sticksandbones

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Who: Allen + You!
What: Holy clown boy coming to a Grove near you!
When: Beginning of March
Where: ??? Around
Warnings: None yet, will be in headers as the pop up.

I. I've tasted all your sin (Forest entrance)

[ There is, perhaps, not a single person who would say arriving in the Grove isn't jarring. Some woke up here from their own slumber back home, and that is perhaps the smoothest transition you can get, even even that has yet to be graceful. For Allen, one moment he's holding the hand of his friend, trying to wake him up from what he could only assume was a horrific coma, and then next he's... here. His hand clasps in on itself, and he's suddenly looking around in a panic. He knew that the place he'd ended up may very well kick him out of his consciousness. May lend just the right amount of strength for Nea to pull him out of the "driver's seat", so to speak, but... is that what's happening now? Now, when he was so close to saving his friend?

No.

No, no, no.

The panic sets in as he darts from out of the trees, attempting to look for something, anything that might help him figure out how to get back. It's once he gets into the Grove proper that his eye activates. He has his own questions about that - if he's not in control, where is that coming from? What would his eye see... in his own head? Before he can ponder it for too long, he at least gets one of his answers. What does his eye see? Well.

Death.

It's the first time Allen's seeing souls not attached to something else, but Allen doesn't have time to process that part. Rather, he is trying to remember how to breathe again, because as of now, seeing the horrible visions in front of him - death of his friends, of those he loves, of a fire that isn't really there - all has the air he's trying to get out caught in his throat. It's only once his eye deactivates, the sclera turning from black to white and the red of his eye back to a silvery gray, does he finally have some kind of reprieve from the overwhelm. It's not much. The panic has only gotten worse, after all.

He falls to his knees, gasping for air as if he'd been held underwater for too long. ]

II. You've lost your appetite (for sacrifice) (Timcanpy, the Inn)

[ Timcanpy is a little golden golem. He is here! He isn't sure why he's here, but he is! How exciting! He's gonna...! He's...!!!

...

Where is this!!!!!!!!!! He is going to float out of the inn room he Spawned(tm) in and??? chew on the first person he sees. Hello. ]

III. How can we terminate this parasite (Around the Grove)

[ Fortunately, although the panic attack hits Allen like a train, the fact that he's so fucking hungry does as well. Which means... this is definitely his body. He's not stuck in his head. That's?? Good. Probably. Well, it's not good that he doesn't know where he is, but it's good he's still Him. Does this make sense? No. It doesn't. Fuck, he's SO hungry-

He will very hastily try to find the first person he can and catch their attention with a friendly wave of his normal-looking hand, and in a thick, British accent: ] Cheers! Uh, I have a lot of questions, but... most important, do you know where a bloke might find some food? Preferably, a lot of it?

...

Oh, also, what is that? [ He's, uh, pointing at Moder. ]

IV. If you keep digging up the Host? (Wildcard)
HMU if you wanna do something else pls I have such a strong muse for my baby boy I'm gonna be SO annoying-

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[It's very likely that if Allen had not become such a fixture in his life, Link would have simply placed all of these feelings into the center of his chest until he blew up and died one day. He would have struggled to untangle all of it, and probably die a second time being known only as Lvellie's ever-obedient watchdog. Because it's true that he still admires the man. Looks up to him, even, as an example of the type of person...leader, he needs to be.

But how can he possibly, when he's done such horrific things? Not just to him, but to the people he cares about? It's not even about the war anymore. Hell, it's not sure what it's about.

Lvellie's fervor to protect the Fourteenth frightened him. He still doesn't understand it. The Fourteenth's goals surely do not align with that of the Order...not when he claims to want to take the Earl's place.

Right?

He feels Allen reach up to pull him into an embrace that's tight, but not so tight as to be crushing, the waves continuing to wash over them as Link allows himself to return it, dropping his forehead down against Allen's shoulder.

Useless. How can he be this useless? Allen shouldn't have to worry about him. He has too much to worry about himself to be worrying about the woes of a regular, human man who wouldn't really have anything special going on if it weren't for the fact he was a CROW. And even then, he's not sure what to think about all of that anymore, either.

He closes his eyes, breathing in the salt and sunscreen he can smell on Allen. He smells a little like the freshly-roasted fish that he'd prepared, too, and hadn't actually eaten any.]

I've never felt this way before. About anyone. Not the way I feel about you.

It's terrifying.

[ For someone who fights demons everyday, he sure is having a tough time fending Link from his own. He should, since this is all kind of his fault. He's been playing a dangerous balancing act, though, hasn't he? Somehow both not wanting to waver Link's faith more, but also wanting to share his feelings with him. Even now, it feels like he's teetering on the world's most sketchy tightrope.

And... Allen would be a fool to not melt at those words. His stomach is doing those twisties he's not even close to being used to, and his face heats up, and all Allen could think is that it really wasn't the time! He's supposed to be comforting Link! He tries to laugh off his nerves. ]

Saying something like that is right going to make me fall harder, dummy. [ He bonks his head against Link's for a moment, before gently coaxing him to lift his head. ] Would you allow me... to kiss you, Li?

