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sticksandbones2023-09-12 02:53 pm
mooninthewater) wrote in sticksandbones2023-09-12 02:53 pm
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It's Okay To Feel Sad
Who: Anyone!
What: Introduction to the new building, and some ~prompts~ in the comments (TBA)
When: After the mini event.
Where: Therapy building
Warnings: the usual Mizuki warnings apply.
[ Here's your all-express tour of the therapy building! In more detail because there's a lot going on. Welcome! Buckle up! Or don't!
The lobby consists of a lot of very comfy chairs, cots, and stuffed animals. There's a table in the middle with handheld gaming devices. According to the sign Mizuki placed at the table, these are his and he will take them all away if even one gets broken. Be gentle!
There are six doors throughout the lobby that lead to different rooms.
No, it's not a room where you get your physical. Rather, it's a room entirely covered with rock climbing walls, and the floor is entirely made from trampolines. There's no safety equipment, though, so be careful! It's great for getting out physical energy, though, and Mizuki insists that exercise is a great form of therapy. He potentially just asked for it so he could jump on the trampoline...
Surely not wanting to feel anything at all like your floating through the infinite vast of nothingness and becoming one with the universe is exactly what you wanted, right? Being alone with your damning thoughts and nothing else as there's absolutely no light and the body temperature water that leaves you floating feels somehow like nothing and also like... you?
...
There's four tanks in the room. Have fun!
An entirely white room from floor to ceiling with a plethora of different colored paints in buckets in the middle of the room. There are paintbrushes as well, but it's highly encouraged to just throw the buckets around or start slapping your paint-covered hands on the walls. Make a paint angel! Go nuts!!! Just don't eat the paint. Or do, I guess?? I'm not your mom.
Upon leaving the room, it resets to the state it was in when you walked in initially.
This room is... exactly what you expect, actually. There's a bunch of books in here. Most are self-help, but there's some artsy books like origami folding and coloring books, along with colored pencils. There's a sign that states "you can bring the books out to the lobby to read, just remember to put them back when you're done."
All ye who enter this room will be CURSED to be MAD for all eternity!!!!! …Just kidding. Entering the room reveals a very homey looking room with plates and vases and tables and chairs and counters. It could be a small, one room house in here alone. All the furniture does look pretty cheap, though. There's a sledgehammer on the wall that some force seems to not allow you take it out of the room, but there's a sign above it that says "Get your anger out! Go nuts!"
Upon leaving the room, it resets to the state it was in when you walked in initially.
This room is locked. Mizuki and the Shopkeeper both have a key. On the outside, there is a form on a clipboard you can fill out. You can write your name down, a brief blurb about what you want to talk about, who you wish to talk to, etc. etc. and slip the paper under the door.
Inside the room, it's set up to be very earthy. Greens and blues to invoke both calm and creativity... aaaand maybe also remind one of the sea or forest. There's a lot of potted plants (no flowers, oddly-) and a comfortable couch and separate chair. There's a desk in the corner. ]
What: Introduction to the new building, and some ~prompts~ in the comments (TBA)
When: After the mini event.
Where: Therapy building
Warnings: the usual Mizuki warnings apply.
[ Here's your all-express tour of the therapy building! In more detail because there's a lot going on. Welcome! Buckle up! Or don't!
the lobby
The lobby consists of a lot of very comfy chairs, cots, and stuffed animals. There's a table in the middle with handheld gaming devices. According to the sign Mizuki placed at the table, these are his and he will take them all away if even one gets broken. Be gentle!
There are six doors throughout the lobby that lead to different rooms.
the physical room
No, it's not a room where you get your physical. Rather, it's a room entirely covered with rock climbing walls, and the floor is entirely made from trampolines. There's no safety equipment, though, so be careful! It's great for getting out physical energy, though, and Mizuki insists that exercise is a great form of therapy. He potentially just asked for it so he could jump on the trampoline...
the sensory deprivation tanks
Surely not wanting to feel anything at all like your floating through the infinite vast of nothingness and becoming one with the universe is exactly what you wanted, right? Being alone with your damning thoughts and nothing else as there's absolutely no light and the body temperature water that leaves you floating feels somehow like nothing and also like... you?
