✨✨✨✨🪼FREE THERAPY 🪼✨✨✨✨

[mooninthewater]

Who: Mizuki & you
What: "Rubie, stop making logs for everything, idiot" make me. Anyway come get y'alls therapy.
When: Yeah
Where: The beach/Notebook
Warnings: Will be in titles when it comes up.

I. Notebook Post

Hello, friends!

I've set up a private tent on the beach away from all the festivities and such for any therapy sessions you might require while we're here, since the therapy building cannot be accessed currently. If you don't mind, I set up a little table with a mental health questionnaire on the table nearby. There's a lockbox I put inside the tent where you can leave them, or if you're not comfortable with that you can always turn them in to me personally. I can assure you I won't let anyone else read your answers.

If you have any questions that are personal, you can come see me, just let me know. Any general questions can be asked here, though!

II. Therapy tent

[ As Mizuki said, there's a tent! There's an eye catching "FREE THERAPY" sign above it. Anyone is welcome inside. Mizuki tries to be around as much as possible, and if he sees you going inside when he's out of it, he'll gladly wiggle into the tent himself and sit down with whoever is inside with a smile. ]

[ And Mizuki will be bothering specific people with posts below. This is a threat. :) ]

Comments

[mooninthewater]

...ehe. "Fixed". You're not broken, Mister Livio. Even if you might think so - but it's that mentality exactly that therapy helps with. The keyword there being helps. It's not some magic thing that makes all your problems go away or nothin'. It's something to help alleviate some of the emotional burden or help to cope with things on your mind.

If I wanted to fix you, I wouldn't be doing therapy, silly. Most people don't wanna be fixed, though, so I get it.

[livlaughlove]

[liv sure wants to argue that first point, but. praise him, he restrains himself.]

I don't think talking about -- anything, will make it like it never happened.

And I'm nothing if not thoroughly practiced in self-control. [nothing.]

[mooninthewater]

I know. Mister Livio, again, psychotherapy is not meant to make your problems go away, just… make things easier. To talk about things that are bothering you, to seek advice, to have someone really be there for you that you feel you can say anything to.

[ Okay, he’s gonna move closer to Livio so he can hold his hand. ]

If you’re sturdy all the time without breaks, cracks will always start to form, Mister Livio. And it’s okay to take a break.

[livlaughlove]

[he allows the hand holding, though he doesn't exactly return it. that's less that he's uncomfortable and more that mizuki is so much smaller than him. even though he knows the seaborn is very strong, livio is still worried about hurting him.]

I don't like foisting my problems onto others.

And I don't -- need breaks. I don't crack. I can't.

[mooninthewater]

[ When does Livio start coming out singing Surface Pressure from Encanto- ]

When you think of it like that, it'll only make it worse. You're not burdening someone who's actively trying to help you, Mister Livio. It's just meant to alleviate your troubles, even just a little.

...I'm sure you've been a rock for Vash and Father Wolfwood sometimes, no? Do you feel burdened by them?

[livlaughlove]

[oh, you didn't know? that's his theme song.]

Of course not. They give my life meaning. [as confidently as he says this, next, he just sighs.]

I don't know how to make you understand... I was made to serve others. I don't need... all that stuff that I'm sure people do -- help, relief, sympathy, whatever -- because I'm... not a person. I'm a tool. And...

[he makes a small sound in his throat, and his voice quiets even further.]

... maybe I like it that way.

[mooninthewater]

[ Hi, Livio, Mizuki would shake your hand and say "same hat" if he thought you'd understand the reference. ]

Well, that's the thing, Mister Livio. I am, too! A tool, I mean. And I guess depending on your definition of person -- I'm not human, after all. But I still know I can't shoulder everything on my own. Even tools need maintenance, after all.

[livlaughlove]

[that's the beauty of it, really! because hearing that from mizuki instantly turns livio concerned. desperately so.]

What're you talking about? 'course you're still a person. "Person" doesn't only mean "human" as I know it. Even still -- you're not an object. [pot, kettle, etc...]

[mooninthewater]

Oh, no, but I am, Mister Livio! I'm just the instument used in the tapestry my commander weaves. A... finger, at most, in the collective of We Many.

It's not a bad thing!!! All I'm trying to say is that you're allowed to still have support.

