thankfully controlled enough to avoid spilling over the already marred sketchbook.]
Sorry, sorry. [Luca lets out a flustered laugh.] It's... different to see myself like that, is all. Thank you.
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It's fine. This is like...one of the few things I'm really good at, so.
[He shrugs.]
Means I'm doing something right.
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I'm sure you are good at more than you think. [But he won't press that point. He doesn't know the man, not really. If he wants to make an argument, he'll need more evidence later.]
Just remember to keep at it. Don't lose your passion, or anything like that.
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If I haven't lost my passion yet, it's not going anywhere any time soon.
[His tail shifts behind him, a little awkward...but he ends up continuing anyway, looking off to the side.]
...thanks.
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That's good, then. It means I can look forward to more of your work. I doubt it will be long before I am purchasing something to frame and hang within my bar.
[But he won't press that particular line of thought. He lifts his hand to give a slight wave.]
I... probably should excuse myself, lest I ruin someone else's hard work.
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Y-yeah, probably.
[...]
I'll, uh. ...see you.
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See you, Till.
[He gives a small wave before making his way out.]