...
There's four tanks in the room. Have fun!
the paint room
An entirely white room from floor to ceiling with a plethora of different colored paints in buckets in the middle of the room. There are paintbrushes as well, but it's highly encouraged to just throw the buckets around or start slapping your paint-covered hands on the walls. Make a paint angel! Go nuts!!! Just don't eat the paint. Or do, I guess?? I'm not your mom.
Upon leaving the room, it resets to the state it was in when you walked in initially.
the library
This room is... exactly what you expect, actually. There's a bunch of books in here. Most are self-help, but there's some artsy books like origami folding and coloring books, along with colored pencils. There's a sign that states "you can bring the books out to the lobby to read, just remember to put them back when you're done."
the rage room
All ye who enter this room will be CURSED to be MAD for all eternity!!!!! …Just kidding. Entering the room reveals a very homey looking room with plates and vases and tables and chairs and counters. It could be a small, one room house in here alone. All the furniture does look pretty cheap, though. There's a sledgehammer on the wall that some force seems to not allow you take it out of the room, but there's a sign above it that says "Get your anger out! Go nuts!"
Upon leaving the room, it resets to the state it was in when you walked in initially.
the office
This room is locked. Mizuki and the Shopkeeper both have a key. On the outside, there is a form on a clipboard you can fill out. You can write your name down, a brief blurb about what you want to talk about, who you wish to talk to, etc. etc. and slip the paper under the door.
Inside the room, it's set up to be very earthy. Greens and blues to invoke both calm and creativity... aaaand maybe also remind one of the sea or forest. There's a lot of potted plants (no flowers, oddly-) and a comfortable couch and separate chair. There's a desk in the corner. ]
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"Therapy" comes from the Minoan word that means "healing". So, most things here are meant to help with certain things. Most of it should be kind of straightforward? Exercise is always good to clear your head. Art can help you express yourself in way words can't. Clearing your mind of any distractions can help you focus. And I just talked about the rage room… There's even a library with books that'll teach you things to help with all sorts of stuff — Miss Ydalir helped me get some of those books.
[ He's very excited. Boy really loves this stuff, apparently. His eyes are practically sparkling, but maybe that's only because his bioluminescence is so bright right now? ]
And then there's the office, for talk therapy. That's where you'd talk to someone — me, probably — about how you're feeling and get their input on what they think that means from a psychological perspective. It's meant to help with emotional healing and to help with whatever mental health problems one might have~! It's probably my favorite. Psychology's always been so much fun!
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[Mizuki said "I like psychology and can do talk therapy" and Elsword was like cool this man has a PhD. His brain follows that thought up with "but let's not talk about what's on my mind", a second after his lips have begun moving.]
Maybe you could help me with something.
[god dammit]
1/2
Mizuki pops up and all the stuffed animals he buried himself with tumble and fall to their cushiony deaths as Mizuki excitedly takes Elsword’s hands. ]
My first patient!!!!!! [ eeeeeeee!!!
And with that, Elsword is being dragged to the office. He gestures for him to sit on the couch while Mizuki finds his spot in the chair after he makes sure the door is locked behind them. ]
Okay, okay!!! Have a seat, we’re gonna do this right. Ehem.
2/2
Tell me what’s on your mind, Elsword.
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So, Elsword lays on the chaise lounge and stares up at the ceiling like they're in a real therapist's office in the movies, and then flips around so he's lying on his side to stare at Mizuki. Illusion ruined.]
I think you were right about Add.
1/2
I knew it, I knew it, Iknewit AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA— ]
2/2
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It's... I don't... I don't know. I guess you guys had to put it into words for me to actually get me thinking about it, and that's a bad thing. I think that's bad. I think I need to see the Trader— uh, Ydalir? —and tell her to take back this mirror that's helping me with my emotions and memories because I don't think I want them.
[He takes a breath. Elsword can't explain it, but his heart rate is quickening and his palms are sweaty, and there's something just— wrong with him. More wrong-er than things usually are with him.]
