But if all you give me is enough to fight it…

[mooninthewater]

Who: Mizuki and... you!
What: Mizuki apologizing and some fluff before event drops-
When: After gardening
Where: Yes
Warnings: none yet


I. It's a mess I won't make anymore (Open; The Inn)

[ There's a note posted up on the wall of the inn in blue pen. It's neatly written at first, with curly handwriting, but it starts to wobble towards the end. ]

I don't know how to get everyone together, as these sorts of things aren't usually my forte. I suppose I could go to each of you individually, and it's what you all deserve, but I'm not an emotionally strong sort of person. For that alone, I'm sorry.

I want to apologize to those of you affected by the hallucinations of the flowers. I should've handed out antidotes to all of you before anything like this happened. I should've been more careful about the toxins. I should've done a lot of things.

I'm sorry.

- M

[ Mizuki will hole himself up in his room for a day or so after this. Apologizing… hard. Talking to people… hard. Hhh. Anxiety— ]

(Update: BB has thrown away this note. If you would have liked to reply before she did so, that's a-okay, of course, but just a heads up~.)

II. Like a thousand times before (Open; Wherever)

[ You may catch him in better spirits later, though. He's happily applying stickers to the doors of people he knows with some sort of association he has with them. He has a variety of them, so it's not hard to match colors or themes or whatever else he sets his little heart to.

His own door is smathered with blue stickers and ocean waves. He's also spelled out "M I Z U K I !" with blue stickers, too. Maybe you'll confront him mid-stickering your door or someone else's door? Maybe you saw the stickers and just sort of knew… ]

III. And in the times that I wish I was younger (Open; Wherever)

[ There's a jellyfish holding your hand! Where did he come from, he wasn't there a second ago— ]

If there are memories so bad that they can send you into miserable states just from being slightly reminded from them, do you think there are memories so good that they can do the opposite…?

[ Hey, what the fuck— ]

IV. With hunger to be somebody (Wildcard)
(hmu via PM or Discord if u wanna plot something out w/ me!!! I might get back on plurk… soon…)

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[mooninthewater]

[ That sure is a lot of monologuing. For what it's worth, though, Mizuki doesn't make any attempt to cut her off, and instead just listens to everything she has to say. He absorbs the information the best he can and does his absolute best to filter it through his own understanding of the world, which, realistically, he is acutely aware isn't very good. It's why he goes to such lengths to try and convince people to give him orders, after all. But he does think that giving him scenarios where he has time to seriously consider things like this is beneficial for him, at least. Thought provoking, unique scenarios that may one day prove to help him making his own decisions... could such a dream be achievable for someone like him?

After BB stops talking, Mizuki stays quiet for a couple seconds longer, scanning her face, their hands, the ceiling... ] If I may... address some of that. Sorry, it was a lot, I'm not very fast at digesting things like this.

Erm, for starters, I think that... true heroes can make the hardest choices on their own. It's not easy by any means, but I know they know that. Moreover... if the ideal scenario is to add another obstacle for that "hero" for them to become better, I don't think they can be considered a "hero" just yet. I agree that challenging them and giving them situations to overcome and, in fact, improve one's will and fortitude and capacity for decision-making, but... at the same time, I think giving a real hero unnecessary obstacles will impede their progress of making the world a better place, which is the opposite of what I want to be doing...