[ Sigh. This is so embarrassing. Head in his hands. The rest of it is slow to catch up to him ]
Mm, but if she's your betrothed, then... do you think she'll like me?
[ He knows he can be an acquired taste and he doesn't always do well with new people especially when he wants them to like him for one reason or another. ]
Of course. She's already familiar with you from how I speak of Alkaloid, and we ah, we've watched plenty of our Lives together! You could say she is already a fan.
[He makes something of a strange expression, thoughtful.]
Even if some of those Lives are a mystery to me, I do not recall many of them...Ah, that aside, Mafu-tan is also a musician!
[ He looks them over when they're brought over and... Hm. No, he remembers most of them save for the two on the bottom-- though the fact that Mayoi was evidently in a movie does get him to raise his eyebrows. He never would have thought that Mayoi could manage that on his own, but he's proud of him-- and then he sees Kohaku and his heart aches. ]
I remember most of them except for these two.
[ He nudges them forward and sighs softly. More discrepancies... He has to wonder if Mayoi's gem is still damaged and that's why or if it's a matter of the time he was taken like in Leo's case. ]
How the tables turn, I guess.
[ When they met before, Aira knew next to nothing and now he's the one who knows more. ]
[Ah, that is also ...something Mayoi recalls now. That Aira-san had been missing a lot of his memories before. But ...]
[He looks at the stack and he feels strangely relieved. He had wondered about these albums and lives and couldn't help the way he spiraled thinking about what it could mean. He had hoped it was simply a descrepancy in his memory, but the notion that he was the Wrong Mayoi had also floated about. That these were the performances of another Mayoi.]
[The one that had apparently taken his place in the Nest.]
[But now it seems at least its more likely he is just missing memories. He sighs.]
The last thing I remember is our live that you planned. Feather Touch. I was terribly startled to receive all of these. Ah ...but that you recognize most of them, that relieves me a lot.
[His improvement has impressed him! There were quite a few lives where Mayoi was so impressed with all of them! Vermillion had struck him in particular, all of them had such an energy, it had almost overwhelmed him.]
[He thinks maybe they will not watch the movie for some time. He doesn't know how Aira's heart might take watching him die on screen like that. When he watched that scene with Mafuyu, it had affected him in ways that were hard to articulate.]
I... I would love that. I'd love to hear all about it. I-
[Oh...oh he is getting emotional again, the tears are back. He brings his hands to his face a moment.]
I-I thought I would never see you again... I-I thought I had lost everything about Alkaloid...
[ Aira shifted, moving from his chair to hug Mayoi. Given the circumstances he doesn't think there's anything he could do that would be more comforting than merely being present. ]
You'll never lose us... not really.
[ he brushes his fingers through the loose parts of Mayoi's hair just like he did when he styled it before. Loving and familiar. ]
You have these... you have the memories. You love us and we love you so much... That fact isn't going anywhere, no matter what. No matter where we are.
[ He presses a kiss to Mayoi's head. He doesn't usually do that but it feels necessary this time. He's gone a whole year without that comfort. ]
[He wasn't expecting that- such kind and loving words. He feels them resonate deep in his heart. He's missed Aira so much. He lets out pathetic little sobs and hitches, because his tears are both anguished and happy. His chest hurts, his throat hurts, everything feels wretched, but it's okay.]
[Because he loves them, and they love him, and he will never understand what he could have done to earn such a thing, but greedily he will accept it, take it, and he will drag Aira in for another hug once he's placed such a soft little kiss on his head. He will hold him like he's certain he might vanish in his grasp and sob in earnest.]
[He babbles through his tears, but its all upset nonsense. Reaffirmations that he loves him back, that he loves them all, that he missed them, that he'll never let him go again, uuue]
[ The reaffirmations are met with more sweet words and gentle hushing. He's gotten... unfortunately very good at comforting in his time at the Nest. Between Hiiro's borderline catatonic state and the other Mayoi's panic attacks he'd barely had a moment to breathe. He'd never complain about caring for them of course, and he won't complain now, but the fact its an unfortunate situation remains.
He doesn't fight the hug he's pulled into, accepting that he's somewhat of a teddy bear for Mayoi in these moments, opting to rub circles into his back instead. ]
I'm not going anywhere, it's okay...
