005 | No Such Thing As Humility

[fluffiestsoul]

[There's only one line in the netbook. That's it. That's all. You'll probably recognize Verso's dumb, French handwriting. What is French handwriting? Whatever Verso has. Anyway.]


I WARNED YOU ABOUT THE DAMN CLOWNS.

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[fluffiestsoul]

At least it's a a little easier to discern the illusion this time.
Cold comfort, I know.
Will you be alright?

[beathollow]

Yes. I'm just mad. She deserves better than to be used like this.

[fluffiestsoul]

I can only imagine.
You certainly deserve better than to be tormented like this.
Don't forget that part.

[beathollow]

We all do.

[fluffiestsoul]

[... Give him a minute to respond, he's pressing 'X' to doubt.]

Yes, I suppose you're right about that.

[beathollow]

I am right, so please internalize it quickly.

( she sees you bitch )

[fluffiestsoul]

Who allowed you to be so insightful? I'd like to have a word with them.

[beathollow]

I am ✨ flawless ✨






More seriously, it's easier to get through society if you can read people, isn't it? It helped with Mom a lot, too.

[fluffiestsoul]

I would argue that it's much easier to get through by not being read.

[Says the guy whose dad painted his monster form as a creature with a fuckbillion masks.]

Generally, though, I find that it's better if parents can be read. What sort of parent makes you go through all of that guesswork?

cw: emotional abuse, emotional manipulation

[beathollow]

( there's a long pause. and then she writes very, very small: )

Mom's favorite method of control was to put me in charge of her own emotional regulation. If I was good, she'd be happy. If I wasn't, she'd cry and make it known it was my fault.

I had to read the signs before they were even written.

( mom's most treasured thing was her own reputation.

so if that woman ever shows up here, it's already ruined. )

[fluffiestsoul]

To hell with her then.
And anyone who treats their child that way.

[beathollow]

Agreed.

This place has opened my eyes a lot.

[fluffiestsoul]

Suppose it can't be all that bad then, can it?

[beathollow]

I like it here aside from the horrors. I miss my friends and I'm grateful they aren't dealing with this place, but I like the people.

[thebladebringstheflame]

me and ezell are your new parents we're having pierogies for dinner. come over

[beathollow]

Oh! Okay. Yay!

[unheiring]

Apple pie at the tavern, after.

[beathollow]

Really? Thank you!

(




she is so sad she cannot taste. :( she's going to lie through her teeth. )

[unheiring]

[Alexa this is so sad, you know what to -]

Do you prefer sour or sweet apples?

[This is Luca being soooo niceys. He hates sweet things and yet - ]

[beathollow]

>( FUCK

... wait no, she's discussed this before. she can. she can do this. even if it might disappoint him... aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa... )

I don't know. I go by texture because I'm

sick.

And I can't taste things.

Scent and texture help a lot, but

I'm sorry.

[unheiring]

You should have said as much.
The good thing is that I keep my pie crusts crisp, and try to allow a hefty amount of spice.
It should still be satisfactory.
And if not, we will try something else.

[beathollow]

Its hard to talk about. I'm trying to be more honest.

Everything I've ever had that you made felt like love, though. I promise.

[unheiring]

... Love, hm?
Yes, I suppose it was.

I am glad to hear that. And I will try to be more mindful of your condition going forward. I want you to be able to enjoy it in some capacity, at least.

[beathollow]

So long as there's textures I can focus on, I will be happy. :)

Joshua is trying to find a way to help it though, and during our trip to Night Vale I was able to get some medication that may also help. )

[unheiring]

If Joshua has set his mind to it, then surely you will find a cure for what ails you, sooner rather than later.
I will have to ask if I can help him along, though. I would feel better, knowing that you had one less burden to bear.