[The time travel part sounds like bullshit, but the rest actually snaps him right back into the moment. The lucidity is pulled out from under his feet and he sighs and rolls his eyes. On the upside, he believes Ford enough that he's not grabbing the bat again, and he isn't seeing the inconsistencies anymore.
...On the downside, he isn't seeing the inconsistencies anymore.]
Right. Should've figured you'd never come here on purpose.
[It's not fair exactly - a day ago Stan never would have guessed Ford even knew where he lived.]
Was the postcard not on purpose either or did you actually need me for something?
Ford visibly deflates at that comment, but he can't exactly argue with it, can he? Stan's not exactly wrong; Ford really wouldn't have come here, to this specific time, on purpose. ]
It was on purpose, and I did need you for something.
[ Past tense because Ford, as he is in this moment, isn't the one who sent the postcard. The Ford that is in Stan's moment did.
[Stan hesitates, but ultimately takes the postcard. He even sets the bat down completely, so he can hold it in both hands.]
Really? ...And you still wrote me?
[The biting sarcasm is gone, leaving behind only awed disbelief. It sounds wrong. Despite everything, he can't imagine Ford ever wanting to rely on him again, even when the proof is literally in his hands. Why would Ford trust the guy who ruined everything for him?
Maybe Stan didn't ruin things as bad as he thought. Maybe there's still a chance.]
...Whatever it is, I'll do it. I mean it! Anything you need, I'm gonna be there! Well, except money. Wait, no, even money - I'll figure it out, maybe rob a bank or something!
[He's full of energy now. Maybe this will work out! Ford could still rely on him. Ford still counts on him and needs him, so he has to go and...well, he has to go!
He shoves his way through the flames to one pile of questionable clothes and starts pulling on whatever counts as half-decent layers - worn out jeans, a couple pairs of socks. A grungy shirt and an old red hoodie. The look is probably familiar.]
I'm gonna get up there and prove you right! I'll prove you right and Dad wrong, and-- and I won't screw it up! You'll see!
[Despite talking to Ford, Stan sounds more like he's talking to himself as he chucks unidentified fiery things into that old duffel bag and zips it closed. Hyping himself up, the way he tends to do when he's alone.]
[ Wait, hold on. Hold on, this is actually worse than the resignation from a moment ago. Ford lifts up a hand, half reaching out to stop Stan, but ultimately he can only watch with steadily mounting... unease isn't a strong enough word. Maybe horror is what he's feeling as he watches Stan run around the motel room, buzzing with energy and determination. He's already acknowledged that he can't actually change the past, but suddenly it's bothering him a lot more than before.
He hates this fake time travel stuff. At least Julia gave him the opportunity to punch his dad in the face.
And, again, it's not like Stan is wrong. ]
... I know you will. Just...
[ What else can he say at this point? Anything else would be a lie, and trying to talk Stan back out of it will just upset him even more. What advice could he actually give to Stan at this point even if it would make a difference. ]
... There's a man in Gravity Falls called Fiddleford McGucket. If you find him and explain why you're in town, he might be able to help.
[Stan is hoisting the bag up on his shoulder when Ford tries to halt him. Just what? He doesn't have time to "just" whatever, does he? But he still gives pause, in case it's some important tip.
And it is! ...But, not one he was expecting.]
Fiddleford McGucket?
[It's hard to blame him for sounding a little incredulous. What the hell kind of name is that? It just conjures images of banjos and racoons, and...
...wait.]
...Old Man McGucket?
[He frowns, and glances down and to the side while the pieces try to arrange themselves correctly. His lucidity is clawing its way back into this memory, bit by bit.]
[ And there it is. With these little journeys into someone's memory it's always hard to tell what the exact mechanics are. You could end up watching the memory unchanging, be forced to play a role in it, meddle with it freely, or meddle with it but get called out if things change too much.
Apparently this one is the last sort, and apparently Ford has found the boundaries of how far he can push things before it falls apart completely. ]
[In the flames, muddled voices rise up from his memory - Ford and Stan, both as young as Stan looks now, bickering about who ruined whose life. A scream of pain and a hurried apology. A whirr of machinery that surely haunts both of them, even now.
Given how Stan took other parts of this conversation, Ford might expect a lot of anger and hurt as he re-remembers it all over again. But...it doesn't come. Stan doesn't change in appearance, but something changes in the way he carries himself. Understanding settles in.
Some of those voices speaking through the flames are from much later, and much clearer than the rest. New, fresher memories overlapping the old. Quieter, confused questions. Sincere apologies. One brother trying to make amends to the other with any piece of visual evidence he can scrounge up, anything he can use to bring him brother back. The sound of ocean waves and laughter.
Stan was glancing toward the floor when this started, but now he's looking right at Ford, weighing it all.]
...But we're alright now.
[The weight is heavy, but it isn't one either of them carry alone anymore so Stan tentatively opens his arms as an invitation for a hug, if Ford's the one who needs it now.]
[ Ford is expecting the anger and the hurt—or at the very least, the sort of tired resignation he's feeling. Their relationship is better now, sure, but some things feel like they're impossible to ever really leave behind.