[Link's breath hitches once again, because it feels like Allen's reached out and grabbed his heart directly and squeezed as tightly as he can muster. How...how is he supposed to act appropriately here when Allen says something like that?

He sniffs, feeling another painful pang in his chest, visibly shocked that Allen would even tease the notion. And...not for the reason you would expect.]

...no matter how I may or may not feel, I refuse to be a homewrecker.

...hwh...whw???

[ Snrk- ]

Oh! I see! No, Kanda is well aware of my feelings for you! I did... confess to you, in front of him, no less! [ Maybe to Kanda's dismay. Not about the feelings, but the whole tense conversation that happened after the confession- ]

Obviously, if you're not fine with that, then that's alright. But... he is! It's... um... apparently not a totally uncommon thing? Sometimes people... just have a lot of love that they want to give, and... they can have multiple partners, so long as everyone is aware and such! They called it "polyarms" [ No. ] and... I think that's me! I think I'm polyarmed! [ Allen- ]

Poly...armed?

[???

What on earth are the millennials doing.

Then again...Allen IS right. He did say that right in front of Kanda, and Kanda was more concerned about Link being an asshole to him than he was about Allen being like "I like you".

Baffling. He is going to need...a lot of time to process all of this. A lot.

That said, he's turning red, his hands resting flat against Allen's back now as they continue to get pounded (lol) by the sea. He still looks a little confused, and maybe a little conflicted, but that doesn't stop him from resting his forehead against Allen's.]

If...you're sure, then yes. I will allow it.

[ Nea voice: why the fuck does this one boy have so much game wtf

Allen's own face feels a lot hotter than he'd like to admit. He's glad the sun's light has mostly vanished so he can hide that for the most part. And, like, if his heart wants to settle at any point, that, too, would be helpful.

Allen moves his own hands for a moment to start brushing back Link's hair, since he still hasn't braided it back yet. He closes his eyes for just a moment to really take in their closeness before he goes to tilt his head in and press his lips to Link's. It... immediately catches him off guard when there's the taste of iron, but he ignores that when he remembers that Link had just prior been biting his lip.

Otherwise, it's just a very gentle, yet very loving kiss. ]

[And just like that, Link has committed a sin and had his first kiss all at the same time. Whodathunk it would have happened like this?

He feels every inch of his body flash white-hot the second their lips touch, and he realizes in that moment he has no idea what to do. There's no book to study on how to kiss someone properly, and he's sure there's got to be some sort of technique to it, but God if he knows what that is. To that end, he ends up sitting there dumbly for a handful of seconds letting Allen do all of the work, forgetting to breathe like a certain someone Allen's kissed in the last couple weeks...

But Link, in contrast, does try to return it. He doesn't know if it's right, or even remotely close, but he does press back to show him he intends to reciprocate, even if he feels like he's going to burst into flames at any moment.

What he can do- and doesn't have much control over, in the heat of the moment- is wrap his arms even tighter around Allen's torso, lifting him up against his chest out of the water just slightly as they kiss.]

[Only to immediately get absolutely bodied by an oncoming wave.]

[ Just as Allen started to genuinely relax in Link's arms, too-

Allen makes a very startled snort as the both of them get knocked over. Right. Yes. Water. The tides are reaching further because??? That's how tides do. Especially regarding The Moon(tm). He does his best to sit back up and scoop Link with him as quickly as he can, though. ]

We-

uh.

We should... probably get back to the cabana.....

[Well that was embarrassing...

Link is still buzzing, practically vibrating both in and out as he and Allen get up from the surf, with Link holding onto one of Allen's hands while his other still rests against his back, sputtering. His hair got thrown over his head and into his face like a damp shower curtain, so he has to throw his head back to clear his vision before they can actually get back out and onto the sand.]

R-right...

[We're coming home Kanda we're gay-

Also Link should. Probably also eat since he never did that but he's genuinely forgotten at this point.]

[ Well great news about that, because Allen was going to head over to the fireplace anyway so he could snuff that out. So it's where they're being led to first. He'll hand that bowl off to Link before they head to the cabana. Look! The birds didn't even get to it yet! Probably due to the fire. ]

You... should eat, get some of your energy back. [ Emotionally taxing days can really kill you. ] I'll take a shower and get changed, and you can do so after you eat and... we can turn in for the night?

Assuming you're alright with that?

[Oh thank God, nothing would have been more embarrassing than to come back to their food having been eaten by the birds on top of everything else. At least Allen and Kanda got to eat though, if nothing else.

Link will take his portion, and it's not going to be until he's taking some time to himself to eat and also shower that it's all going to really sink in that 1) he kissed Allen Walker, known man and 2) they did this while shirtless wearing only swim trunks in the middle of the ocean

Also he picked him up??? The Lord is going to strike him down before he makes it back to the cabana.

But...he will nod, even if the way he glows red makes it seem like he got a sunburn despite the sunscreen they put on.]

I am, yes. I'll meet you there?

[ He nods, and parts with Link with a little wave to leave him alone with his homophobic thoughts while he goes back to ??? get the smell of Ocean off of him.

