[Early December]

[ghostharasser]

If I had a nickel for every time I've woken up at the end of the month with a full set of memories from another version of me that's just a little to the left


I would have two nickels. Which isn't a lot, I guess, but it's weird that it's happened twice.

Comments

[theuniverseleads]

Hah! I suppose it really could have! Maybe if you ask it nicely, it'll give you a new one~ [full of corruption and evil, don't actually do this]

No, I think you're right. [they've already talked to TK about it.] Stars, I'm glad that's over with. How much of it can you still remember?

[ghostharasser]

Yeah, no. I think I'd rather clean out Callan's fish tank.

Pretty much everything. Unfortunately I've been cursed by the gods with a really good memory. It's hard to explain but that other me was a ...divergence point? For something really specific that happened to me a few years ago. Most of everything is the same up until about three years ago.

[theuniverseleads]

Better to be cursed with a good memory than a bad one. Imagine how awful it would be to forget your whole life because you had to remember a different one for awhile!

Was it a fun life?

[ghostharasser]

Yeah, that sounds awful.

I guess so. Remember when we talked about crime a while back? I mentioned a life I had consciously walked away from? That was basically him.

[theuniverseleads]

It DOES, doesn't it?? Who would ever want that?? [staring directly at siffrin downpage]

Sounds like quite the dramatic change. Well? Was the choice worth it?

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Not that it matters to me, teehee! You don't have to answer that. Glad to have you back to normal, Ghostbuster~

[ghostharasser]

[Also. Staring down at Siffrin. Coughs.]

Hahaha, no, it's cool. I don't mind answering.

I've always wondered what he was like, so It was interesting to get to experience it, I guess? It's hard to quantify the pros and cons of both lives to figure out if one is "better" than the other. He clearly hasn't lived through some of the crazier things that I have, but there's things that I've learned about myself that he never figured out and he might not ever figure out. I don't know if I'd ever give that up, personally, even if his life is, by comparison, way more normal and safer.

Does that make sense?

[theuniverseleads]

[Oh... he's actually comfortable enough to give an answer to that here? Where everyone can see?

Must be nice, feeling that comfortable with yourself. Can't be them, teehee~]

Yeah, I get it. A lot can change in just a few years! If you undid all those crazy things you went through for a normal life, you'd be taking away the good along with the bad, wouldn't you?

I think you made the right choice. You had your family there with you the whole time, right? If you left them behind, you'd definitely regret it, and if they're already there, what more do you need?

[ghostharasser]

[Luckily this is not the first time he's waxed existential on a public network and getting into these conversations is a weird hobby of his at this point. His life is so fucking strange, Loop.]

Yeah, exactly. I couldn't have said it better myself.

I am who I am because of the things I've seen and experienced, to try and roll that back would just invalidate my whole identity. Moving forward was the single most important decision I've ever made and giving that up would just render it all pointless.

Like, it was cool to see what that other me was getting up to, and what his life was like, but I'm happy to leave it there. I don't have any regrets.