But the anger and hurt don't come. That tired resignation doesn't even come. Ford stares at Stan as the memories fade in and out round them, not quite daring to hope that he knows where this is going. But then Stan looks up and speaks, and Ford's expression melts into one of affection and relief. He doesn't bother with a verbal response to Stan's assertion. Instead he just steps forward, closing the gap between them and throwing his arms around Stan. ]
[Sure, they can't leave some things behind. Some stuff doesn't ever really go away, but that doesn't mean they can't move past it. They get stronger, strong enough to carry the weight together.
Stan squeezes Ford tight - a rare sincere sibling hug.]
Yeah. Missed you too, bro.
[It feels right to echo it when they're standing in a memory where Stan missed Ford so much that he dropped everything to come help him, just for a small chance to fix things. He didn't say it then, so he's saying it now and that will have to be enough.]
[ He takes a step back and gestures, like somehow indicating the memory of the motel room might somehow encompass the entirety of the their time apart in their home dimension. ]
When you and the kids left Trench I knew you would come back one day. But...
[ He shakes his head, sighing. ]
I wasn't sure if it would be days, weeks, or centuries before that happened.
Yeah. I get it. Hell, it could've been another thirty years!
[Thirty years feels so much longer than centuries, and they both know why. But it's proof that Stan knows this feeling better than anyone.]
I didn't wanna go, y'know. I never would've. I mean we got what, two years? After everything?!
[Just like thirty years is an eternity, two years is barely anything. He's so frustrated thinking about it, and on his younger face he looks the way he did right before he'd fly off the handle. ...but, he doesn't.]
You wound up by yourself again. ...Guess we're really outta practice with the whole "Wherever we go, we go together!" thing, huh?
You wouldn't have willingly passed up on the chance to drag us all out to sea with you.
[ Stan could never stand to sit still, even as a kid, but he stayed in Gravity Falls for thirty years trying to get Ford's stupid portal to work again. He could have just left—he probably should have just left—and he didn't. There was no way he was going to leave Trench without him.
And not dragging them along for adventures actually in the ocean, and not just on it? Forget it. No, obviously some other force compelled Stan to leave. But speaking of being by himself again... ]
I... wasn't by myself, actually. It wasn't the same without the three of you, of course, not even when Fiddleford showed up. But...
[ Oh, Ford has no idea what exactly he's trying to say here. He switches tactics, hoping maybe an example will make it clear. ]
After I told our friends you had left, do you know what the first thing Ruby did was?
She invited me down to the boardwalk to counter-scam the rigged festival games one last time in your honor.
[It helps to hear that Ford knew he didn't ditch on purpose. He's had this talk with Dipper before too, and after a lifetime of having people assume the worst of him, it's always a nice surprise when someone doesn't.]
Ha! Too bad I couldn't've come up as a Kraken and dragged you all under with me!
[He twiddles his fingers like this is some spooky thing, but he laughs too - they would have all been fine.
As Ford goes on he listens though, giving him the time to spit out what's on his mind. The example's perfect though, and Stan looks touched. Ruby's a good kid - he thinks of her every time he wields his Red Herring.]
She did? Really?
[His eyes aren't watering! It's all the fire in here! He rubs at them anyway though and grins.]
Heh. Hope you two conned those carnie crooks out of every prize they had!
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...On the downside, he isn't seeing the inconsistencies anymore.]
Right. Should've figured you'd never come here on purpose.
[It's not fair exactly - a day ago Stan never would have guessed Ford even knew where he lived.]
Was the postcard not on purpose either or did you actually need me for something?
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Ford visibly deflates at that comment, but he can't exactly argue with it, can he? Stan's not exactly wrong; Ford really wouldn't have come here, to this specific time, on purpose. ]
It was on purpose, and I did need you for something.
[ Past tense because Ford, as he is in this moment, isn't the one who sent the postcard. The Ford that is in Stan's moment did.
Ford offers the postcard out to Stan. ]
I needed someone I knew I could rely on.
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Really? ...And you still wrote me?
[The biting sarcasm is gone, leaving behind only awed disbelief. It sounds wrong. Despite everything, he can't imagine Ford ever wanting to rely on him again, even when the proof is literally in his hands. Why would Ford trust the guy who ruined everything for him?
Maybe Stan didn't ruin things as bad as he thought. Maybe there's still a chance.]
...Whatever it is, I'll do it. I mean it! Anything you need, I'm gonna be there! Well, except money. Wait, no, even money - I'll figure it out, maybe rob a bank or something!
[He's full of energy now. Maybe this will work out! Ford could still rely on him. Ford still counts on him and needs him, so he has to go and...well, he has to go!
He shoves his way through the flames to one pile of questionable clothes and starts pulling on whatever counts as half-decent layers - worn out jeans, a couple pairs of socks. A grungy shirt and an old red hoodie. The look is probably familiar.]
I'm gonna get up there and prove you right! I'll prove you right and Dad wrong, and-- and I won't screw it up! You'll see!