[ for better or for worse, he's stuck here now. Mayoi doesnt have to be lonely anymore. ]
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EH!?
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[ THE MOTHER AND FATHER SHIT WAS PRETTY DAMNING OKAY. ]
Oh this is embarrassing... I had no idea...
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[Well. He wouldn't say they were dating but their relationship had gotten ...close...]
[He tries to clear his throat.]
N-No, ah, he and I, we were very close, b-but it wasn't exactly the same a-as... as Mafu-tan and I.
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[ Sigh. This is so embarrassing. Head in his hands. The rest of it is slow to catch up to him ]
Mm, but if she's your betrothed, then... do you think she'll like me?
[ He knows he can be an acquired taste and he doesn't always do well with new people especially when he wants them to like him for one reason or another. ]
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Of course. She's already familiar with you from how I speak of Alkaloid, and we ah, we've watched plenty of our Lives together! You could say she is already a fan.
[He makes something of a strange expression, thoughtful.]
Even if some of those Lives are a mystery to me, I do not recall many of them...Ah, that aside, Mafu-tan is also a musician!
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Some of them are a mystery to you..?
[ Gonna try focusing on the less distressing part of this. ]
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Ah… I don’t recognize some of them…? I-I worry that my memory is unreliable, but-
[He will get up and go fetch them from a shelf.]
I think many of these happen well past the point I can last recall…
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I remember most of them except for these two.
[ He nudges them forward and sighs softly. More discrepancies... He has to wonder if Mayoi's gem is still damaged and that's why or if it's a matter of the time he was taken like in Leo's case. ]
How the tables turn, I guess.
[ When they met before, Aira knew next to nothing and now he's the one who knows more. ]
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[He looks at the stack and he feels strangely relieved. He had wondered about these albums and lives and couldn't help the way he spiraled thinking about what it could mean. He had hoped it was simply a descrepancy in his memory, but the notion that he was the Wrong Mayoi had also floated about. That these were the performances of another Mayoi.]
[The one that had apparently taken his place in the Nest.]
[But now it seems at least its more likely he is just missing memories. He sighs.]
The last thing I remember is our live that you planned. Feather Touch. I was terribly startled to receive all of these. Ah ...but that you recognize most of them, that relieves me a lot.
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If you want, I could talk about them with you? There were some other things that happened too.
Last I recall was the SS ending.
[ If the last he remembered was Feather Touch then... maybe his improvement will impress him? He likes to think he's gotten better since then. ]
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[He thinks maybe they will not watch the movie for some time. He doesn't know how Aira's heart might take watching him die on screen like that. When he watched that scene with Mafuyu, it had affected him in ways that were hard to articulate.]
I... I would love that. I'd love to hear all about it. I-
[Oh...oh he is getting emotional again, the tears are back. He brings his hands to his face a moment.]
I-I thought I would never see you again... I-I thought I had lost everything about Alkaloid...
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You'll never lose us... not really.
[ he brushes his fingers through the loose parts of Mayoi's hair just like he did when he styled it before. Loving and familiar. ]
You have these... you have the memories. You love us and we love you so much... That fact isn't going anywhere, no matter what. No matter where we are.
[ He presses a kiss to Mayoi's head. He doesn't usually do that but it feels necessary this time. He's gone a whole year without that comfort. ]
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[He wasn't expecting that- such kind and loving words. He feels them resonate deep in his heart. He's missed Aira so much. He lets out pathetic little sobs and hitches, because his tears are both anguished and happy. His chest hurts, his throat hurts, everything feels wretched, but it's okay.]
[Because he loves them, and they love him, and he will never understand what he could have done to earn such a thing, but greedily he will accept it, take it, and he will drag Aira in for another hug once he's placed such a soft little kiss on his head. He will hold him like he's certain he might vanish in his grasp and sob in earnest.]
[He babbles through his tears, but its all upset nonsense. Reaffirmations that he loves him back, that he loves them all, that he missed them, that he'll never let him go again, uuue]
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He doesn't fight the hug he's pulled into, accepting that he's somewhat of a teddy bear for Mayoi in these moments, opting to rub circles into his back instead. ]
I'm not going anywhere, it's okay...
[ for better or for worse, he's stuck here now. Mayoi doesnt have to be lonely anymore. ]