[livlaughlove]

Who is your commander? [they sound like an asshole for making mizuki feel that way!

Weird How That Works, Huh, Livio?]

[mooninthewater]

Oh! Doctor Add! But umm, Mi- er... Affogato said he'd take his place in the meantime~ He's really nice.

[livlaughlove]

[..........

HELLO???]

They called you their instrument? [let it be known how soft and calm his voice is. while he is just barely not boiling over with rage.]

I'm sobbing, Livio--

[mooninthewater]

[ .....??? Mizuki feels like he's lost the conversation a bit. ]

Not... specifically? Is there a problem, Mister Livio?

LOL he's soooo

[livlaughlove]

Yes. There is. Nobody should treat you like that, Mizuki. Like you're less than a person.

[...buddy...]

[mooninthewater]

...I don't really mind, though, Mister Livio...??? Besides, weren't you just saying the same thing a bit ago??? I was trying to tell you I relate to that and... h-how did this get flipped on me??

[livlaughlove]

[poor mizuki!!

livio doesn't acknowledge that he's being a hypocrite. in fact, he'll double down.]

It's different.

[mooninthewater]

[ Mizuki finds that incredibly hard to believe, Livio… ]

…How so?

[livlaughlove]

[frowns... opens his mouth. closes it again. huffs.]

It just is.

[mooninthewater]

... [ Mizuki adjusts himself then just... plops himself into Livio's lap. Lapzuki time. He pats both of Livio's hands. ] This is what I mean. You should tell me about that. What's different? What makes you feel like that? Why do you sound so sad when you talk about it?

[livlaughlove]

[... hello???? this is so much More than just hand holding. but... again, livio doesn't have a damn clue what is normal or not and just... goes with it. ok, zooks.

his brows furrow as he tries to think of something. he's honestly not even considering the fact that this might be therapy anyway. just trying to figure out a way to explain why he is the only one who should be treated as subhuman. because that is a normal thing to want to say.]

I don't want other people to feel that way about themselves.

[...]

I'm bad at... being a person. I've always been dangerous. Never fit in. You know, Nick was recruited by the Eye. I volunteered. And when I did, suddenly, everything was... simple. I'm good at following orders. It's easier for me to be a tool than a person. It isn't complicated.

[mooninthewater]

[ Unfortunately, this is normal for two types of people: girls with their besties in high school and Mizuki. Sorry, Livio. He listens, though, seriously and genuinely, and he does his best to think about it from all angles in the best way he knows how. But… ]

…You would make for an excellent Seaborn, Mister Livio.

[ He can’t help but point out the obvious. And he’s sure, to some extent, Livio can maybe glean some things from it. It’s why Irene had stabbed him. It’s why it was kept so secret.

All of which is a roundabout way to say: he understands. For the first time it all makes sense. Well, except for Raz, anyway. ]

The “I don’t want anyone to feel that way” worries me, though. The things you’re saying… sound good…? Why would you not want others to experience it…? That part confuses me.

[livlaughlove]

[he doesn't know how to feel about that. maybe he would make a good seaborn. he knows most other terrans hate and fear them, which... is accurate enough already. but other than that, he doesn't have much context.]

... It being simpler or easier doesn't mean it makes me happy.

People are... like herd animals, right? I don't think most people would choose complete isolation unless they were driven to it.

[mooninthewater]

But simpler things leave out complications. Complications make people sad. Isn't that for the best?? [ Like, hello? ] Unless... the person you were following wasn't a good person? That's the only thing I can think that would make you sad.

And I don't think I would compare them to herd animals. People are sort of... unique. They crave communication and connection and find their sense of belonging within community. And even then, it's never truly consistent. It's fascinatingly complex.

[livlaughlove]

[he is pointedly quiet for... a while, after mizuki surmises that he'd been mixed up with bad people. not in the same way as he has been thus far, in considering his response. the look in his eyes is blank as he stares forward.

at least until he remembers that mizuki is probably waiting on him to speak.]

Personal relationships are complications, aren't they? But people need them.

[mooninthewater]

...Not usually! I feel like maybe you're hanging around Vash too much if you think that, Mister Livio. [ Callout post for the Triguns. ] I feel like it's not all that complicated. I like you, so you're my friend. That's pretty simple, I think.