[Despite talking to Ford, Stan sounds more like he's talking to himself as he chucks unidentified fiery things into that old duffel bag and zips it closed. Hyping himself up, the way he tends to do when he's alone.]
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He hates this fake time travel stuff. At least Julia gave him the opportunity to punch his dad in the face.
And, again, it's not like Stan is wrong. ]
... I know you will. Just...
[ What else can he say at this point? Anything else would be a lie, and trying to talk Stan back out of it will just upset him even more. What advice could he actually give to Stan at this point even if it would make a difference. ]
... There's a man in Gravity Falls called Fiddleford McGucket. If you find him and explain why you're in town, he might be able to help.
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And it is! ...But, not one he was expecting.]
Fiddleford McGucket?
[It's hard to blame him for sounding a little incredulous. What the hell kind of name is that? It just conjures images of banjos and racoons, and...
...wait.]
...Old Man McGucket?
[He frowns, and glances down and to the side while the pieces try to arrange themselves correctly. His lucidity is clawing its way back into this memory, bit by bit.]
...It didn't happen like this, did it.
[It's not a question.]
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Apparently this one is the last sort, and apparently Ford has found the boundaries of how far he can push things before it falls apart completely. ]
No, it didn't.
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Given how Stan took other parts of this conversation, Ford might expect a lot of anger and hurt as he re-remembers it all over again. But...it doesn't come. Stan doesn't change in appearance, but something changes in the way he carries himself. Understanding settles in.
Some of those voices speaking through the flames are from much later, and much clearer than the rest. New, fresher memories overlapping the old. Quieter, confused questions. Sincere apologies. One brother trying to make amends to the other with any piece of visual evidence he can scrounge up, anything he can use to bring him brother back. The sound of ocean waves and laughter.
Stan was glancing toward the floor when this started, but now he's looking right at Ford, weighing it all.]
...But we're alright now.
[The weight is heavy, but it isn't one either of them carry alone anymore so Stan tentatively opens his arms as an invitation for a hug, if Ford's the one who needs it now.]
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But the anger and hurt don't come. That tired resignation doesn't even come. Ford stares at Stan as the memories fade in and out round them, not quite daring to hope that he knows where this is going. But then Stan looks up and speaks, and Ford's expression melts into one of affection and relief. He doesn't bother with a verbal response to Stan's assertion. Instead he just steps forward, closing the gap between them and throwing his arms around Stan. ]
I missed you, Stanley.
[ Yeah, Ford really needed that hug. ]
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Stan squeezes Ford tight - a rare sincere sibling hug.]
Yeah. Missed you too, bro.
[It feels right to echo it when they're standing in a memory where Stan missed Ford so much that he dropped everything to come help him, just for a small chance to fix things. He didn't say it then, so he's saying it now and that will have to be enough.]
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[ He takes a step back and gestures, like somehow indicating the memory of the motel room might somehow encompass the entirety of the their time apart in their home dimension. ]
When you and the kids left Trench I knew you would come back one day. But...
[ He shakes his head, sighing. ]
I wasn't sure if it would be days, weeks, or centuries before that happened.
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Yeah. I get it. Hell, it could've been another thirty years!
[Thirty years feels so much longer than centuries, and they both know why. But it's proof that Stan knows this feeling better than anyone.]
I didn't wanna go, y'know. I never would've. I mean we got what, two years? After everything?!
[Just like thirty years is an eternity, two years is barely anything. He's so frustrated thinking about it, and on his younger face he looks the way he did right before he'd fly off the handle. ...but, he doesn't.]
You wound up by yourself again. ...Guess we're really outta practice with the whole "Wherever we go, we go together!" thing, huh?
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[ And then, in a more amused tone: ]
You wouldn't have willingly passed up on the chance to drag us all out to sea with you.
[ Stan could never stand to sit still, even as a kid, but he stayed in Gravity Falls for thirty years trying to get Ford's stupid portal to work again. He could have just left—he probably should have just left—and he didn't. There was no way he was going to leave Trench without him.
And not dragging them along for adventures actually in the ocean, and not just on it? Forget it. No, obviously some other force compelled Stan to leave. But speaking of being by himself again... ]
I... wasn't by myself, actually. It wasn't the same without the three of you, of course, not even when Fiddleford showed up. But...
[ Oh, Ford has no idea what exactly he's trying to say here. He switches tactics, hoping maybe an example will make it clear. ]
After I told our friends you had left, do you know what the first thing Ruby did was?
She invited me down to the boardwalk to counter-scam the rigged festival games one last time in your honor.
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Ha! Too bad I couldn't've come up as a Kraken and dragged you all under with me!
[He twiddles his fingers like this is some spooky thing, but he laughs too - they would have all been fine.
As Ford goes on he listens though, giving him the time to spit out what's on his mind. The example's perfect though, and Stan looks touched. Ruby's a good kid - he thinks of her every time he wields his Red Herring.]
She did? Really?
[His eyes aren't watering! It's all the fire in here! He rubs at them anyway though and grins.]
Heh. Hope you two conned those carnie crooks out of every prize they had!