Add's not interested in that kind of thing, and I don't want to mess up our friendship. He said he wasn't interested after the meeting we had. It's not going to work, and that's why I'm... [He huffs out a breath.] I don't know what I am. I don't know what to feel because I usually don't.
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He waits a moment, humming thoughtfully, before he asks softly: ] Is that something you truly want? To be rid of all your emotions, or… have you just created a reality in your mind where you're bound to be hurt regardless of what you do?
If it's the latter, then I have a follow-up question: Do you truly believe that someone who has been at your side, concerned for your well-being, stays by your side, and actively seeks out your company and physical affections would just hurt you or abandon you if, hypothetically, he didn't return your feelings?
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[Facts Elsword keeps in the back of his brain, but both of them know that Elsword is the only one who can actually Touch Add without him recoiling. Mizuki literally saw them laying in the grass like that, getting all up on each other... this is normal for them, and maybe it makes this whole counter-argument that much weaker since Elsword feels the need to point it out.]
...and I don't know the answer to any of that. But people talk about how crushes screw up friendships all the time, right? I guess it's just something that happens, where people drift apart because someone made it weird. I don't want to make it weird.
[Buddy he had his fingers in your mouth in front of God and everybody, it's already weird.]
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Having a crush on someone can screw up friendships, it's true. I'm not about to tell you they won't. However, a lot of the time, those friendships are not that deep. I mean… there's different levels to these sorts of things. As you proceed to the next level, you find out more things about them. Usually not the things they put on their best self for. It's their worst moments, their lows, their moments of weakness — things they don't want anyone to see, but know it's inevitable. These are things that you do eventually share with people you love, even if it's not romantically.
You and Add are heroes. You adventure and support one another and have to make decisions that can put strain on both of you, yet you are both so close anyway. I don't know how long you have both known one another, but I do know that a bond like that doesn't get ruined just because you love him. If anything, I feel like between "telling him" and "getting rid of the mirror", Add strikes me as the type to get mad at you over the latter rather than the former.
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...
Okay. He's rolling back over. Excuse the dramatics, being emotionless does not remove the ~drama~ from the boy. The Illuminous Phenomenon would have to try much harder than that.]
Two years... three-ish? [what is the timeline from master road -> abyss KOG] Something like that. We've been together a while.
[Add stalked the party for three years so Add has technically known Elsword longer, oops.]
...and I guess so. But still. He doesn't do romance or dating or anything. He's said before. I guess I'm just dealing with... that. It's not like I won't survive. I probably wouldn't have gotten here in the first place if we were back on Elrios and I was still constantly exposed to the El Energy. I just...
...
I dunno. This whole situation is [flips wrist] new to me. I've never had this emotion before, I think. Not that I can remember much of my childhood, but I think that's true. I'm not sure what to do with it. It makes me feel listless.
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If I can be honest with you, Mister Elsword, while I have not probably had time to psychoanalyze Add, [ yet ] he does come off to me as someone who wants to be overly prepared for anything. The sort of person who's ready for contingencies if they ever come up. Correct me if I'm wrong, but that's just the sort of impression I got.
The thing about love is it is so vastly opposed to that mind set. No one, and I mean no one is prepared to fall in love. That is why it's called "falling". No one is prepared, and the trust you have for someone to catch you is completely blind. It's messy and unpredictable and powerful, and... I'm sure that scares him to some extent.
[ "He could be aromantic," is a thought Mizuki would have, but he's seen Add and Elsword together. He knows there's nothing platonic about that man's feelings for Elsword. ]
Maybe you could try writing your feelings down in a letter? You don't actually have to give it to Add, of course, but having your thoughts written down for you to see could help you to organize your thoughts.
in hindsight, this thread is now hilarious
He's also able to intuit people pretty well, most of the time. Apparently not with this... and not when Add gives him things flatly at face value, "I'm not interested in those things," and the sort.]
...maybe. I'm not good at writing letters, but I guess it would get it off my chest.
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[ Which will only get more confusing later because the boys are stupid, but, uhhh, Mizuki's doing his best, ok?? ]