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Entry tags:
- !event,
- !tdm,
- alien stage: till,
- arknights: flamebringer,
- arknights: mizuki,
- cookie run: pure vanilla cookie,
- cookie run: shadow milk cookie,
- cookie run: white lily cookie,
- elsword: add,
- elsword: ain,
- final fantasy xvi: dion lesage,
- final fantasy xvi: joshua rosfield,
- gravity falls: dipper pines,
- infinity train: min-gi park,
- original: kiera canorus,
- original: luca aurelius,
- original: sidney wolfe,
- original: valentine,
- trigun: livio,
- trigun: vash,
- trigun: wolfwood
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Yeah?
[He murmurs, sticking another between his teeth as he pats himself, searching now for his lighter...fuck, did he drop it somewhere...]
Ain't like I was an old man, or nothin'. ...neither were you.
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[His arms are crossed, at least at first. Then... uncrossed, as Flamebringer strides a few steps forward, pushing off the tree with his shoulders only to grab Wolfwood by one of his, pull him forward...
Where he lights the cigarette with a spark of flame from the tip of his tongue, of all things, gazing a little too deeply into Wolfwood's eyes and holding that pose a little too long to call it platonic before he backs off and re-centers himself against the oak.]
I like us better now versus then, what can I say?
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Even Wolfwood is caught off guard by it, his eyes widening a fraction as he just...stares back at Flamebringer for a long moment, even long after he's already lit the cigarette and pulled away. Like, if they weren't actively dancing around this past-life thing, Wolfwood would have been like get your ass back over here wait a fucking minute.
Instead, he lifts his hand to grip the cigarette between his index and middle finger as he takes a deep drag, exhaling the smoke through the side of his mouth before he says anything else.
He huffs.]
So you remember it all too.
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[There's no "how are you feeling" or "I really want to slug you". It was warm and affectionate and downright disgusting in how sugar-sweet it all was. Not like them now. More akin to how Flamebringer and Ezell are now, and how he knows Ain is with Wolfwood.
It's not "them". But it's them.]
Don't lose your bite now that we've had a few saccharine moments. I like you better when your teeth are in my throat.
[Flamebringer.]
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[Wolfwood cups his hand around his cigarette to keep the wind from blowing out the flame, taking another long breath so he can hold the smoke in his lungs for a bit, relishing the burn before he exhales it back out.
It was incredibly idyllic, this life they apparently had. They were married, had kids...were happy. Wolfwood still feels this strange sort of disconnect about it, because it's hard to believe he ever could have had that sort of life. It's so far beyond his ability to conceptualize that it still doesn't feel like it was him.
Thinking about it makes him sad, and it maybe shows a little in the way he's looking off at the ground, his hands moving into his pockets.]
I just. ...I dunno.
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[Flamebringer sighs. He sighs, like Wolfwood just told him he failed math class or something.]
Out with it. You "dunno" what?
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Just kinda. Sad t'think about, I guess.
[Is what he finally ends up saying.]
All seemed so fuckin'...happy.
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[Not murderers like them. Not people who get off on good battle like them.]
It's in the past. Hundreds, if not thousands of years ago. There's no point on getting hung up on shit that happened back then — it's not like we can change the past. The future's ours to do what we want with. That's what's important.
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I know...and I agree with you. I ain't tryin' to argue that, Flamebringer.
[He pauses...for longer than he means to before continuing.]
But that don't mean it didn't still happen. That it didn't...still mean somethin'.
[Flamebringer knows Wolfwood. He knows he isn't one for sappy shit, or sentimental shit, or any of that. But they both basically lived a day in their past lives, and it felt as real as the day when it happened. And knowing full well it's a real memory, and not just some kind of dream or mass hallucination?
He's still trying to figure out how to cope with it. The fact that, when he woke up from it, he felt like he'd lost a part of himself with it.]
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"Love", huh. Love enough to be married, to have kids and a house and chickens, to go out into the garden every morning and chase the hornworms off his plants while Wolfwood — "Nick" — stood on the balcony smoking and watching him work. To light their cigarettes off each others' and blow smoke rings into their mouths.
When he thinks of it with Wolfwood, it's too sweet. Hell, that's not even how he sees Ezell — Ezell is solar flares, morning dew on the poppies in the garden, the warmth of fresh bread in the morning and the comforting scent of cut roses. He's the taste of something sweet, someone who Flamebringer wants to protect and keep, press his nose into his cheek and breathe in his scent.
Wolfwood is... not that. Wolfwood is a stubborn vine clinging to the trellis that Flamebringer cannot clip. He's the acrid taste of smoke that fills Flamebringer's lungs either in daily life or when facing down actual, honest-to-god war. He's a thorn in Flamebringer's heel, a weed choking out the lilies, an Amanita that he shouldn't leave there but is too fond of to remove.
He pushes himself off the oak tree again, arms still crossed, and strides into Wolfwood's space again. This time, he plucks the cigarette from his lips, flips it around, and ashes it over Wolfwood's blazer.]
Asher loved Nick, [he says, quietly,] more than either of us can probably say.
[He presses the half-smoked cigarette to his lips, takes a long drag, and exhales a ring of smoke off to the side.]
I don't love you. Not like he did. Not like your current partners do, and not how I love Ezell. But if you asked me right now, I'd say I love the thought of carving my name into your back with my claws in some possessive, fucked up sort of way.
I don't think that's the sort of love you deserve.
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His expression is grave and hard to discern as he listens to what Flamebringer has to say. It's clear that- while Wolfwood does understand well that these lives of theirs were just that, lives that are long gone that have no bearing on the present they're now living in- it's something he'll not be soon forgetting. Like Flamebringer, the memory of that experience is etched into his psyche, to the point where he wonders now if the press of his lips will be interchangeable with the feeling of kissing sweetly over the balcony in the evening.