Allen replays all of that in his head in some attempt to... analyze it or have some kind of meaningful conversation with himself. All that goes through his head after three replays is AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA.

So he's doing well.

Once he's clean, he'll head into the bedroom where Kanda is though. He doesn't say anything or shake him awake, he just climbs over him in the bed and flops his full body weight onto him to lay on him. ]

[Yeah, it's technically a little early for bedtime but Kanda has spent the last three days walking, then they got to the beach and did not take a break so he went swimming for an hour and then made dinner and that doesn't even touch on the fucking sea monkey army incident. He was left alone and cleaned the bed off and went to sit down and talk to Tim and after five minutes was dead to the world. Can he honestly be blamed when he's normally up at 4am anyway?? No, he cannot, he might actually get some sleep tonight and—

Suddenly there is an Allen-shaped weight on him that immediately wakes him out of his usual guarded sleep in something of a panic before he realises that the presence is just Allen being his usual self.

Still exhausted, Kanda slurs out:]

Whahappen.

[He's trying to sit up, but there is boy.]

[ Yeah that's not happening. There's an Allen flopped into your chest, buddy. This is your life now!!

Allen speaks, but it's all a little muffled against Kanda because he's not picking his head up. ]

Link's eating dinner. I took a shower. He'll be here after he gets cleaned up and stuff, too.

...

Also, I kissed him. [ Lead with that next time, maybe. ]

[Well, that'll wake Kanda right up. He's rubbing the sleep from his eyes because he conked out with the goddamn lamps on and sitting up on his elbows. Enjoy the titties you're laying on Allen, at least he has a shirt on now?]

I take it it went well? Or is he outside losing his mind waiting for us to leave so he can grab his stuff?

[Is he going to like, freak out about showering in the same shower two gays used or...]

[ Allen picks his head up here. ]

...Well-ish? He's... I mean, you probably realized this much, but Li has definitely been letting everything pile up and bear down on him.

I just don't know how else to help, but... I don't know.

...

He also said he didn't want to be a homewrecker.

I'm just as useless as you at this. This is new for me too. [He never had this drama with Alma, okay, they sort of just... like yes there was a bit of murder in there but it wasn't about homophobia!] He's just going to... figure it out at some point, I guess, but it's probably good he didn't run for the hills or throw himself into the sea?

[Kanda wouldn't know, also hey what was that last part—]

Homewrecker?

[ Allen adjusts himself, putting his arms around Kanda's neck and gently bumping his nose to Kanda's chin. ]

Low blow! Saying I'm as useless as you... truly such an insult. [ He nods a little, though. Yeah, Link will have to fight most of his demons on his own. It's not like Allen can just shoot Link's homophobia out of him fully.

But he can certainly help the best he can! ]

Mmhm. I explained it to him after, of course, but... you can take some comfort in knowing he didn't want to tangle you up in an affair, I guess?

[With one arm, he reaches up to hold Allen around the waist and lays back down. Tim can sit on Allen's back or something.]

Very considerate of him to think of his honour before the parts where we're two men kissing. Nice of him. I guess adultery is a bigger sin? [Rolling his eyes.] You told him I was fine if you two wanted to start something, right? I don't care what you do so long as he's normal about it.

[Normal being many things, like. Don't do the Nea thing (but he and Link talked about that, and Tim recorded it). Don't be homophobic (in progress). Don't do your freakass CROW shit to anyone (in progress).

Hey speaking of recordings Tim definitely has one of Kanda holding him like a basketball and saying "I'm gonna meditate before bed" before promptly passing out so maybe meditation really is sleep after all???]

[ Allen fucking knew it this whole time. Meditation isn't real- ]

I did. The um. The polyarms stuff! I explained that!!

[ Allen, sweetie- ]

He... I imagine, is considering things? I know you and him don't get along, so... he's probably proper befuddled with things now.

[truly cannot wait until kanda and link start having nasty gay hatesex as a result of them both realising they Can—]

The... the polyarmory shit? [The thing everyone in the Grove bar like two couples do??] That?

[Those arms?]

We're... we truced. Or something, I don't know. I don't have to like him, but we had a talk and decided to be on the same page. I almost beat him to death with a drill first but we figured it out. [Kanda.]

Polyarmory! Yes, that. [ No. Y'all- ]

...I'm aware. I heard.

[ Said very nonchalantly for someone who wasn't there. He lifts his hand letting Tim scoot more toward his shoulder so he can offer him a few pats. ]

I'm glad you both did. Less enthused you talked about stopping me if you fell behind my back like that, but that's alright. I understand why you did it.

[They're trying okay. Obviously it's "armory" because it's like an army of lovers?? Duh. (No.)

Anyway, Kanda is rubbing circles into Allen's lower back and then Allen says that and his whole hand stops moving and he looks a little bit like a deer in headlights. Uh.]

...I forgot Tim was in the goddamn room.

[So Allen definitely saw Kanda's internal debate on if he Should or Should Not drill Link's entire face. God, why did he not think of this, he knows Tim records shit.]

I just don't want to put you through that. That's all. I told Link and you already that I don't intend to fucking Fall, but I need a contingency plan in case it happens.

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