It's kindof fucked up, he thinks. It's like he's stolen away all these first moments from somebody else who should have had first dibs. Ezell, in this instance. And like...it's not like Wolfwood minds, he's dating three people, so he doesn't have any specific hangups about anything, he just...feels bad about it. He can't quite pin it down.
Flamebringer's words are sobering. They help to smooth his own emotions out a touch, a mold being pressed into a more proper shape. If he's honest, this is not the way he imagined this conversation going at all, but they're here, now.]
I'm pretty sure Nick loved Asher more than I'm capable of loving anyone. Really more than I know how to love anyone.
[He is a broken man. His ability to love in any sort of normal capacity was burned out of him a long time ago, and only just recently has he started to figure out how to. He does love his partners, each and every one of them, but the depth of Nick's love was...suffocating.
He has no doubt in his mind that when this version of him died, it was with that man's name in a desperate plea on his lips, that maybe they'd find each other again in the afterlife.
Fucked up.]
Ezell's pretty damn lucky. Hope you make sure he knows that, every god damn day.
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[He's taking this cigarette now, bye. It's his.]
Look, you've pulled three boyfriends. Three of the softest fucking guys I've ever seen. I don't think you can say that about yourself. And look...
[He... sighs. It's that same tired sound from earlier, one laced with a whole lot of "I don't want to saaaaaay thingsss" like a stubborn child caught in a lie. This is what he means by "thorn in his heel"! This is exactly it!
His gaze slides off to the side at the village in the distance, but he maintains his current position, too close to Wolfwood, shuffling how he stands on each foot. Right, then left, then rocking on his heels, a nervous fidget only emphasized by the curl in his tail.]
It's not exactly a rejection, what I said earlier. So. ...You wanna figure out what the hell we are now?
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Wolfwood, obviously, knew about that. He saw the sketches for the engagement ring, so it's been in the back of his mind that the guy had decided to go forward with proposal which like, honestly good for him. Wolfwood sure hasn't been able to reach that point, but god he's trying. Grappling with your unruly emotions is difficult, and he wasn't lying when he said he wasn't sure he knew how to love people properly. He's often not even sure how he managed to get three boyfriends, though they all mean the world to him.
So. Here they are. They've reached an impasse, and Flamebringer asks him if he wants to figure out what they are. What they are now.
Wolfwood sighs, shaking his head with his hands still in his pockets, and takes the initiative himself to move closer, even though Flamebringer was already very much in his space before. Then he tilts his head back, looking at Flamebringer eye-to-eye.]
Not sure I've ever seen you so nervous.
[It's not mocking. It carries more of a teasing lilt than anything.]
We ain't what we were, back then. But I think we can be somethin' different, now. That's fine too.
[He...bonks his forehead into Flamebringer's, very careful to avoid any part of him that's crystalized when he does this, mind.]
I like fuckin' 'round with you. I like beatin' the shit outta each other, and...I like sleepin' with you after. Or any other time, really.
[Wolfwood shrugs one shoulder, his cheeks now dusting a deeper red than before.]
We don't do that same soft, sappy shit...but I like it that way. Don't you?
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Not nervous.
[Said man who is nervous, because emotions make him nervous, not in the same way that Wolfwood might clock from Ain but in a very "I've crossed this territory before and it freaks me out every time I have to do it again" way.
Wolfwood bonks their heads together, and Flamebringer is quick to bonk back, like a cat. He pushes against Wolfwood's forehead receptively, pulling the cigarette from his lips only to exhale the smoke against Wolfwood's.
Gross. You're gross.]
I prefer you when you're a bit of a cock anyway. ...not that I didn't like those sweeter moments back then, but that's not either of us now, is it? If you stop being insufferable now, I'll think I did something wrong.
[Keeping it unlabelled because the "what" they are doesn't fit any category... feels good. It feels like the best option.]
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Yeah. He actually likes the sound of that.
And he likes this, too, he's realizing. Because when Flamebringer pushes against him and exhales smoke against his lips, Wolfwood parts his own to breathe it in deep, the action feeling oddly practiced and easy.
You know what else he'll do? He'll take the opportunity of being as close as they are to close the gap, pressing their lips together for just a brief moment, long enough to feel the warmth of the others' mouth before he draws back and nips at Flamebringer's bottom lip, tugging it before letting go.
WHAT are you GAY for.]
I ain't gonna stop bein' a cock anytime soon, so you'd best get used to it.
[His lips quirk in something of a smile as he pulls back just enough to take a breath of clear air.]
I'll be back to kickin' your ass tomorrow. You get a freebie, today.
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He takes a step back as well, the cigarette burnt out to the butt now. Flamebringer isn't one to throw the butts on the ground, and instead incinerates the rest to ash with a small fire in his palm. The ashes fly free on the wind, and then he pivots on his heel, facing away from Wolfwood and jamming his hands into his pockets.]
Come to the tat shop again sometime. Let me add to that piece on your arm.
[If Wolfwood had wanted something to represent his partners, well, wouldn't he want a more permanent reminder of the mark Flamebringer's left on him, too?
Maybe this is sort of like a promise.
He pulls his hand out of his pocket and gives Wolfwood a wave over the shoulder.]
Don't get killed, sheygets. See ya later.
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Flamebringer won't be able to see the way Wolfwood's brows raise towards his hairline as he turns to leave. He's adding to the tat, huh? Well...he can't say he hates the idea of that.]
Yeah. Alright.
[He's imagining another flower...that's definitely what he wants to add right? Right-
He watches him as he goes without following, feeling as if a weight he didn't realize existed had been lifted off his shoulders.]
See you.